Nightmarish.

*Flashback* "Faye, does it hurt?, he asked. "I'm sorry, just trust me, I won't hurt you" Dylan tried to persuade me. "but that's what you're doing, I really just want to take a nap, we can play later Dylan, pleaseeee, uhhhh you're hurting me, get off!. Dylan! pleaseee" I pleaded sleepily. "I would, just give me a few more minutes, please Faye". said Dylan. I trusted him thirteen years ago, I still do today, to a certain extent. That particular couch now seats in their basement but still holds a lot of memories. Dylan was the sibling I never had, like me he was also an only child. He acted like a protective brother when we were out together and even at family gatherings. His mom and mine were sisters, they only had each other growing up as they lost both of their parents in a fire explosion when they were young adults. I was always kept under his watch as I always felt safe with him until that afternoon, our mom's had just left on one of their countless road trips together. We were alone at Aunt Rachel's penthouse which was also Dylan's home. *Present day* "Arghhh!" my 18 year old self screams as I gave one last push at the command of the doctor. Everyone I have always known as family are here, well except Dylan and the medical staffs. "congratulations dear" echoed around the room as the doctor and nurses get busy cleaning up and eventually moving out. Kieran is here, nervousness written all over his face. Mum smiles as she hands me my new baby, Kieran Jnr. She and aunt Rachel hover beside the hospital bed, fussing over my baby. "My baby" my mind repeats. It sounds foreign, scary even but I'm reminded I have these amazing people by my side. "I can do this" I say to myself. A lone tear slips down my face as I remember when I found out about the baby, the feeling of helplessness as I sat on the toilet seat, staring at the pregnancy test strip. Breaking the news of the pregnancy was no easy feat, before accepting, Mom told me off and made sure to remind me I had only one option and that was to keep the pregnancy. I had no plans of doing otherwise either ways but I never mentioned that to her. Mom was understanding and patient which was not really surprising, she has always been there, my best friend. Aunt Rachel was also present when I told her, they are rarely ever apart. They manage their streams of business together, the McWealth sisters. I stare down at Kieran Jnr. lost in thought while breastfeeding him. "Faye, are you here?" Mum asks. "Mitchell, you know Faye doesn't have that long of an attention span" aunt Rachel says jokingly. They both walk out to see the doctor and probably to also get something to eat, they had been there since the previous day. Kieran walks over as soon as they leave, I almost forgot he's in the room. He is sporting very large eye bags but still looked as handsome as ever. My first love and boyfriend, now father to our baby boy. "thank you" Kieran says. "i know it wasn't the easiest forty weeks and there's still a long way to go but we both have each other, we will get through this, together". "I love you" he adds. "I love you too Kieran" I reply, handing the baby over to his outstretched arms. I watch as he tries to rock the baby, shifting from one foot to the other. Kieran has been my boyfriend since high school, winning my heart with nothing but his boyish grin. I never thought we would last this long when we started out as a couple. I had just moved schools and he was assigned as my seat partner. At first we didn't say much to each other but we were always assigned homework and partnered up during class projects, which made us bond faster. I smile fondly as I remember... "Faye, he has your nose and your pouty lips" Kieran states, interrupting my thoughts, smiling in that boyish way that got me in the first place. "Really?" "yeah, I think your mom mentioned that earlier, you were probably lost in thought then" he mentions, smirking. I smiled guiltily. "typical of you, Faye" he adds. Aunt Rachel walks in, with mom behind her, "you have been discharged Faye darling, you must be tired. Those eye bags speak alot. let's head home, shall we? aunt Rachel says. "yes, yes, we should" I reply eager to leave this very uncomfortable hospital bed and the nauseating smell of the hospital. I watch, sitting on the edge of the bed, still sore all over, as Kieran helps my mom and Aunt Rachel pack our belongings and every other thing that wasn't the hospital's. "off we go!" Aunt Rachel says cheekily. Walking or should I say limping out of the hospital is like a relief, the sky looks calm and beautiful like it knows a new addition has come into the Mcwealth's household, this thought makes me look at my baby who, surprisingly is staring back at me. "he's so beautiful " I say out loud and smile at his little face, hoping to receive one back but that doesn't happen. Chuckling, beside me, Kieran says "what were you expecting? he can't smile back just yet, I think?" "I know, I guess I was just trying my luck" I reply, smiling. " I miss my bed at home" I blurt out if the blue, "can't wait to get home, you will watch him, won't you" I say, looking over at Kieran. "of course! he's going to love me, you just wait. i have so much I'm going to teach him" Kieran admits, a dreamy look on his face. He might just be the best dad, my mind tells me, not that I'll admit that to his face. If he hears that from me, his head might just explode. "have fun doing that" I reply despite having so much more to say. Looking ahead, I call out to my mom, hoping she hears me in between her conversation with Aunt Rachel. I do anyway. " I'll be riding back home with Kieran, mom!" She only waves her hand in response, not bothering to look back at me. " Take care of the baby and get some rest, Faye darling, we will meet you guys at home in awhile" Aunt Rachel calls out. I'm about to respond by asking where they were off to but I change my mind seeing as they were back at their discussion, so engrossed, if i may add. "where do you think they are off to?" I ask Kieran as I managed to get comfortable at the backseat of his silver Lexus. He only shrugs in response. I huff, annoyed. Those two are always up to something, they act like teenage girls, I always think we really do have reverse roles here. "goddamit I'm the teenager here and I barely run off, giggling and keeping secrets". "Faye, babe, let them be" Kieran says, looking at me pathetically. The ride home is quiet and soon ,I start to doze off. Kieran wakes me up, tapping my shoulder gently, "babe, we're home". He walks back to the boot, taking out the few things that we brought along as most of our stuffs were with mom and Aunt Rachel. He manages to help me out of the car seat with his left arm, with the baby's bag hanging on his right shoulder. "you know I can walk fine right?" I point out. " I know Faye, your limp is very noticeable and the doctor also mentioned you still needed help moving around" Kieran counters. "oh yeah, I think the pain relief I was given worked. I almost cannot feel the pain anymore" Walking into the house is a struggle but we finally make it inside in one piece. Kieran runs a bath for me while I lay the baby to sleep in his room. Going in my room, I strip naked, eager to take a hot bath. Kieran walks out of the bathroom, "your bath is ready, your majesty " he says, smiling at me. "thanks babe, the baby is asleep already. I'll be taking a nap after having my bath, what will you be doing?" I ask Kieran. "I guess I have a few messages to catch up on and I'll be seeing that movie you mentioned on Netflix, you don't have to worry about me" Kieran replies. "I'll be checking the baby at intervals too babe". He adds walking out of the room. "Alright babe, thank you ". I call out to him. Kieran is the sweetest, I say to myself as enter the bathroom. Fifteen minutes later, I step out of the bathroom after washing off the nauseating smell of the hospital from my body. Preparing for bed, I take a look at my phone making a mental note to check my messages and voicemail after waking up from my nap.