Crazy dangerous love

Chapter four

Nina’s pov

As soon as I got in my new room ( not for too long I hope ) I threw myself on the soft bed burying my face in the soft pillows. This day went completely to s**t. My life is in the patient’s hand, literally. Only he will decide what is to be done with me, only he holds the power and if he dies, I’m as good as dead because his brother will kill me for not doing a good job. Being in a position when you don’t know anything, sucks. The uncertainty is killing me, makes me wonder: When will be my last day? my last breath? Hell, my last meal. Makes you value all you had, being it much or little, it all counts, and it doesn’t matter at the same time. If I die, everything will stay the same, only me not being around. Sammy will not even know because she is too little to understand. No one will miss me because I have no one. Except Cassy, but she will get over it eventually. I will die with regrets for sure; Regrets that I spend most of my life hating someone I will probably never know. Regret not enjoying my life to its fullest. Hell, I’ll even die being a virgin. I sighed.

I shifted on the bed and was surprised when I completely looked at it. The bed was massive and beautiful, fit for a king or for a queen for this matter, because it belongs to me as long as I stay here. I was on a foul mood that I didn’t even look around when I was on my way to the room. I bet everything here is expensive. Besides, who wants to snoop around knowing I might die any minute? The room looks big yet cozy and inviting, it has a feminine touch, which is weird knowing women are not allowed in the house. Yep, this definitely was a woman’s room by its color, but it came as a surprise to me, after all the brother said they don’t have women visitors. I call him brother because I don’t know his name and honestly, I don’t want to know. The less I know about them the less problems for me and my family.

I am really tired, but I definitely need a bath after the long day I had. It’s so late, for me anyways. Being a doctor your schedule can change from time to time and you always have to be available if needed, so I usually go to bed really early. Thank god, Sammy is a heavy sleeper just like her mom, and when I say her mom I mean me. Cassandra has encouraged me to tell her the truth about me not being her biological mother as soon as possible, but what difference would it make? Her mother is dead and her dad, only God knows who he is or where he is. I just want to avoid her pain of not having any of her parents with her, but life is not that simple and at the end she might end up hating me for not telling her the truth and that is what scares me the most. Losing her.

I sighed, deep down I know Cassy is right, I will probably do it when the right time comes. She deserves to know and it’s her decision after she knows if she wants to be with me or look for her father or other relatives she might have. I would not blame her or tell her otherwise, it’s her right to decide. Even I find myself sometimes wondering if I have more relatives. I should at least have one from either my mom’s side or dad’s side, they come from someone, so there has to be someone related to me out there, but I don’t know if I am prepared to know the truth, my parents never cared, why would I? It’s just it would be nice to have a blood related friend like a cousin, aunt or ancle.

Who I am kidding, none of them, if they exist, know I exist, because they never cared for my parents why would they care for me? Let’s not dwell on the past like my father used to say and look forward in life, never look back always forward.

I stretched my arms feeling them sore and heavy. Damn it, why I am so tired? Right, it was a crazy busy day at the hospital. And to make matters worse, I got kidnapped and forced to tend to a special patient. It took me long to extract the bullets from the asshole, why do I call him that and not Mr. sexy anymore?

Because that is exactly what he is, an asshole. Sexy, hot, and handsome? Yes, but an asshole, nonetheless. The jerk, how dares he kill people who help him? That is just not done. Why kill doctors whose only job is to do good, to help people and save lives?

We study our asses off really hard for years to become doctors to save people and for what? for a bratty jerk to dispose of us like we mean nothing, like we are nothing but dirt on their shoes. What about their wives and kids or parents of this poor unfortunate souls whose only mistake was to be in the wrong place at the wrong time? Just like me. What if the asshole decides to kill me after all? His brother said he trusted me, but what about him? What if he doesn’t like me and ask his people to kill me when the brother is not home? What would be of my Sammy if something happens to me? She is so little and innocent, what if she loses her second chance at having a loving mom, because I might be an ass sometimes, but I do love Sammy to death and I would do anything and everything for her. Without knowing I felt warm tears rolling down my face, but I wiped them away as fast as they came. I need to think straight and make a plan to escape from here as soon as I can. It has to be a way out of here for sure and I will not stick around to find what that jerk would do to me when he awakes.

