Kismet

chapter 9

Camila

When I walked into work my stomach did a back flip when I saw Marcus was there but the disappointment settled in quickly when I noticed that Davon was not with him. I know it's stupid to keep away from him when I clearly miss him so much it hurts sometimes but I want just want to be whole.

My therapist agrees with me that starting a relationship right now isn't the greatest idea. She said that before I could truly love someone and give myself to them I would need to love myself and stop seeing myself as broken.

I'm still working on that broken part but I know I'll get there. I just hope Davon will still be waiting. Of course I would fully understand if he decides to move on. I'm just holding on to the hope that he cares for me as much as everyone says he does.

"Hey Cam you doing ok" Luc asks as she walks up to me pulling me out of my thoughts.

"Yea I'm good" I tell her. I can't quite shake the sadness from my voice.

"Are you sure babes" she ask putting her arm around me "you look like someone stole your last candy bar"

"Yea I'm ok" I say with a small laugh "just missing Davon"

"I know babes. You still don't feel up to seeing him" she asks me.

"Not yet. I'm worried that if I rush this then I'm gonna end up back in the same dark place" I tell her.

"Yea I know and trust me none of us want that to happen. I was so worried Cam" she says as she hugs me "I had never seen you so lost. Not even when Tia and Tio passed away"

"Yea" I say absent-mindedly "well better get to work"

I walk away from her my mind on that night again. I know I should tell Luc everything that happened but I just don't want her to treat me differently. I remember when my parents passed away everyone treated me with kid gloves and I hated it. One thing about me is I don't handle pity well.

"Hey girly" Marcus says as I walk by his table "how are you doing"

"Better thank you" I tell him. I want to ask how Davon is doing but I just don't know how to.

"So how's therapy" he ask me

"It's going really good" I say with a small smile "I feel like I'm getting somewhere"

"Good Davon will be happy for you" he tells me. I'm so grateful he brought him up and I think he knows I was hoping he would.

"How's he doing" I ask as casually as I can.

"He's doing ok" he has a grin on his face as he says this like he knows every piece of information about Davon is crucial to me.

"Well that's good to hear" I say trying and failing for a nonchalant attitude about it.

"Yea he mostly just works and stays home" he tells me "oh and goes to some diner place all the time"

"He what" I ask. Maybe that was Davon I seen the other day. I start wondering why he goes to the diner. Is it just for the food or is he hoping to see me there? He knows how often I go there I told him when he joined me for lunch a few weeks ago.

"Yea he said it was a new place he found" he says clearly not knowing that I was the one that showed him it in the first place.

"Have you been there" I ask

"No he always seems to go when I have plans with Luci" he tells me "he seems so secretive about the place like it's his own personal secret hideaway"

"Hey you sexy man" Luc says as she joins us by Marcus's table.

"Hey you sexy woman" he says grabbing her by the hips and kissing her.

I watch them for a moment a little jealous. I mean don't get me wrong I'm super happy for Luc. I'm glad she found someone who she seems totally into but I wish I could be that confident with Davon.

I quietly walk away giving them their privacy. I go to the back of the bar and sit down. Maybe I wasn't ready to come back to work. I just hate feeling this way. I wish there was a way I could just forget everything that Jason did to me.

I decide to head home early. I let Luc know before I left that I was leaving and she told me she was going to go to Marcus's after work. Once I was home I changed into my favorite sweats and grabbed my favorite blanket and laid on the couch to watch a movie.

I woke up around four am covered in sweat. "oh thank God it was just a dream" I say out loud to my self. I get up and get a glass of milk. My momma used to give me a glass of milk when I had nightmares as a kid. I still find comfort in it. I sit at the table and replay the dream I had.

I was walking into the diner when I was grabbed from behind. I tried to scream but the person that grabbed me had my mouth covered. I couldn't tell who it was because it was dark out but I had a bad feeling I knew who it was. This feeling was confirmed when they whispered in my ear.

"Thought you could get a way from me huh" his voice instantly turned my blood cold. "I'll teach you what happens when you try to escape me"

He dragged me to an empty alley and threw me to the ground. When I looked up all I could see was the evil in his eyes.

