Broken

Chapter Six: I'll Cry If I Want To

"No. It's a good thing," I look up to see him still checking me out. 

Before I can say something back, Rachelle comes up, "Hey we're playing spin the bottle. You wanna join?" 

Of course, she has to ruin this moment for me. I want to tell her to piss off but Kyle stops me. 

"Yeah I'll play if Lana does," He looks over to me and winks.

"I'm in. I need to go grab a drink first. I'll be right back. I run into the kitchen and grab a beer out of the fridge. 

I hurry back outside to see Ashley talking to Kyle. When she looks my way I smile and wave at her. She turns to Kyle and kisses him on the lips. Why would she do that? She knows how I feel about him and yet she kisses him! She's such a backstabbing b***h!!! I can't believe I trusted her!

I look over to see Mikey looking at me and then looking at Ashley with Kyle. His eyes go back and forth between me and them. I hurry back inside before he can see me cry. I just can't believe this... She was my best friend. The person I told every secret to. It hurts so bad. I feel like my chest is going to explode. 

Mikey comes through the sliding door and pulls me into a hug, "Lana please don't cry. They're not worth it." 

"She knew how I felt about him, Mikey. She knew..." I sob into his bare chest. 

"No don't cry... Hey, listen to me Lana," He pulls me away from him, "You are way too beautiful and smart to be crying over a fake b***h like Ashley. The only reason she's going after Kyle is because I turned her down while we were in the pool. She's just trying to make me jealous so don't take it personally," I look away from him, his hand captures my cheek just like the first time, "Let's go back outside and play a game of spin the bottle."

"How is that supposed to make me feel better? I'm not going back out there," I cross my arms as he holds me.

"Trust me. You'll want to play this game. This isn't like it was when we were in your room. You wanna get back at Ashley and make Kyle jealous? This will be your only chance to do it," He sounds so determined. 

"How will..." Before I can finish, his lips crash on mine. Again his lips move against mine. I find myself matching his pace. He pulls away first. His chest heaving up and down quickly just like me own. 

"Kyle has been wanting you for a while now but your brother keeps getting in the way. He wants you before anyone else can take your virginity. He has this claim over you. That's why no one has tried anything with you. He wants points for taking your V-card. I know you don't understand that but you have to trust me on this one. He thinks your all his... But not now... Not tonight... Tonight you're all mine and we'll mate that fucker pay for hurting you." 

Hearing all that makes me furious. He told people not to talk to me so he could be the first to f**k me? Mikey is right... 

"Let's make them jealous."

Mikey and I walk out of the house together and join the game. This is definitely not like the way we played it before. The way it's played now is someone spins the bottle and whoever it lands on gets to pick whoever they want. 

Alex spins the bottle and it lands on... Kyle. 

"Come here," He says as he gets up and looks at Ashley. She gets up from her spot, walking over to Kyle who puts his hands on her hips. I don't know how long they kiss before my phone goes off. I open it to see a text from Mikey saying, "If it lands on me, I'll pick you. If it lands on you, pick me." I look up to see Mikey wink at me. I can't help but blush. 

This is so devious. Kyle and Ashley sit down, Ashley spins the bottle this time.

When the bottle stops, It lands on... Mikey. Now if this were the old rules she would have gotten to kiss Mikey. But that's not the case now. 

I wait for Mikey to call my name but he doesn't. Mikey gets up and walks over to me, getting down in-between my legs on his knees, "Mikey. What are you doing?" I ask him but he doesn't reply.

His hands make their way to my thighs. Slowly sliding up to my bikini bottom, running the pad of his thumbs on the fabric. My breathing starts to pick up. He pushes himself closer to my core but doesn't touch. 

I knew we were gonna kiss. What I didn't know was him talking it to this extreme level. I also didn't think I'd want him in this way. One of his hands makes their way up to my cheek, slowly going into my hair. He pulls me into him. The anticipation is killing me. I just want him to ki... His lips press against mine and together we move our lips. He quickly pushes his tongue in my mouth, pulling me closer to his body.

