Vendetta Love

Kara This isn't a man's world. I'm not living a man's dream. I'm not playing pretend in father's clothes. I don't follow a god damn order from any men. Not a god damn one! But to live the world I wanted. The one I ran into for safety. I took a deal from one man who gave me full respect and more. And in doing so. I never thought I'll be leading myself to another man so familiar. I wanted nothing more than to stand ahead of all men itself. But this one man I fallen for like the stupid girl I pretend to be. He does nothing more than stay at my side and nudge me forth when time comes. Declan was a full surprise I thought will end sooner. But it never did. He was always there. He was my safety between both worlds I live in. But he has no clue that I'm at the edge of his world and more into another man's world. My father's world. My family's world. The legendary world. I knew I must decide whether to leave him behind and move forth. But that call seems so thin. I try my best as our time thins out to not think of it at all. And my father has been pressing me on the thought of keeping him in my life. We argue about it and I'm aware he will ask again since I had invited Declan over for dinner to meet my father. Fuck! I quickly pack my bag with my math binder and loose paper I have shoved in my locker. And as I look through the mess I came across a small box wrapped in a gold bow. Declan always gets me this in desperate time. Or anytime really. He buys me these chocolate turtles that you can only get from one spot. He found it one day and we fell in love with. Ever since then he will get a box for me. He will always get the green chocolate turtle that is fill with caramel and stuffed raspberry filled with ganache. Oh, it's heaven. It ease works magic from one bite. Right when I tug onto gold ribbon, someone had slammed their hand over my ass and wrapped their arms down my ribs and over my belly. I loosen my tension as I try to not active my training. But when I get that heavenly smell when that person lean over and nuzzle their head in my neck. I knew it was my Declan. "Hey, baby? Wha.. Ah, surprise, baby." I turn over and Declan's hands stayed at my waist. My lips push out as my eyes darted to his gift. "When did you put this in my locker?" Declan smiled along with me. "Magic." My brow cross. "I thought of you and I had to. Taste like home. You're home to me. All I nee was you and these." He bends down to kiss my lips. It send just that lovely home feeling he was talking about. Something no one but us will understand. Home was debatable right now. I push the sad feeling out my head as I look up to see Declan's eyes glaze over mines. His blue hues melts my body as his words flutter my brain. I'm so loved by him I couldn't speak. So I nod. My hands just flows over his neck. I pull him in and my fingers tug the small end of hair. Breathing out, my body felt that over drive again. Each kiss Declan gives me. I feel so out of control. I was taught growing up to always stay in control or else. It was you are your enemy. I had to be ahead of my person but with Declan, I was aline with him. Which makes my real world so annoying compare to what our world is now. "Mmm, baby. You gonna make me be late to my exam if you keep that up." He chuckles as he perks for more. I pull back to lean against my open locker. His finger trace the trim of flesh and fabric. A soft moan was eager to escape. "Don't blame me. That was you like always." I scolded. He smirks so annoyingly. "How can I not be so tempted when I got you as my girl." "Haha. Flattering isn't gonna get you in my pants." He pouts. "Don't start." I claimed. He drops his child like act and firm himself. "Mh fine. Then as replacement I need one turtle. Brain boost." My brows frown and I argue. "Did you not study? You need to make time for school and work. How else are you gonna run your family's business if you don't pass school." "I studied." He pulls away as I close my locker to await for his excuse. "I just didn't have time yesterday or the day before." "Declan!" "Mmm, Kara. Yes, scream fo.." "Declan." I slap his hand away. I see his eyes grew hungry. Yet, Declan works his magic charms and flutter his eyes as he leans over me. His tower physique eats me up. "Mmm, Kara baby." He soften his tone. I turn away while I cross my arms. He says my name again as he takes my chin and forces my attention. He was too strong for me to pull away. I flare my eyes as he keeps his hold. His thumb runs over my lips. A feather touch. And even when my body says to suck on it. My mind urge me to bite down. "Kara.." He sang as he barely flinch to my attack. I shook my head while his hold over my chin harden. It was harsh and would normally alarm others but it heated my insides. Wetted my folds. I break my stone hold. "What on earth am I gonna do if you fail?" "Oh, baby, you can do many, many things." He snickers. The bell rings and breaks our trance. We headed off to our next class. I hold my box as Declan takes my hand and leads the way. Another thing I normally don't do. Following men. We talk on our way and I willingly gave Declan two and half turtles for good luck. He kisses the last half into my mouth. A delicious taste of him and heaven. He was bombing with a C and this exam will help. So un-selfish of me I share the chocolates like I always. We both have a terrible sweet tooth. I head to my class next right away. Needing to