"Jason how did you find me" I ask my voice coming out in a whisper. I couldn't manage any more volume because my fear was constricting my throat.

"I told you. You are mine. I own you" he said with a sneer. "You can't hide from me I will find you anywhere" He leaned forward and began tearing my clothes off.

That's when I woke up. I wish I knew how to stop these stupid nightmares. I hate how they make me feel so weak after I have one. I always get an eerie feeling that he's hiding just around the corner after one. Maybe I'll talk to Ashlynn about them and see what she has to say.

Davon

I'm in a meeting with our hopefully soon to be new clients when my phone starts ringing. "Excuse me for just one moment please" I say as I get up and head out into the hallway. I'm really hoping it's Cami but am disappointed when I see Sarah's name on my screen.

I decide to answer anyway knowing exactly what this conversation was going to be about. She was gonna be pissed I haven't called her or anything since I kicked her out. She calls and texts me but I don't reply however I'm sick of it so hopefully after this she won't call me anymore.

"Hello" I say in an almost bored voice.

"Baby why haven't you called me" she says in a whiny voicemail. Ugh I hate when she talks like that. It always reminds me of a child throwing a tantrum and like I figured she wants to know why I've cut contact with her.

"Because I've not wanted to call you" I say matter of fact like.

"But baby I miss you" there she goes with that whiny baby voice s**t.

"Please don't call me again Sarah" I tell her starting to get annoyed now "if it wasn't obvious when I kicked you out of my place we are done"

"No please don't do this to us baby" she begs "please I love you"

"Oh whatever you don't love me Sarah you just like to f**k" I say

"No I swear baby I do love you just give me a chance and I'll show you that I love you" she sounds like she has started crying. When she noticed that that wasn't going to affect me she tried a different tactic " come on baby you know no one will be able to satisfy you like I can"

"Ok I'm done with the conversation goodbye Sarah" I say as I hang up my phone. Hopefully she got the message and will leave me the hell alone.

I head back into the meeting and apologize for the interruption. Marcus and I are meeting with Mr. and Mrs. Weaver about switching to our security systems for the clubs they own. They also want us to get them set up with security for their homes.

"So as I was saying we really do have the best system in the game" Marcus tells them as he hands them our paperwork showing the specs of what our system entails.

"Yes I see that" Mr.Weaver says as he looks through the paperwork "I really like how we can monitor all our businesses from one device"

"Yea that tends to be the favorite feature we offer" I say with a chuckle "it definitely makes it easier when you have multiple businesses you are running"

"We also wanted to talk to you about maybe getting some new guards for each of the clubs" Mrs.Weaver says.

"Of course. That is definitely something we can arrange for you as well" Marcus informs them.

"May I ask what kind of clubs you have" I ask "knowing will make it easier for us to select the right kind of guards for you"

"Well we own five night clubs and six gentlemen's clubs" Mrs.Weaver tells us. For a moment I'm a bit surprised that they own gentlemen's clubs. They don't at all seem like the type of clients we normally have that own those types of clubs. Mrs.Weaver seems like the type that would faint if she were to walk in to a strip club.

The rest of the meeting goes really well and we set up a time to have dinner so we can go over the finer details of the contracts with them. It was Marcus's idea to always do a dinner with any clients before we sign any paperwork. He says it gives us a chance to get to know them in a relaxed setting. At first I thought it was ridiculous but now I agree with him it really does seem to help.

The rest of the day goes by kinda slow as it's just such a boring day. After work I head home ready to sit and relax maybe have a nice brandy. Of course all that goes to hell when I get off the elevator and f*****g Sarah is standing at my f*****g door.

"What the hell are you doing here" I ask in annoyance.

"I just wanted to see you baby" she says is that annoying whiny voice.

"I told you we are over" I say. This woman is really testing my patience right now.

"Yea but we can't be over I'm pregnant" she says.

"Bullshit you're pregnant" I yell at her the last bit of self control I have slipping away.

