°ISABELLA°
"Mommy are you crying?" Estelle's words brought me back to reality, I hadn't noticed when my daughter, Estelle walked in. Never for once I have fancied Estelle seeing me cry, to my own surprise, I didn't even notice I was tearing up holding up the wedding invitation sent by my sister, because this so-called invitation brought back all the painful memories to me.
It's been fiver years since I walked out of that painful past, still it's haunting me like a nightmare, now this letter added more pain to that nightmares of mine.
"Sweetheart I am just tired, there's no way I'm upset, by the way have you eaten?” I tried to change the topic, however my daughter was just too smart for her age, there's no way she'll be diverted by my words.
“Mommy, don't cry! You told me you wouldn't cry again, and I don't like seeing you cry" Estelle's words made me smile as I embraced her with motherly warmth.
I kissed her forehead and assured her that I'm alright, yes, in front of my daughter, I was alright, but when she wasn't there, the whole world was a warzone for me to face it alone.
She was the only blessing I had from childhood up till date, I couldn't give her false hope, if not because of this little angel, I'm not sure what I would've done in this lonely world having none to call as mine.
"Why don't you play for sometime sweetheart? Mommy will join you in a few minutes" I managed to send her to her room, so that I can continue reading the so-called letter sent by my sister, just like that my obedient daughter has gone to play.
I laughed as she ran out of the room, her little legs dangling on the floor, it was such a joy to see my little baby, being my only source of happiness after losing everything, just as she left, I decided to read further.
‘It is an important day for me, little one I'm finally getting married to the man of my dreams, I know that our father has done so much wrong to you, it should be all in the past now, things didn't go so well with the pack and letting you go was the only way, you should understand by now, it has been a decade, we really miss you dear.’
It was always Cassandra, my elder sister who they saw in their eyes as their only true daughter, and as for me, I was technically a second resource to use when difficulties comes, now she is marrying to the man of her dreams, I'm happy for that but what about me? Did they ever wait for me to search for my own happiness?
I bitterly mentioned, tears dropping from my eyes, it had been long, truly long and now, it is even a surprise to see I have a family, the family that cast me into the shadow like I was non-existent and sold me off to the ruthless Alpha king when challenges began to arise in the pack.
It has been almost a decade and none had even tried to contact me about how I was faring with the one whom they gave me freely to, maybe, I didn't matter to them, I never mattered anyways to them.
I settled down on a bean bag and opened up the rest of the letter, this time there's no curiosity in me, because I'm not so interested to be engrossed in this letter.
'I know you are still angry with our parents and me, we are truly sorry for everything sweetie, please we are waiting for you, just for once come to us, this sister of yours will set her foot on the aisle as bride only if you come to me, with love, Cassandra'
I scoffed and angrily flung the paper on the floor, I panted angrily, and punching the pillow till satisfaction hit me, and as soon as I was done expressing my frustration, I sobbed into my palms, recalling everything that happened.
Memories flashed of where I begged my father, fell on my knees and wailed deeply, pleading that he shouldn't trade me off to the enemy, whereas my father has only one stern expression on his face, he threw me to the corner, and told the maids to have my bags packed, and I was going whether I liked it or not.
He called it making sacrifices for the family, but I was damn eighteen at that time! I was scared! I didn't want to be tied into marriage to a man years older than me. I was married off like I was a worthless goods and funnily enough, none showed up to my wedding.
The saddest moment was in the wedding hall, after exchanging the vows and marrying rites, I stood in the hall deserted since even my husband left me alone.
I sniffed in my tears, wiping them off.
I wanted to be the strong mother for the betterment of the both of us, I no longer wants to be engrossed in that painful past, but the anger and frustration aren't ready to get calmed down.
As I'm taking off my anger on the pillow beside me, someone came in, observing my actions, "are you okay? Is anything bothering you, dear?" Lucifer, my husband, asked out of concern about my situation, I smiled at him, trying to cover my anger and sadness, "It's nothing, just some work stress."
"Are you sure?" he asked again while trying to make sure that I'm okay, I nodded with an assuring smile, and he hummed in acknowledgment. This is one of the things I appreciate about him, he is not pushy or nosy, just understanding.
While I was about to talk about his early arrival, Estelle ran into the room, "Daddy, you're home already?"
He scooped her up in his arms with a bright smile, "Yes, sweetie, I finished my work early and rushed home to see my princess," she giggled and hugged him. Watching them, I couldn't help but feel grateful for him being a wonderful father to Estelle.
As they were laughing and enjoying their little gossip, I couldn't shake the uneasy feeling I had within me, clutching the letter in my hand, I sighed, "it's suspicious!"