me and your best friend

the cloud is beautiful right jeromen?. mellie said with a bright smile on her face. you could see the love and attention he had in his eyes. he smiled back at her like a little baby. he looked at her with lost in his eyes. jeromen!!. you called out his name in a calm and respectful way. why are you looking at her that way? you said in a teasing statement. you grabbed his hand like a baby. remember jeromen I am your wife and not her. you said in a sarcastic way. the both of them turned their heads toward you. as you gave a sarcastic smile at them you could see guilt written all over their face. you let out a big laugh, to clear up the tension. I was just joking. you said in a low tone. the both of them looked at you with signs of relief in their expression. they both continued to chat with each other like you never existed. the cool summer breeze gave you chills all over. it's was almost as if I am the third party. at this point all I can think about is our both of them are chatting like I am not even around. did I make a mistake? of chosing jeromen. as you watched both of them chatting you could feel you heart tightening in hurt and pain. it's was almost as if everything stopped. you could feel your heart sink in fear and regrets. as tears welled up your eyes. you learned close to jeromen ear. I will be right back. he looked at you in a confused way. you looked at him with a cold eye. I am going to the toilet. you rushed to the toilet and locked yourself in. you sat down on the ground close to the wall. and tears began to fall. why do I always have to suffer. why do I always make sacrifices. why must I be the only one whose hurting. you said to yourself and remembered all the things that have been unfair towards you. ***** you left the toilet and went home straight because you couldn't bear to stand their presence. you came home and went straight to your shared bedroom with jeromen. you could only see sad memories of the both of you. you could only feel trapped in a place and nowhere to trun to. you went straight to the bathroom and freshen up. you wore a black lace night dress. and packed your hair up making your jaw line show. giving you a delicate feature. you sat down at the edge of the bed, you looked around the room both you and jeromen share's once again. when did we get here. you said at yourself. you stood up and walked to the mirror beside your bed. you pinched your cheek and laughed at yourself. ah really have I really gotten this thin or am just illusion. you took a picture of both you and milles. you laughed at how you both looked so ridiculous. I remembere how fun I used to be . what really changed. was it adulthood or life happened?. you said to yourself as tears fell off your face. you remembered how you've always love jeromen and how your feeling for him never changed. you could feel different kind of emotion in you heart. how did I become like this you screamed and punched the mirror till it's broke. you felt burning sensations in your hand and realised how you've hurt yourself.