"But I am baby I swear we're gonna be parents" she says "aren't you happy"

"Why the f**k would I be happy" I ask.

"Because we love each other" she says as she starts to pout.

"Sarah listen I do not nor have I ever loved you" I tell her. Making sure to emphasize every word so I know she understands me.

"But you have to love me I'm pregnant with your baby" she says as tears start to fall down her face.

"Ok well if you are really pregnant then let's go to the doctors and make sure" I tell her calling her on her bullshit.

"Ok fine maybe I'm not pregnant but I know you still love me" she says throwing herself at me.

"I DO NOT LOVE YOU SARAH" I scream at her.

"What you got a new f**k toy and now you don't need me is that it" she's getting pissed.

"First off get the f**k away from me. Second off if I did it would be none of your damn business" I am really starting to get pissed at her "and third off don't ever f*****g talk about her like that again"

"I f*****g knew you had another b***h why else would you stop calling me" she says as she starts to raise her voice at me "what's her f*****g name huh. I bet she will never be able to satisfy you like I can"

As soon as she finishes her rant I hear the elevator doors open and Luci comes walking out. When she sees me in the hallway with Sarah she looks pissed.

"Oh is this the b***h you're f*****g now huh" Sarah screams at me

"Whoa whoa whoa. Who the f**k are you calling a b***h" Luci says matching Sarah's anger "who the f**k is this Davon" she says turning towards me.

"I'm his f*****g woman you stupid hoe" Sarah yells at Luci.

"b***h I don't know who the f**k you think you are but you better watch how the f**k you talk to me" Luci says as she get in Sarah's face.

"ENOUGH" I yell so loud I hurt my own ears. "Sarah I have already told you we are over now please get the f**k outta here and do not come back. If you don't leave immediately I will call the police"

Sarah looks completely taken aback at the way I just yelled at her but she gets the point at leaves.

"Who the hell was that" Luci asks me as the elevators doors close.

"A crazy ex. She called me earlier and I told her to stop calling and that we were and have been over for awhile but she was here when I got home" I tell her as I drag my hand down my face.

"Damn clearly she didn't get the memo" she laughs.

"So how's Cami doing" I ask her.

"She's doing really good" she says smiling.

"Well I'm glad to hear that" I say as I open my door "you have a good night Luci"

"You too Davon" she says as she opens Marcus's door "and if you need me to handle anymore crazy ex's you let me know"

"Will do" I say as we both laugh.

Once inside I put my stuff up and walk straight to the kitchen. I definitely need that glass of brandy now. I make my way to the living area and throw myself down on the couch. As I drink my brandy I find a movie to watch. I am only half watching the movie because my mind is on Cami and wondering what she's doing right now.

Lucia

"What was all the yelling about" Marcus ask me when I close his door.

"Some chick at Davon's door thought him and I were together" I say rolling my eyes.

"Which chick" he ask

"Sarah something" I say

"Ahhhh" he says laughing

"Why are you laughing" I ask him

"Cause that b***h is crazy" he says still laughing "I told Davon she would be nothing but trouble"

"Well hopefully she gets the hint and stays gone" I tell him "cause I'm telling you what her going off on me and calling me a b***h and a hoe is one thing. If she tries that s**t on Cam I'll kick her f*****g ass. Nobody f***s with my girl."

"Oh you're sexy when you're angry" he stands up and starts walking towards me.

"Oh whatever" I say blushing

"Bring that sexy ass here" he says his voice so husky my panties are already wet.

"Yes master" I see his eyes darken when I call him master. I know he loves it because his d**k is already hard.

When I make my way towards him he grabs me roughly around my waist. He leans in and kisses me hard. "Get your ass upstairs now" he growls in my ear.

"Yes master" I say looking at him through my eyelashes.

I run upstairs to his room and immediately get ready for him. I strip down to my bra and panties. I put my hair in a ponytail and put on the stiletto boots he got me to wear during our scenes. I love these boots they make me feel so sexy. They are black leather and go up past my knees. I'm waiting for him in my lacey pink bra and matching thong.

