Davina the Hybrid

Chapter 21 Hurting Jake

Davina P.O.V

Hardin hugged me for a long time that night it began to rain heavily outside. I asked him to stay with me in my room but to sleep on the sofa for now. But I woke up crying in the middle of the night while he held me I cried until I fell asleep in his arms. I woke up in his arms the next morning. He was already up and playing with my hair which he knew I loved.

"Morning, Look I know I was suppose to sleep on the sofa but when you fell asleep on me I fell asleep, your presents made me so relaxed that I haven't felt that way in a long time. I haven't been sleeping well." Hardin smiled, "Even though you were in pain, it was the best sleep I've had in awhile."

"Jerk, you can't use my sadness for your own pleasure." I pushed his shoulder as I got out of bed.

"Well, it worked, it got you sleeping and got me sleeping, I ain't complaining." He smirked.

"Whatever I'm going to take a shower now." I walk into the shower, without even locking the door. I washed up quickly and walked out with a towel wrapped around me. I went into the walk in closet and put on my underwear, and pulled over a small black dress with spaghetti straps and it went up above my knees. I walked back to the bathroom to brush my hair.

Hardin said, "Come here, I'll brush it for you."

I glanced at him in the mirror and he had a spot open up for me in front of him between his legs on the bed. "Okay." I say and jump into bed with him as I hand him the brush to turn around, "Want me to braid it or.." He asked.

"Sure, make a a french braid." I told him.

He nodded, "Alright."

He brushed out my hair which gave me so much comfort and made me feel so relaxed, I closed my eyes just enjoying it. After I got back I felt so betrayed by Jake, I thought I was already getting to know him, and I wonder why he would leave without just telling me. He didn't trust me that much to not share what he was doing? We had plenty of time that morning before we left, we were in this room getting ready for a few hours. Anytime we had alone in this room, he could have told me what was on his mind, but he didn't. Now, he might get killed because of his act. If he were dead, I'm sure I'd feel it in the mate bond. Why didn't he just tell me? Why did he leave just like that?

The only way I would know is from him, that's if I ever see him again, but I doubt it as that would also be a betrayal to Demetri. Demetri has a hard time trusting people as it is, now I'm starting to see why. Why would I want a mate that would constantly lie to me or keep secrets from me. He promised he'd be more honest and for me to trust him again which I was just starting to trust him again. Now I don't think I can ever trust him again, I gave him his second chance. Why would he risk everything right when we were finally getting close.

A lonely tear slipped from my eye and I wiped it immediately and sniffed. "You okay?" Hardin asked as he finished braiding my hair, I felt him let go of my hair so I can turn around to face him. "Why'd he leave?" I asked him helplessly.

He pierced his lips thinking then shook his head, "I don't know." He gave me a quick hug and said, "Come on, I'll cook you breakfast. I could use a coffee."

We get off the bed and make our way into an empty kitchen, no sign of Derek or Aria around just a small hand written note on the table in the kitchen.

Davina, You deserve a day off training, Demetri came by to get me this morning for a mission with some warriors, I'm not sure when we will be back but I have left Aria in charge of training for a few days just in case we are not back by tonight or tomorrow. We are gone to find Jake, he disappeared over a bridge lastnight and his body did not resurface, the vampires were sent to kill him. I'm so sorry Davina, I hate to tell you this news on a piece of paper. I am glad you have your other mate with you to help you get through all of this.

Yours truly, Derek.

P.S we are officially broken up in Demetri's eyes, but he still wants you to be an Assassin, I told him you've been staying in the spare room I have and I told him you can choose to get your own room or remain here, so your free to date whomever you want in public. Your Welcome.

I put down the piece of paper and Hardin picks it up reading it while I took a deep breath. "They don't know he's Half Warlock, he must've used his magic to get out of that water." I said while I made coffee for us.

"Smart guy to fake his death over a bridge. Sometimes they never find a body at all." He says as he proceeds to cooking for us both.

I nodded as I sat down and waiting for the coffee. "I'm real hurt that he lied to me yet again, what does that show me of what kind of person he is except a liar, I hate liars."

"Yeah, same here. Even though I don't like the guy as much, I know he loves you, I see it everytime he's near you I see it, even when he's not, which makes me dislike him but at the same time makes me like him, because I know deep down your needs and protection come first. Maybe he's doing it for you." He suggested.