First things first, I can’t escape being tired and hungry, how rude of the brother not to even ask me if I was hungry. Didn’t he know how long I stayed up helping his brother? And I really need a warm shower to get rid of his blood and stress of being away from my daughter. I looked around the room and found some woman’s clothes in the closet. Definitely, this room was once used by a woman and by the looks of it, she was a young woman, you can tell by the size and shape of her clothes, so f*****g tiny they barely cover anything. The brother said if a need something just let him know, I should have asked him for clothes since I will be staying here indefinitely. Why don’t they allow women to live here anyway, what is wrong with us women?

My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of keys trying to open my door, what the f**k? Why ask me to lock the door if he is going to use his key? Bastard, unless? Oh no, unless it’s not him. I panicked, could this day get any worse? I couldn’t do anything but wait and see who was on the other side of the door.

Soon enough one strong and muscular man got inside my room with an evil smile is his face. f**k, this day could get worse. “Hello beautiful, I guess being patient does pay off” He said with a nasty smile “Can I help you?” I asked innocently. I scoffed in my head, like I didn’t know what he meant, but I need to keep my composure and buy some time. “Well, I was patiently waiting for the moment everyone was sleep, now we can have fun before the boss kills you and no one will ever know what happened between us” he said getting closer to me. I was scared, just a bit because let’s face it, these guys are criminals and I doubt this is the first time he has done something like this. “You don’t have to do this” I said taking a step back.

“You are so beautiful and young, not like the whores around here” He said while taking his shirt off. I felt like my soul was about to jump from my body. I have never felt like this since my parent’s death, lost and vulnerable. Sure, I have had shitty days like everyone else, but this is not how I imagined my first time to be, raped by a f*****g disgusting cheap version of Dave Bautista and I do love the guy. If it was the real Dave Bautista, I would not hesitate or put up I fight, on the contrary I would be honored to be close to him, his muscular arms wrapped around my tiny frame, but this guy gives me the creeps. Why did I save myself for so long, just to be used like a rag for a disgusting gangster? Like hell I will let him get his way with me. I will give myself to someone when I think I am ready, not because some asshole thinks he has the power to do something with me. “Please stay away from me, the brother will be back soon” I lied.

“He doesn’t care what happens to you, he wants to f**k you as well. I bet he won’t mind me using you before him, its what we do here, we share our whores all the time” he said getting dangerously close to me. God help me.

I got closer to the bed where I had my doctor’s bag that I carry most of the time, thank God the brother let me keep it after looking in it. You never know when it can come in handy and today is a perfect time to use what is inside. I can’t panic now, I took a deep breath and got on top the bed I am sure I can find something to defend myself with. So grateful I had my bag with me that I almost kissed it in appreciation. For sure this pig will not take me down without a fight “Such a good girl, I know you will enjoy everything I do to you and if the boss’s brother doesn’t kill you soon, we can keep having fun. I can assure you I will give you pleasure like no other” He assured with a nasty smile that just made want to slap it way from his disgusting face. What an asshole, doesn’t he know how ridiculous and stupid he sounds right now? Is that supposed to be his flirty side? because he really sucks at it. I put the bag behind my back so he couldn’t see it and searched for something pointy, something that can’t kill him (because I am not a murderer) but sure hurt him enough to stop this nonsense.

