She says firmly and I look away again.
"I know, but I also know I shouldn't have let myself believe there was something there."
I say softly.
Spencer squeezes my hand.
"Hey. Look at me."
She says and I reluctantly do what she asks.
"Don't do that."
"Do what?"
I ask.
"Blame yourself for having feelings."
She says softly.
"You know... the worst part is that I don't even know what I was expecting to happen. Maybe I wasn't expecting a relationship. Maybe I wasn't expecting Damon to suddenly become someone else, but I thought... I thought he saw me. And after Adam I thought maybe that was enough... And now I just feel so stupid."
I whisper and Luna frowns at me.
"Ava, I swear, if you call yourself stupid one more time, I am going to be offended."
She says quietly and despite ever