I wrinkled my nose, "If he was why couldn't he just tell me?"

He sighed, "Maybe he wasn't really planning on doing it at all and just saw the opportunity and took it. If you had mind link with us we'd be able to communicate freely."

I growled, "That still doesn't make it alright. I look like an i***t out there on my own, he was supposed to have my back out there. I counted on him and he leaves me?!"

He Chuckles at me which pissed me off more, "Your right, he should have been there for you instead. But, maybe just maybe, he's doing it for you."

"Why do you keep defending him, I thought you hate him?" I asked getting annoyed.

"Because, I know what he must feel like to not be with you publicly in this place." he says.

"Well big surprise! I am allowed to have a different boyfriend now that word gets around that I'm officially Pretend Single from Derek. He missed out if only he stayed." My lip trembled.

Then Hardin stopped the cooking and came over to pull me into his arms, "Your not going to get answers right now love, but it is good to let your feelings out no matter how your feeling, never hold them in at all, I'll be here for you as long as I'm here. I won't promise you I'll be here all the time because being taken and then separated just tells me we don't have complete control of our futures so no promises of staying. But what I can promise you, is that I will love you forever. We will all be okay, and you will eventually get all your unanswered questions answered, we all have to be patient and just try our best to enjoy every moment we have together because in this place, we never know when or if we will ever be separated. So, I'm taking every chance I can to be there for you any way I can. I love you Davina, my baby."

I smiled into his chest as I held him, I looked up at him, "You always know exactly what to say."

"That's because I know and love your heart." He kissed my nose quckily and I pushed at his chest while he laughed and he continued cooking. I cracked a smile at him and made myself a cup of coffee. "I'll make mine when I'm down here." he tells me while I got a cup ready for him.

I sat down sipping the delicious caffeine, while Hardin brought me a plate of 2 over easy eggs, 3 slices of Bacon, Shredded Hashbrown's and Toast. My mouth began to water as I spelt the delicious food. "Oh wow! thank you! I haven't had this breakfast since home! All I've been having are bagels, Breakfast sandwiches and Breakfast wraps, something quick so we can go train." I took a huge bite of a little bit of everything and closed my eyes and moaned, "Mmmm. This is real good." I said with a mouth full of food.

Hardin just smiled at me as he dug in his food too, "I've been wanting this breakfast for days now too, All I had at that small house was Toast and coffee, which was okay but this is way better. And your most welcome baby." He winked at me.

Which made me giggle, "I always loved your cooking so much. I've missed it."

"Yeah, I can tell." He chuckled between bites.

I smiled up at him with a mouth full of food. From feeling sad, lonely, confused, betrayed, angry now I'm happy again. Maybe it was this food from home that I missed. Or maybe because it was made by the man I've been in love with since high school. These types of little things I get to enjoy now I cherish these moments now, like Hardin said we should. I shouldn't stay mad at Jake, Hardin is right, I will get my answers sooner or later, but for now I'm going to enjoy myself. Sadly, Jake had lost his second chance at winning me over. The second I see him after I get my answers from him, I'm going to reject him and set him free.

Hardin on the other hand, has always been my best friend first before being a boyfriend. We were doing great before he disappeared on me last year. Not that we were perfect. We fought and argued all the time but then always made up afterwards. We were a good team also, he used to come by the ranch and give me a hand with the horses, he knew how much I loved working with them, whether if it was to bond with them, train them or just to check them over he would help. He was a natural with them, well he grew up with horses too back home, his mom owned a small dude ranch, while I owned a breeding ranch that bred Race horses, jumpers. We made good money to help with the bills around the house, and help buy food and supplies and parts for equipment. Everyone loved Hardin, he got along well with everyone, he always have. So this thing between him and Jake is new for me to witness about him. I see he gets jealous but at the same time, Hardin would sacrifice his love for me to be happy even if it wasn't for himself. This man truly unconditionally deeply loves me for me.

Having with me right now, makes my heart feel full. He makes me not miss home because with him, I feel like I'm already there. After breakfast, I take his hand and lead him to the room with me.

"What's going on?" he asked as I turned to shut and lock the door.