"Ugh. Get a room," Ashley comments.

Mikey doesn't hesitate to grab my thighs and pick me up. My legs wrap around his waist as my arms make their way around his neck. Without breaking the kiss he walks back into the kitchen with me in his arms. 

As we are safely in the kitchen Mikey puts me down. Slowly breaking the kiss, he holds me close to him.

"Do you think that was convincing enough?" He breaths out. 

"Yeah... Almost had me wanting..." I stop myself mid-sentence. He pulls away to look at my flushed face. Without warning, he picks me up and sits me down on the island counter. He places his hands back on my thighs, his thumbs caressing my inner thigh. 

"What do you want?" His voice is seductive. I slowly shake my head. I can't believe I'm even thinking about this. 

"You want me too, don't you?" He whispers in my ear as he nibbles at my earlobe, sending shivers through my body. That's the thing. I do want him. This urge to have him touch every part of my body is growing. I can't do this with Mikey. 

"I don't think I can go that far. I've always pictured my first time with Kyle and now... I don't know what to think," I place my hands over my face. Feeling ashamed for wanting him. Does this make me a slut for wanting him the way I do? He pulls my hands away from my face, taking them in his. 

"It's okay Lana," He kisses my cheek and looks me in the eyes, "I'll never pressure you into something you're not ready for." I smile warmly up at him. My eyes slowly travel to his lip and back up. I catch him doing the same thing. He slowly leans in placing his lips on mine. This kiss is different than the others. It's gentle and sweet. 

The kiss is cut short when I hear his voice, "What the hell are you doing Mike?" My brothers' voice booms throughout the kitchen just as Kyle steps inside to witness it all. 

"What does it look like Dan? I'm talking to your sister," I guess Mikey is a little annoyed by the interruption. 

"I'm surprised you can have a conversation with your tongue down her throat," Danny yells. 

"My tongue wasn't down her throat. That was a minute ago but I guess you missed that action or did someone fill you in on the details?" Mikey takes a long glance at Kyle who stands silently by the door.

"You've shown your true colors, Mikey... At least Kyle is a good friend and lets me know when some f**k boy is trying to get in my sister's pants! All you wanna do is lay around with different girls every weekend to rack up your points and party. Now that you've had your fun,  you are going to try to score some points with your best friend's sister. That's low Mikey. Even for you..."

Wait a minute? So Danny knew about this little game they're playing? He knew they were sleeping around with different girls to get points. Why didn't he tell me? Oh my gosh... It all makes sense now. Danny has been bringing girls home for months now and dumping them the next day. It's all for some sick game. How could he? 

"Stop it! All of you just stop!" I yell as I just down from to counter. 

"Danny... You... Did you know this whole time?"

"Did I know what? That you were going to put out to any man that flashes you a smile? No, I didn't" Danny looks at me like just ate something bitter. That's the first time he's ever looked at me like that. 

"Don't talk about her like that," Mikey warns. 

I speak up before Danny can make a move towards Mikey, "Did you know that Kyle wanted me for himself? So he could take my virginity away and gain double points? Whatever that means... He told you about me and Mikey because he didn't want Mikey to take his score." Now it's my turn to give the disgusting looks towards Danny. 

No. Kyle wouldn't do that. I'd know if he was trying something like that."

"Do you honestly think any of the boys would tell you? Kyle was first in line to get it. Then Tommy and Alex. After them? It's Joshua and Vincent. Can you guess who was the last one? No...? Me... And my name was put on the list because I'm part of the group not because I wanted to score. But you know how that works don't you Danny Boy?" Mikey seems like a completely different person right now. Like he's not the same guy a few moments ago. 

"Kyle decides to take part in the conversation now, "Mikey you know you're not supposed to talk about this with others around."

"Oh cut the s**t, Kyle. I told you guys I wanted out for a while now. I'm so sick and tired of hurting innocent girls to put a number in a stupid black book. And for what? We gain nothing from it. I'm done. Kick me off the team, take my 'privileges' away, I don't give a dam," Mikey huffs out as he runs his fingers through his hair. 

