When Camila went to sleep, she had to rethink and replan everything that she knew. Her thoughts were stops with bouts of tears. Camila was crying for what she lost and, most importantly, what she never had. Camila could not say that she ever had Juan, and he was taken away from her. That would be blasphemy. Camila only thought she could have him, and it was clear that she thought wrong. It was just painful that she learnt the hard way. The hard way only showed that happiness had to be laboured for and that even after you labour, you may still not get happiness.
After the tears, she began to ask why. Why was she not enough? What exactly did she not do, right? Would Juan actually never love her, no matter how much she loved him? How on earth could she make herself ten years older? Camila as