He was getting closer to me every second and I was starting to sweat, my hands were shaking, my legs were turning to jelly. Where did the badass Nina go when I need her the most? the one that is not scare of anything? I am still here I comforted myself, counting in my head. I always did that when I was nervous, counting gave a sense of reassurance. I am stronger now and this is not the first time you have dealt with something like this I kept encouraging myself while I found what I was looking for. I almost screamed in relief when I got what I wanted, no matter that I got a scratch on the prosses. I got it just as the fake Dave Bautista got on top of me. He screamed in pain when I dug the scalpel on his right shoulder and got off from me trying to get away, wasn’t he the one who wanted to be on top of me? “Ah! Did you enjoy that? I bet you did, I thought you wanted to have fun?” I said swaying the scalpel from side to side mocking him “f*****g b***h” he cursed, I got the courage to taunt him now that I have something to defend myself with “Come on, I want to have fun”

“You are insane” He yelled holding his hand over his shoulder. I scoffed “Why am I the insane one? I was trying to sleep when you interrupted me, you are the insane one, trying to scare the poor innocent doctor, huh?” I smiled evilly, I took one step forward and he took one back. I laughed such a baby, but I was wrong, so wrong. He yelled and in the blink of an eye he rushed and pinned to the bed. Lucky for me at that very moment the door was opened to reveal the brother. He looked at the scene in front of him and his face turned murderous when he knew what was going on “I was f*****g clear to say no one was to bother the doctor, stupid asshole what are you doing here?” he asked despite knowing the answer to his question. “I… I” The guy didn’t know what to say so I spoke for him “He wanted to have fun with me until you decided to kill me” I said shrugging my shoulders. I just wanted to see his reaction, his facial expression or what he did next would tell me if he indeed was planning on killing me, but I saw nothing, just fury in his eyes.

He grabbed the guy by the throat and pushed him to the wall. I was shocked at his strength, he looks lean, but he is quite strong, this guy is almost twice his muscular mass, yet he held him like a rag. He kept his hold tight until the guy was turning blue, but I was surprised he didn’t put up a fight until it was too late for him. Did he know if he put up a fight his end would be worst? Few minutes later the guy was lifeless on the floor and the brother dragged him outside my room. f**k, the brother is dangerous, but that was kind of hot to see him kill someone to defend me. What is wrong with me? “Are you ok?” he asked concern evident in his eye. Why would he be concerned for someone he wanted to kill or f**k like that guy said? “Like you gave a f**k if I am fine or not? If you cared, why didn’t you let me go? None of this would have happened”

“I can’t” was all he said and left. After I calmed myself, I got inside the shower and marveled in its beauty, it is really spacious and nice. Nice color tile, double sink cabinets, big standard shower and a big ass soaking tub, yeah exactly what I need to relax after what that guy wanted to do to me, but I don’t think is a good idea. I take forever when I take a bath, so I decided against it, what if the brother comes back?

I stepped inside the shower and let the warm water work its magic for a few minutes, moaning out loud feeling relax after my encounter with that guy, what would have happened if I didn’t have my doctor’s bag? Or if the brother didn’t show up when he did? This guy was way more dangerous and stronger that the last one who tried his luck with me. I shook that thought away. I didn’t notice someone opening the bathroom door, so I continued with my shower unaware of the intruder.

I turned off the water as soon as I was done and opened the foggy glass door just to be face to face with one amused and excited looking brother. “Ahhhhh” I screamed in shock trying to cover my naked body with my hands. “What the f**k are you doing here? Didn’t you say to lock the door? If I remember correctly, I did. I understand this is your house, but you have no right to invade my privacy” I said looking anywhere but him. If I looked in those eyes, I would clearly see the lust and desire ten times worse now that I am naked. He has not been that subtle in hiding his liking towards me, besides I was kind of turned on back there when he killed the guy, which is insane. How can I be turned on by something so horrible? he killed a man before my eyes for god’s sake. The guy did something wrong, yes, but kill him just for me? Does he like me that much or is it just his nature? Most importantly, I don’t like him like that.

“Leave please” I said looking down at the floor. He for sure knows I have a daughter, but what he doesn’t know it’s that I have never being intimate with anyone. Not that I haven’t had the chance to do it, but I didn’t do it because I didn’t want to. Is not that I value my virginity and I am waiting for the day I get married because that would be ridiculous now days when people just f**k for pleasure not because they have feelings for the other person. I’m still a Virgin because I haven’t found the person who makes my world crumble by just look at him. Or have I? since I can’t seem to control my thoughts towards my patient.

