Rejected, maybe forgiven but never forgotten

My name is Alexa McAllister and i will turn 16 in one day. I cant hardly wait cause that can be my chance to get out of here. Let me tell you how my day usually starts. I heard my Brother Jasper yell. "You worthless piece of s**t get the hell up and make me my goddamn breakfast". O God Alexa thought i Totally overslept!! Trouble is waiting for me downstairs, better be as quick as possible. It isn't that surprising that i overslept. If you think about it, and you have to make all the meals for every pack member, clean everything, go to school and do your homework you would probably have overslept as well. I used to love my family but that has changed over the years. They treated me like crap ever since i got my wolf at 14. I dont know why but they wouldnt let me shift after that first time. I never saw my wolf and she has never spoken to me. Even after my first shift. I headed downstairs to make breakfast as fast as possible. But before i could enter the kitchen i got a punch in the face. " stupid b***h how is it possible for you to be late so many times. You know your responsebilaties". After his little rant he kicked me in the stomach and told me i better have breakfast ready if i wanted to walk again after today. f*****g piece op crap. I hate them so much and i cant wait to leave. In 1 day it will be my birthday. Finally i will meet my mate. I so hope he is a good person i need that in my life. After finally finishing making breakfast i clean up as fast as i can. But of course with my luck i bumped into the packslut Brenda with her 2 Minions Eva and Susie. " Watch where youre going you waste of space" Brenda yelled. Youre so pethatic its not even funny she continued. After wich she slapped me on my cheek. I felt the anger building up in my chest. You know the feeling like there is some monster who wants to crawl out of your chest. I knew i needed to resist the urge to slap that b***h like she has never been slapped before, of wasnt worth the extra trouble. I quickly turned and ran away. I needed to get to school. Still had a 4 mile walk ahead of me so i needed to get going. Not like school is any better but i still wanted to make something of myself so i could leave that hell. I walked through the main enterance and headed to my locker. But before i could open my locker there was the son of the Alpha of my pack, Lars of the Bloodhound pack. Of course he wasnt alone. My i***t Brother and some of his dickhead friends joined him. While i opened my locker door and tried to grab my books, Jasper slammed my locker door with my hand still in it. I screamed "please stop Jasper, why are you doing this". " Well for starters you where late with breakfast and im furious that i even have to inhale the same air as you do". You and me both Brother i thought to myself. Best not make him angry even more. I pulled my hand out of my locker and ran to my class. Thankfully i was just in time. It was history, one of my favourite subjects. Aside from all the bullying i love school. I know not the most popular opinion but i can use my brain and learn a lot. The day went by pretty fast. I ran home because i needed to make dinner, and wash and clean. And 2 beatings in one day was enough. When i came home the Alpha called me in his office. " Alexa, i want you to make a special dinner and birthday cake for tomorrow. Lars will be turning 18 and he will take over the pack" 'just make shure you make something special". There will be no school tomorrow doe you because you have enough to do in here. I nodded and said "yes Alpha it will be done". "I will now go prepare dinner and do my work". After which i bowed my head. The Alpha nodded and waved me away. He wasnt even really the problem. He never abused me or called me names but he didnt stop any of the bullying and the abuse. So in a sense he is a part of the problem of i think about it. After finishing making dinner and cleaning i headed upstairs to my small room. But before i could enter my room i felt a bang to my head. I was getting dizzy. Someone pushed me with my face against the wall. I hear my Brother hiss " you stupid w***e, how many times do i have to tell you that you dont talk back especially in front of my soon to be Alpha. Yours as well might i ad. You know im his beta i cant have that disrespect. He punched me in my side wich hit two of my ribs. I could hardly breath. I slumbed to the floor and layed on my other side. Jasper spat me in the face and walked away. I am so sick of this. Cant wait till tomorrow. I hope my mate doesnt find me dissapointing. Even i deserve happyness. All i want is my own family that loves me unconditionely. I just hope my mate doesnt reject me tomorrow so i can escape this hellhole. O Goddess i havent even thought about the possibilaty of my mate Being in my horrible pack. What would happen of that would be the case. I crawled to my room and layed on my matress. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I woke up extra early this morning. The pain was gone and i was completely healed. Thanks for Being a werewolf. Today was my big day although i didnt really expect anyone to remember. Walking to my small closet i picked out a nice burgundy dress, sleeveless and classy. It wasnt over the top but i wanted to make myself pretty so that my mate could be proud of me. I gave my hair a waivy curl and put on a little lipgloss. Putting on some ballerina flats (I still have to be a little bit comfortable today cause i have a lot of things to do). I made my way downstairs and saw that noone was up. Great i thought to myself. I can have a lot of things done before they come downstairs. I started by making the cakes. Im going to make a three layered cake. After making batter and putting them in the oven i started making breakfast. Pancakes, eggs, bacon, fresh orangejuice and waffles. After that the cakes where done and i let them cool down, i could here some stumbeling upstairs. I quickly put everything on the table. I went back to the kitchen and started making the cream and custard for the cake. I rolled out fondant and cut al kinds of different fruits. After an hour of hard work i had made a beautifull 3 teared cake. I hope Lars would like it. When i came into the diningroom i could see that they ate almost everything. I started cleaning up when i smelled the most amazing smell. It smelled like mint and chocolate. And i dont even like mint haha. I looked up and by the door stood Lars. We looked eachothers eyes and all i heard was a an insinc "Mate". O Godess i thought i cant be mates with Lars. But i could feel the pull. Before i could register what happened he had me wrapped in his arms. "Mine" i heard him growl he shoved his head in my neck and took a long breath. He looked at me and i saw that his eyes where all black and full of lust. He kissed me passionatly and i could only kiss him back. So this is what it feels like to be accepted i thought to myself. He picked me up and took me upstairs to his bedroom. It has been years since ive been here. Before the pack turned on me Jasper, Lars and i where very close. We had so much fun. He layed me down on his bed and started kissing me underwhile feeling my body. He looked me in my eyes and pulled my dress up. He started to massage me on my sensitive area. It felt great. I have zero experience in this field so i was surprises how good it felt. I could feel my body react. He felt it to cause he looked at me, smirked and said look who is ready. And with that pulled my panties down. He undid his pants and dropped his shorts. Before i could say anything he was already inside me and it hurt like hell. I whimper " please Lars easy i have never done this before" i whispered. He smirked but he didnt listen and pushed in harder and harder. He finally climaxed and pulled out of me. He layed on the bed for a couple of minutes. Then he stood up and began dressing himself. " get dressed Alexa, i have a date with Brenda". WHAT i yelled but im your mate and i just gave myself to you. "Alexa youre pretty and all but youre not Luna worthy. You are weak , You let everyone abuse you and you take it all. Why would i want a Luna like that? I feel the bond so you and me will be a secret and i will continue dating Brenda and make her my Luna. You just have to deal with that". " im leaving right now so i would like for you to be gone when i get back. O and change the sheets, wouldnt want Brenda finding out our little secret". After his s**t speech he left me there heartbroken. How could he? I am his mate and that slut Brenda will drive this pack to the ground. Maybe he will come to his sences. I am his mate after all I started dressing and changed the sheets. I went to my room and took a shower. I dropped to the floor and started crying. This wasnt how this ALL was supose to be Im so dissapointed not only in myself but my mate and even the moongoddess. Was i such a terrible person that i wasnt worthy for a loyal mate? Will he change his mind? Do i want to? I dont know anymore. After a short sleepless night i felt horrible. I heard the party downstairs to celibrate the new alpha, my douche of a mate, and i felt him having seks with probably slutty Brenda. It felt like my heard broke in a million pieces and i had the most horrible stomach pain you could ever have. I hate him but why do i still want him. What the hell is wrong with me. If only he would reject me then i would have a chance to get a second mate but no he wants to have it both ways. After showering i headed downstairs making breakfast as usual and cleaning up after. When i was done i went upstairs to grab my bag to go to school. Before i could exit my room Lars (picture above)stormed in and slammed his mouth on mine. I tried to pull myself of him and i finally sucseeded when he looked at me confused. “ why are you pulling away, you are my mate and i want to kiss you”. I looked at him with disgust on my face and said do you think im craving those infectious lips of yours when you probably sucked face and what more with the pack slut. Once i said that i saw his face change and it wasnt a nice change. He grabbed me by my throat and slammed me against the wall. “ i will say this one more time, i do what i want to do and it is not your place to say anything to me about it. I am your Alpha and you will listen. I will kiss and f**k you where and whenever i want. DO.YOU.UNDERSTAND". I could only nodd and he let go a bit. He threw me on the bed and started unbuckeling his belt and dropped his jeans and boxers. He tore of my shirt and bra and pulled my pants and panties down. Once again he just shoved himself really hard inside me. Tears fell from my eyes. I whimpered but he only liked that i think. I feel disgusted and i hate him. He is my mate but i dont want him anymore. When he