Red Dress

CHAPTER 1

Walking alone in pedestrian line trying to figure out what I have done to have this kind of life.I thought having a family would showered you love that you never have due to the unresponsible biological parents. Looking up in the night sky with teared eyed pleading to give me an answered to my question. How could I overcome this if I don't have someone with me, I don't have a special person that I could run to everytime I feel like giving up my life. Growing up in the four corner of the orphanage gives me a little freedom but feeling envious to those little child that been adopted by someone compared to me that still stock up in this orphanage.

" Lord, I know I have done lots of sin but I wanted you to know that I'm fully surrending my life to you. I want you to finally overcome the pain, unfair treatment and the unknown emotions I have. I don't wanted this anymore, I'm tried of this." Bending knee with my fingers intertwined to each other while looking up to that dark slightly raining sky. I know I'm such a fool to take that he will hear my prayers. I never believe on him since I have heard the truth from those sisters that keep on feeding me to make me survive in the everyday life.

I maybe thankful that they adopt me for a meantime I experience the life having a family. A father that on my side to provide the necessities and wants of the family, mother that showered her attention, love and care to each member of the family but sad to say even I'm part of that said family. I never feel those things from them. I just feel like I am their servant to follow every commandments they said. I maybe a prideful girl but I just wanted their attention and love.

Why is the world so unfair and he is never been fair, why does he give to others what I want to experience, is there anything wrong with wishing that even once I can at least experience being loved without asking for anything in return. The pure love, attention and care, why I cannot have it?." Saying those while walking, if someone would see me they will surely think that I am crazy. their life. You never feel the love from your biological parents and now even in your adopted parents cannot give it to you even 1% percent of it. Asking for it isn't a big deal right? How I cannot have it? Why it didn't give it to me? Am I not capable of having it? I'm not qualified in experiencing those?

Stunned as if nothing enters the brain. Walking without direction like the life I have now, no certainty of what will happen. Kicking the objects that blocked the way I was walking, I accidentally kicked a ball-like crystal that lit up like a star that fell from the sky. It's good that the ball has a light following it, meanwhile I'll nearly disappear from the calendar, no one can light up the world I have when it's so messed up, it's so cloudy and not only that, it's so dark that even I can't see the right direction. That's life what I have now. No light could light it up even a candle that make a small light towards a right direction it doesn't given to me.

"Hays! life is just life that you don't know what everyone is really fighting for, whether it will lead to something or just come back to nothing." I step my feet slowly to pick that small crystal ball just to be blinded by the light around on it. It's a very bright light, it's like a light from aliens that I don't know if it's true or not because if it's true, I'm going to get it so that I can relieve what I'm carrying if there's a problem in life, I just want to rest, rest in him, Joking. I never have that someone that will love you and you will love him. I'm just loving and cherishing those adopted parents I have. Loving them with all my might. Caring for them even though they doesn't care for me. Doing everything that could pleased them thinking that they will change they treatment towards me.

I opened the ball that I was holding from the side where my kick reached because it was the distance that the ball went. I don't know if my kick was just strong or because the ball was over acting and it actually reached the other side of the road and it ended up on the edge. What's special is that if I wasn't a great gossip, I wouldn't have really spent time on this ball, but because I'm born to be a gossiper, I picked it up so I could know if it was money or a baby alien that I was going to throw away. Of course, I didn't have any food for myself or for him, so that's so lucky if ever I will adopted that alien even how adorable it is.

"Oh my gosh! My dearest dear sunshine" I overloaded shouted my voice because of too much shocked I'm feeling right now. I never thought that crystal ball is a little cutie red dress. It's shining like a bright star in the night sky, twinkling to be a light of everyone so they will able to see the world despite of the darkness.

I wore that dress and to my surprise it bloomed like a flower that starting to spread their petals. The dress is beautiful it's giving you an a vibe that as if you are a goddess who fell from the sky with a red carpet that you can step on to serve as a guide so that the very white feet of the goddess do not get dirt or scarred but when I put it on I did not know if it was a goddess look for me or I look like a beggar dressed in fancy clothes but those clothes don't fit me. But what I didn't expect was the excitement as if there was magic wrapped around this red dress. It's feel like there's something magical wind blowing around this dress and the hem of it flying like little butterfly that make a beautiful turn and it became a shinning shimmering glittery.To my surprise, my eyes closed and I lost my way. I don't know what happened next because I woke up in a vast I'm in that room.

I looked around this room, every design of this room is amazing because you feel like a princess who lived in the world of the Spanish era because every item they used is really minimalist and the color of the room just blends with the color dark shades like brown, black and gray. I cannot explain it well because of course I'm not rich like others to know what kind of designs these are. I just feel it's like an spanish design. You would know that this an Spanish kind of room from the furniture to the chandelier, dressing room, the bathroom, the shoe rack, the color of each item in this room it's shouting the era of spanish world. I always see those things in television whenever I watche spanish series. I don't how I end up here but I cannot feel that I'm in danger, I feel like I'm comfortable with this room. The feeling that you been here multiple times, you live here, you grown up here, you learn different things here.

I hurriedly run away from the bed I'm laying comfortable earlier when I heard the click of the lock of this room. I crawled the distance from the edge to the middle of my bed to hide, not because I was guilty because I took something but because I was afraid of being criticized and made a mistake that would lead me to be a prisoner. I never Imagine that I would end up that way even how hard the life is. It's never come up to my mind that I will do illegal things just to survive that cruelty of the world.