“What are you afraid of doll? I am nothing like that piece of s**t I just killed” He said taking steps towards me. “Don’t come any closer” I warned him hugging my naked body tightly “Don’t hide your body, you are beautiful, perfect, any woman would kill to have a body like yours. Besides, I already saw every part of it, no point hiding” He said with a silly smile and gently removing my hands from my body, but not touching anything else. I felt vulnerable with his eyes all over my body, I felt small for some reason. I’ve never been naked in front of a man, sure I get naked in front of Cassy because it is a normal women thing, but in front of a man and a very dangerous, hot and sexy man at that, never. I don’t like him like that, but I am not blind either, the man is a piece of art, just not what I am looking for in a man. I know I will do this eventually, because I don’t want to die being a virgin, but I always thought I would do it on my own accord and I will “Just perfect” he said licking his lips.

I shiver at the thought of his lips on my body, I might not like him enough to sleep with him. Hell, I am not scared of him, I am not even attracted to him that way, but my treacherous body doesn’t think the same. I shook that thought away. Don’t go that way Nina, this is a dangerous game and might be your last, I told myself. He is not forcing me to do anything, right? And this is not what I want either “Show is over, get out” I said not bothering to cover again, he saw me already. I know I am not match for him if he tries something, I just saw with my own eyes how dangerous he is, but he will not take me down without a fight just like the guy from a few minutes ago “Feisty little thing and brave too, aren’t you?” he said amused while caressing my face with his big and strong hands and taking the last step to be right in front of me. Damn, he is so sexy, very handsome and just inches away from each other. But I can’t, I don’t want just a simple quick f**k “I am here to take care of your brother, not as your w***e” I spat in his face. If he thinks he will get something because I am naked and at his mercy, he is damn wrong “You are here to do whatever I want babes, nothing less”

“Over my f*****g dead body” I said, daring him to make a wrong move and I will dig my nails and rip his eyes from his handsome face. “Why doll? As far as I know you are a single mom, don’t you miss being f****d until you scream no more? And believe I am damn good at it, no one has complained so far on the contrary they keep coming for more” He said taunting me, but I was not going to fall for his charm, I wasn’t even tempted, if he was his brother, maybe I would thought about it. “Good for them, but not interested” I shrugged “lies, who wouldn’t like s*x with a handsome, sexy, experienced, and rich guy as me?” Wow! never mind what I thought of him before. He is an asshole just like his brother.

“Not me, now can you leave?” I simply said looking at him in the eyes with no hesitation although I was excited to see what he would do. Would he punish me for rejecting him? would he get mad? “Wow, I really like your determination, you are just perfect. Too bad you don’t like me the same way, I could make your stay here memorable, your loss anyways” He said turning around leaving me behind and confused. What was that all about? was that just a test?

“Here is a towel and I got you some new clothes” He said looking away as soon as I got out from the bathroom. I really hesitated coming out knowing he would be in the bedroom waiting for me to come out. I didn’t have a towel and I never expected company either. What I didn’t expect either was to see food and a bag of clothes on the bed waiting for me. “Thanks” I mumbled putting the towel around my body “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to be a pervert back there, it’s just.... it’s been a while since I have seen a woman naked and I am sorry for what that jerk wanted to do to you” He apologized. “Don’t worry it was not your fault, about the jerk I mean” I said as he smiled sadly. My heart hurt for him, he seems lonely. Why? He said it himself, he is young, handsome, and loaded. Any woman would be more than happy to be with him. So why is he so lonely?

Why do I care that he looks sad? It’s none of my business to know about them anyway. I think they live a lonely and complicated life, just to keep going on a life full of danger. I understand why they keep people away from them. It should be hard getting attached to someone and then lose that person to another gang for revenge. I bet their life it’s not only money and power, but also loss, revenge, unhealthy competition and heartbreak.

What do these guys do anyway? the sane part of me begs me to forget about it, that I don’t want to know, but the insane part of me is just curious. That’s why I will listen to the sane part of me and mind my own business and bite my tongue as soon as I feel like I want to ask something that can get me in trouble. I value my life and more than anything, I value my Sammy’s life.