was finally done he ordered me to get dressed and look presentable for school. Once he left i took a hot shower to wash that basterd of me. I felt so dirty and weak. How could i let him. But im worse treated then most omegas so appereantly im nothing. This whole week went by with me cooking, cleaning, getting beatings from my packmembers and Being r***d by my so called mate. Monday early morning i woke up feeling so sick to my stomach. I was constantly hanging above my toilet pucking my longues out. When i thought about it it dawned on me that Lars didnt use any protection. O my moongodess please please dont let this happen. I cant have a baby. The only hope i have is that he finally accepts me and he will be good for his child. But i cant never leave if i get his baby. Problem is i can be bitchy but he does have a right to know if im pregnant. Whatever he has done to me i cant deny him his child. I need to get a test so i will skip school for first period. When i was done doing my choires i quickly went to the stores in the nearby village. I bought a test and went to school. Once i gave the administration my fake docters appointment note i quickly went to the bathroom. I checked if i was alone and did my business. I flushed and put the lid down and sat on it waiting with the test in front of me on my lap. Once the minutes where up i checked and i had almost no hope. It was possitive. Why would this happen to me children are a blessing why would the moongodess bless me with this whilst having i am having a horrible mate. I went out of the toilet took a quick look in the mirror and headed to class. Fudging math, thankfully our teacher is never paying any attention to students Being or absent or not listening. So this periode im good. After the bell rang i quickly exited the room i wanted to find Lars. I took a deep snif and followed his scent outside where he was smoking a cigarette alone. He saw me and looked angry. “where were you this morning?” I was looking for you but you where not in your room. I thought i told you, you need to be available to me whenever i want". I looked at him, crying and whispered im so afraid. He said What? Why would you be afraid? I havent even touched you yet. And then i blurted out, IM PREGNANT. The look on his face i could see his wolf come out happy and in a flash it was gone. He looked at me in disgust and grabbed me by the hair and pulled me out of sight. “ You are not pregnant with my pup. You are a filthy omega so how could jou bare my pups. You probably cheated on me, You w***e!” He yelled. He threw me on the ground and started kicking me in the stomach and head. Then He stopped and said I, Lars Black, Alpha of the Bloodhound pack, reject jou Alexa McAllister as my mate and future Luna of this pack. I hereby also bannish jou from this pack. My heart crumbled hearing his words but somehow it also felt like a releave. I stood up and looked him in the eye. I, Alexa McAllister, accept your rejection and bannishment. And with that i turned around and ran away into the forrest. I heard my wolf howling in my head. I spoke to her and said im sorry i did that. I heard nothing for a while but then she finally spoke to me. “ My sweet Alexa it was never my intention to leave you all alone, but i was instructed by the moongodess to stay dormant till you where ready. And i think the time finally came. I am Pearl and im your wolf. Even though i never spoke to you i was always there. You are very special that was what the moongodess told me”. I laughed a little and said if this is how special people get treated i really dont want to be special. Pearl laughed and said “ You do know about the pups right, and what kind of wolf you are?” I stayed still for a little and she continued. We are careying 2 pups and you are one of the last Pearl white wolves. People fear them and admire them but your pack feared you so that was the reason that they wouldnt let you shift. They hoped that i would stay dormant forever “. I thought about it when i finally noticed my suroundings. I have been running for hours all talking to my wolf and i dont know where the hell i am. I came acrose a little stream and decided to clean up a bit and have something to drink. When i was cleaning myself up i heard a branch snap. I was on high alert and looked where the noise came from. I couldnt smell anything and after a while i continued cleaning up. Just when i wanted to stand up some man came from the bushes and said “ well well well what are we doing here Rogue on my land? You smell strange, like you smell like a rogue but i can smell pack on you as well. I looked down and tried to get some words out. He took another snif and ghasped. “youre pregnant, how come you are here all alone? I am Alpha Jackson by the way of the Moon warriorpack. In front of me stood a handsome man in his 40ies. He had dark hair, green eyes, around 6,2 and he was very muscular. I started telling about how i was kicked out of my pack and was rejected by my mate after he heard about the pregnancy and how he bannished me from the pack. Jackson’s eyes where black as night and he growled. “If you want you can come to my pack We have a ritual were 3 of the highest ranks will see in your past to see if youre a good match with our pack. After that you can join us if you want. With that we where on out way to his pack house. Is this the place where is will finally find my happiness