I smile at him, without saying anything, I slowly took off my dress facing him, he backed into the bed bumping into it his eyes wide, he held up both his hands palms facing up towards me, "No, Davina, we can't do this right now, not when your emotional about losing Jake, if anything I'm not a rebound."

I took off the rest of my clothes and walked to him and put my hands on either side of his face to look him in the eyes, "You are not a rebound, Hardin, I've been in love with you since high school, your my best friend, if you hadn't disappeared, we'd probably be married by now."

"Yes but-" I cut him off, "Alley told me, having a fated mate, is already basically like marriage already. I'm tired of waiting, I want you Hardin, I always have." I told him.

He grabbed my hands holding them gently in his, "Are you sure? This isn't revenge on Jake at all?"

I smiled as I thought. Sure I was angry with Jake for leaving me, but Hardin is who I've been saving myself for all these years, it's been him I always wanted to lose it to, yes I did want to wait until we were married but being destined mates we were basically married already, have been for awhile now. "It's you I've saved myself for anyway love. I want you and I want you now, it's. it about Jake, I've been thinking about this for awhile now since me and Jake became official, kind of.. I didn't want to with him it felt good to be with him but it felt wrong to try." I scrunched up my nose as I remembered we'd have great sexy make out sessions but then I'd stopped every single one of them as it got too far, then we'd stop and I'd just feel extremely uncomfortable and out of place with myself. It was all his desires I'd feel through the mate bond, I know that now. I can feel Hardin's hesitation, He thinks I'm doing this to get back at Jake but I swear I am not. I am taking this moment for myself, we don't know when or if we'll get chances like this again, there's a war coming.

"I want you." I say as I jump on him, I rip off his shirt while he pulled down his pants and underwear, and I was surprised at how hard he was for me already, He lifted me to him, my legs automatically wrapped around his waist, as we were lost in each others kiss, he laid me down on the bed while we remained between my legs, his tip just nipping at my entrance making me shutter and moan in his mouth. He felt so good, I couldn't stop touching every curve of muscle on his well defined body.

He then kissed his way down to my breasts, taking each one in his mouth at a time, sucking and licking each n***le making me moan even more. He spread open my legs some more and dived down head first into my p**y devouring it fully with his mouth, licking and sucking on my cl*t as I moaned in pleasure as my juices leaked out of me. He kept up a steady rhythm until I felt my self going over the edge, I screamed, "Oh yes! Hardin! I gasped as I finished, "Oh my God!" I yelled as he kept sucking and licking up all my juices. I slowly came down from my high and let go of his hair on his head as he came back up, he started playing with me, his finger slowly going in gently, I moaned again.

He put his hand on the side of my head while the other kept playing with my p**y and his mouth went to mine in a passionate kiss that sent Sparkes through my entire body. Then he grabbed his huge c**k and played with my entrance and he whispered in my ear his voice Huskey with need, "Take a deep breath." He kissed my cheek as he slid in a little. My body stiffen at the contact of pain I felt as he was inside of me, then I began to breathe in and out slowly until I didn't feel pain, then he pushed himself all the way in, and I felt a burning sharp pain inside of me as my walls adjusted to him, tears slip down my face as he held me close to him, he kissed my tears away featuring them gently. He remained like that until my body relaxed and I nodded at him to continue. He pulled out slowly and pushed back in, he kept doing it over an over until the feeling was no longer painful for me and it began to feel so good. I moaned as he kept a steady rhythm of going in and out of me.

Soon, he began picking up the pace and sucking at my n***les one at a time and he made me shiver when he sucked my neck on my marking spot. He put his one arm under my neck to hold him close to his body, while the other went under me to grasp my b**t cheek, he began thrusting into me harder and faster making me moan louder as he picked up the pace. I can feel my body getting ready to c*m again, I pulled him closer to me as he went faster inside me, Then, without thinking and my body taking over, I sunk my teeth into his neck Marking him as mine and he growled in pleasure then I felt his teeth only breaking the surface of my neck we both finished at the same time as I was attached to Hardin's neck then before Hardin can finish the marking, A image of Jakes widen eyes piercing through my heart, his body drenched in sweat as he yelled in agony, "Noooo!!! Davina!! Stop!!!" Then, Hardin's teeth pulled out of my neck fully and he pushed off of me, quckily wide eyed with a shocked expression on both of our faces, I sat up on my elbows holding my neck, he almost finished his mark on me but his teeth didn't go all the way in.