When he comes in the room he walks past me like I'm not there but I keep my eyes down. I love the way it makes me feel knowing he could be just sitting there watching me as I pant with need my panties are already soaked.

"Stand" I hear him say his voice low and sexy.

I get to my feet but do not look at him. He walks towards me and stands behind me. He slowly starts caressing my my back and moves his hands to my ass. "God you have such a gorgeous ass" he says as he squeezes my ass hard.

He moves his hands to my breast and squeezes them hard "and your breast god just the thought of them has my d**k throbbing"

I can feel his breath on my neck and it causes me to shiver as I feel more wetness between my legs. I am breathing so heavy I feel light-headed. He moves his hands down and cups my p***y in his hands. "mmmmm you're so f*****g wet baby" he says as he slowly starts rubbing my c**t through my panties.

A moan escapes me as I can feel the pleasure building. "Yes baby let me hear you" he whispers in my ear "should I make you c*m standing here" he ask as he increases his speed and starts rubbing me harder.

"Yes please master" I moan loudly as I feel myself getting closer to my release.

He keeps rubbing my c**t in circles going faster and harder. "you gonna c*m for me baby" he ask

"Mmmmm" is all I'm able to get out.

"I said are you gonna c*m for me baby" he says as he grabs my breast roughly.

"Oh god yes master" I moan my breathing becoming erratic.

"You better wait till I tell you to" he demands as he pulls my breast lose from my bra.

"Please master" I whimper. I can feel my release coming on fast and I am barely holding on.

"Whose p***y is this" he growls

"Yours master" my knees becoming weak and my body begging for release.

"That's right baby" he groans "c*m for your master"

At his words I c*m hard moaning his name. He continues to rub my c**t with his fingers and uses his other arm to hold me up. Once I come back down he turns me around.

"Down on your knees" he commands

"Yes master" I say still not looking at him.

"Look at me" he says in a deep voice.

I slowly raise my head and see his d**k is hard as a rock. When I look in his eyes all I can see is want for me. He reaches down and runs his fingers along my cheek. "you are such a good girl for your master" he coos at me.

I have never liked when guys would talk to me like he does or when they would want me to call them master. It was always such a turn off to me but the first time Marcus called me 'his good girl' I melted in his arms. Maybe I just hadn't met the right guy yet.

"Take off my pants" he tells me. I reach up and undo his zipper first getting excited as I begin. I love sucking his d**k. I love watching him come undone by me it makes me feel powerful. The fact that I can make this strong man a pile of mush makes my insides warm.

I pull his pants down slowly and then look up at him as I reach for his boxers. He leans down and cups my cheek with a look of pure lust in his eyes. I pull his boxers down freeing his erection. I wrap my hand around the base of him and lick my lips.

I lean forward and lick the tip of his d**k earning a low growl from him. I smile to myself and slowly insert the head of his d**k in my mouth. "mmmm" I moan out as I take more of him in my mouth. He reaches his hand around my head and grabs a handful of my hair.

"f**k yes baby" he moans as I take him all the way in my mouth "such a good girl"

I start moving my head faster and moving my hand up and down his d**k at the same time. His grip on my hair tightens and he lets out another moan. I grin to myself knowing that he is close.

I feel his legs stiffen under my hand. He starts shoving his d**k further in my mouth making me gag slightly. "oh f**k baby I'm so close" I move my hand from around him and let him take control. He moves his both his hands to hold my head between them and starts thrusting into my mouth. I moan around him when he is at the back of my throat and that's all it takes to push him over the edge. He moans my name loudly as he cums in my mouth. I make sure to get every drop not missing any.

"Oh f**k baby that was amazing" he says as he pulls him self out of my mouth. I smile up at him through my eyelashes.

He leans down and lifts me up from the floor. He throws me on the bed and I land with a small bounce. He slowly crawls between my legs stopping to lick my wet center. "f**k I love how you taste baby" he says as he continues up my body. When he reaches my face he leans down to give me a kiss full of passion. He rubs his d**k at my wet center then shoves his d**k inside me. He kisses me again as we both chase another release.