Danny walks over to Mikey and puts his hands on his shoulders, "No one is gonna kick you off the team for not playing the game. You're like a brother to us."

Kyle goes over to Danny and Mikey as they start talking and hugging each other. Nows my opportunity to get the hell out of here. I sneak out of the kitchen and grab my converse by the door. I run up the stairs and make my way to my room. After locking the look I put my shoes on and climb out the window. I walk across the roof to the lowest jumping point. I can feel my stomach-turning. This is the first time I've ever done something like this. 

Oh no... I forgot to lock the bathroom door... Just as I turn to go back I hear Danny calling out my name as he beats on the door. No time to go back now. Here goes nothing. I get down on the edge of the roof, turning around I grip the ledge as I slide one leg off. With the other sliding off I extend my arms fully and let go. When my feet hit the ground I fall onto my back. That wasn't so bad now, was it? I say to myself as I dust my back off. 

I can hear their voices coming from my bedroom window now. I have to run as fast as I can to get away from three football stars. I take off running across the yard. I know Danny sees me at that point when he starts screaming my name. The chase is on. 

I run across the street in full hopes of getting away from them. I don't want to be near any of them. All those poor girls keep running through my head. I've watched so many of them crying in the halls of the school not realizing what happened to them until now. It hurts to this that my brother, the one who swore to protect me, is one of those guys. 

How can he swear to protect me and them go out and destroy other girls? It's not supposed to be that way. When you don't want something like that to happen to your sister then why would you go that so someone else's sister? What happened tonight keeps replaying in my head. Ashley, the kiss, Mikey, Danny, Kyle, all of it. It only makes me run faster. 

After a couple of hours, I begin to get cold. As I walk along the sidewalk in the middle of the night, for one, my head is clear. Cars pass by me never stopping to see if I need help. I'm thankful for that. Normally I'd be begging someone to stop but tonight I just want to be left alone. 

"Lana...? Lana!" I hear Mikeys' truck speed up. Ahh s**t! I take off running once again across the street and through someone's yard. I have no clue where I'm at or how far I've walked. As Mikey's breaks squeal the truck to a halt I know it's just a matter of time before he catches up to me. 

Now the real chase has begun...

I don't have the speed he does so I'll just have to be smarter than he is. As soon as I round the corner of the back of a house I get down behind a trash can and wait for Mikey to run by. Not even ten seconds later he runs by me. That was a close call. I wait for what feels like half an hour before I decide to come out of hiding. To say I'm not scared shitless right now would be a lie.  I look around as I walk by an old oak tree. 

Two hands grab my waist making me scream bloody murder. I almost pee on myself he scared me so bad. I push Mikey away from me and try to run again. It was no use. He grabs me before I can even take two steps away from him. 

"Lana stop," He tries to keep his grip on me but his hands keep slipping. 

"Let me go. I don't want to be around anyone right now," I grit my teeth as I try to pull my wrist free.

"Is that why you ran away," He turns me around and makes me look up at him, "Because you don't want to be around me?" His voice almost sounds hurt. It almost hurts me to hear him like this. 

"I just don't want to be around Danny and Kyle. Especially Kyle. I can't believe I wanted a guy like Kyle. He's everything I hate in a man..." My voice breaks at the end. 

"Please don't cry, Lana. He's not worth your tears," Mikey pulls me into an embrace, and for the first time since I left the house, I realize that he's shirtless. 

"You know what?"

"What?" I say as I sniffle.

"I didn't hear you say you didn't wanna be around me..." I can't help but laugh at him as I pull away from his embrace. 

"Come on. I need to get you back home before..." I cut him off as quickly as his words start making that sentence, "No. I'm not going back there. Not right now."

"Relax Lana. You can't stay out here all night. It's too dangerous for a young girl to be out here. And the fact that you're wearing a very intoxicating bikini... No way in hell I'm leaving you out here. Since you don't want to go home... Um... How about we go back to my place. You can take a shower, get into some comfy clothes, and then we can talk about Kyle over some breakfast. What do you say?"