"I saw Jake!" He says.

My eyes bulge, "You saw that too?!"

He gulped and nodded, "Yeah, what does that mean? Did us being together cause him pain?" He asked.

I swallowed and nodded, "I think it did, Hardin, what do we do?"

He came back on the bed and held me, "It's okay, we stopped now, s**t. I had no idea this would physically hurt him, I've never seen or witnessed anything like that."

"Neither have I, maybe it's best we don't mark eachother until we know more." I say.

"Too late for that, you already marked me as yours." He smirked and held me tightly against him.

"Yeah I know, but I mean maybe you shouldn't mark me just yet, would if it can kill him." I said sadly, even though I really wanted Hardin to mark me,but I couldn't cause Jake that pain or cause his death if that's even possible, no matter how angry at him that I am, he doesn't deserve that. "I'd do the same if it were you."

"Yeah, I know, Okay well I'll wait to mark you. As long as I'm already marked by you, I'm satisfied with that for now, I'm officially all yours." He smiled as he tickled my side making me laugh.

"We seriously need answers from a of this and soon, let's hope that Jake might have something up his sleeve." I told him.

"Yeah, Let's try something." He gets up and and looks at me focusing on me. Frowning at how weird he's being, I tried to ask but he held up a finger, Wait I'm trying to see if this works. My eyes widen at him. "Did you hear that?" he asked. My mouth gaping open I nodded, So, This is what mind linking is all about.

Yes, Hi nice to meet you, I am Celine.

I am Kal, nice to meet you too my mate.

Celine Purred at that and I smiled, we can both mind link now since I've marked him, "Wait!" I yelled, "So you are telling me you found a witch to open up your wolf side!"

He smiled, "Yup, the witch did it the day I woke up after being injected with all that stuff to put me to sleep, when I came to, she told me she'd help, and she did and walked out and left me there to change on my own. It was hard, painful, but I managed."

"Oh I would love to meet Kal one day." I gushed while Celine did flips in my head.

"Well that won't be for awhile, we have to stick to pretending to be vampires, Speaking of, I am getting hungry, it's been a few days without blood, all I've been having are blood bags." He says.

"Well, let's shower then I can get us some blood." I told him as I lead the way to the shower. We washed ourselves enjoying each other's body without having s*x, as we didn't want to cause Jake any more pain than we already did. We got out and dressed, and left the room together. Well I was no longer a virgin and was glad I saved my self for Hardin. I didn't regret it at all. A part of me felt bad about it all, because I was supposed to be with Jake now before he let me down and this time I had s*x with Hardin a day after Jake disappears without any explanation. I felt like a s**t. Although I do not at all regret losing it to the person who'd been there for me half my life already and who waited patiently for me for years to give in to him. I felt relief of giving him my purity, I felt happy about it, it was perfect for me. At the same time I feel bad for Jake, of what he must have endured as Hardin and I made love and completed the mate bond.. the only thing left is the marking. I would Choose Hardin to be with me all my life, he knows how to take care of me, he already loves me for who I am and doesn't ever want to change a thing about me.

Jake on the other hand seems to bring out the worst in me, I've never been a angry type of person but he somehow brings it out of me without even trying. I fell for Jake. He's kind, sweet, quieter than Hardin, he keeps to himself but when he doesn't, he shines bright, like last week when we had our bon fire, he was the life of the party that night, with his music he sang and played. He has a lot of things hidden in him still. He's a man of mystery which excites me to want to find out more about him. He sometimes gives me the bad boy vibe, it's in the way he walks, the way he dresses, the way his attitude towards things and people are. He's not really a people person but people are attracted to him, I've seen a few Vampire girls eyeing him from a distance during training, but we're too shy to talk to him. Of course it made me crazy jealous of them all but it vanished when I noticed he ignored them all, actually he didn't even pay much attention to me either because we couldn't share our longing stares in public.

"Davina?" I snapped back into reality, I hadn't realized that Hardin had been trying to get my attention. "What?" I said, looking at his raised eye brow.

"The blood?" he asked again.

"Oh! right! the blood!" I grabbed my phone and rang to the guard in the main floor of the mansion, "Send him up." I hung up the phone and looked at Hardin who had raised eyebrows now. "What?" I shrugged.

But before he got to ask, a knock came at the door and I used my vampire speed to answer and in came a human man, he smiled and nodded at me once then at Hardin and said, "Whose going first?"

"Your kidding me." Hardin says.

I shook my head, "This is how I've been feeding, I don't use blood bags, come have some." I gestured to him with my head.

He sighs, "I miss the hunt but blood is blood."

The man stands still as we both took each an arm and bit into each wrist and drank until we had enough. We sealed the wound and then sent him on his way and thanked him, "That's uh.." Hardin scratched the back of his neck, "Really weird that they have people here willingly to feed vampires."

"Yeah this place is messed up, it's not a great place for women unless your mated or in training as a guard, soldier or warrior." I told him.

"Or Assassin." He added.

"Yeah but Assassin training is rare around here only those who have skills about the 3 types of fighters get called in to train as a cold blooded killer and professional spy." I said.

The door opened and in walked Aria she looked at us both and her eyes widen at the mark at Hardin's neck, "So, you chose." she says.

I shook my head, "Not quite. I marked him but he didn't mark me, he was going to but for some reason we both had a quick vision of Jake in pain."

"Hmm, well I am your father's fated mate and your mother back home was his chosen mate. He did not mark her or me, so when they have intercourse it doesn't effect me. She's been bothering him for years to mark her but he won't because he doesn't know what will happen to me." she says.

"Well, what happens if he rejects you?" I asked Aria.

"I've told him to do it many times, which is why I go and meet him every now and then, but he still refuses." she picks up the burn phone from the kitchen drawer and hands it to me, "Call him, tell him to reject me, I'll meet him at our same place and then we will see what happens to a rejected mate."

"But you told me that's a huge risk, that it'll possibly weaken you." I said.

"I'm not really sure what happens, maybe it will, maybe it won't, I've never really focused on mate bond stuff, my main focus was always getting my kingdom back. I never even paid attention when my own mother tried explaining it to me, but maybe your father knows more, ask him." she said.

Nodding, I ring him at once and he answers immediately, "Hello? Davina?" his voice concerned.

"Hi dad. I have a question for you, what happens after a mate has been rejected from their destined mate?" I ask.

He sighs, "They both feel unimaginable pain for a while, it matters how strong the bond is, of how long it'll last. If mated before, it'll hurt and weaken you for awhile, if fully marked, well you may not survive. It all depends on how deep the bond is, but if they've only just met as mates and then rejected eachother on the spot, they'll go on and feel somewhat normal. it they'll always feel that something is missing. Some have been lucky enough to find second chance mates. Why?" He asked.

"Well my birth mother wants you to reject her immediately she wants to meet you at your usual location. What's the point of keeping her around weakening her all these years if your not going to be with her anyway?" I added.

There was a long pause then he said, "Alright I'll do it." Then he hangs up.

"He said he'll do it." I told her.

A huge grin spreads across her face, "Finally." Then like that she leaves the room without saying anything more.

"I guess we just wait and see, maybe then you'd be able to reject one of us." Hardin says sadly.

"Obviously it has to be Jake, I already marked you and we mated which can cause you to die." I told him.

"Maybe not, your not marked, what if one of us rejected you?" he said.

I opened my mouth to object, but I think that might work better because I am not marked at all only mated. Maybe they can choose for me not the other way around. "We will have to see won't we. Give it a few days then and like I said before we can't make that decision without all three of us present."

"Alright then, we wait for Jake but until then, your all mine." He says as he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder while I kicked and screamed as he carried me into my room to have me again.

"But Jake might be in pain because of this!" I yelled.

"I don't care, if your going to reject me I'm going to have every moment I can with the woman I love, if he feels it, I don't care, after all he didn't have to leave you and break your heart. That's his choice, this is mine." Hardin says as he tears off my clothes also g with his and f**k's me like there no tomorrow. I felt a stabbing pain in my chest as we made love again and again, but at the same time my body grew stronger as the mate bond between us grew stronger.