take my own exams. Hours went by and Declan just parked outside my house. The driveway rounded pass the gate and lead to large stone stairs to my front door. Declan leans over my seat as we finish our talk about dinner coming up. I was nervous and excited all at once. I mean he was meeting my father. Who wasn't just my father. Cause secret is, my father was a ruthless killing Mafia Boss and my life as his daughter was a big secret from Declan. "Don't stress yourself, baby. I'm not worry. He'll fall for me easily like you." He smirked. I slap his chest. Not finding his ego funny. "Don't make me seem easy because-" "Oh, baby, you are far from easy. Even now i'm still chasing you and f**k it's a heavenly run." I heavily roll my eyes. I sat up right to continue our talk. "Declan, he's a hard man to pleased. I love you and I really want him to love you like I do." I sigh heavily as the idea of my father spiting over my relationship. Declan's hand cups my face. In his hands I fall far from the daughter I was raise and the girl that found love in a world she can't keep. "I got this, baby. Okay? I'll be here early. Small talk with everyone and keep the conversation short but firm with your father. And by the end of the night, he will shake my hand and not only bless your taste in men. But call me his future son in law." His brought me close as he kisses my head. Sealing his promise. "Fine. But I warn you-" "Yes, baby, I know, he's old school and you know my mother raised me as a pure rounded gentlemen." I nod as I can't keep the dreadful thoughts swimming. "Will you call me once you're home?" "Don't I always." Yes, he does. No matter how late he works at the butcher shop. He will always call to let me know he's home. We have never gone one night without the knowing the other was safe in their own bed. And I yarn for the day we have our home where we kiss goodnight in each others arms until death. Wishful thinking. "Come on. Let me walk you up." I grab his sleeve. "Declan, no. You know there are cameras." One rule I stated since we dated. When he drops me off. He can't go up the stairs. We have cameras there. And I don't want judgment from anyone who's watching. I try as much as I can to keep my both worlds APART. Him driving me home itself was extended. I know his reasons why but no. If we get hack one day I don't want Declan involve. His brows deeply fury's. "That s**t is about change. After dinner no more of this limited mess." He uses his deep voice that rattle my inside. I roll my fist as the sweat of lust fills from him. "If I want to walk my girl to her damn door than damn it I will. If you keep that s**t up I won't ever tuck you in bed once we get our own place. So hush while I do my damn thing, Kara!" He hauls himself out the car, walks over to my side and offer his hand to me. I hold my composure as I stand tall while he grabs my bag. He close the door and leans by to run his nose over my neck. My breath hitch to breathing against my skin. "f**k, Kara. Must you always be so stubborn with me. Can't you just let me do the simple things I am meant to without a fight?" My hand marks up his arm. I take hold of his neck as he now faces me. I take his motive as this happens every time. However, I see it has been bothering him more. His limit was thinning. "Isn't that why you like me. My stubbornness?" His eyes roam over. And in seconds he takes my lips. My heart flutters out as my world spins. He was angry with me and it's understanding. And he uses that to devour my lips. In any way, he makes sure to mark me as his. "I love you. Just the way you are." His spine straighten as he hands me my bag. But he doesn't let go. "Dinner than no more. Once we will have our place soon after. And finally after that. You, Kara Cast, will be know as Mrs. Bloom. Okay!" He said all this in one breath and full confidents. It gave me hope and greater life to hear him say such things the way he does. And I hope for it. I hope to have the life together as one. "I love you too, Declan. To my deepest core." "To my soul, baby." One kiss goodbye and I'm off. I walk up the stairs. I turn to wave bye and of course he stands there watching me. "Drive off!" "You know I like to watch you get inside safety. Now get your cute ass inside or else!" I roll my eyes and continue. Once I shut the door. I peek out the long slim window to watch him leave the ground. Until then, I am falling out of my fantasy and into real life. I'm fallen back as the only daughter of my father. And the eldest Monroe daughter must live up to a title. In quick time, I barely made it up to my room before daddy Monroe makes his call for me. Which has been a bit more routine lately. Once I had made it down the trail of halls. I knock on the door. "Come in!" I enter and right away I was greeted with a smile that faded with a nod and a gesture to sit. I stood of course. He laugh and stood too. "How was school, Kara? Anything to update with?" "School is school. How was your day?" His face goes long and I knew the answer. "Time speed up. I'm gathering my men tonight and we are making a dent into the Barron's tonight." "I see you got your toe stuck in the door since last time." I said bitterly. But he doesn't found it cold. "Ugh. Those bastards think we won't take what's ours. I had shipment stolen and they think they can just take it. If it wasn't holding value maybe i'd of let it go." "Of course. Will Cole And Wally join you? Must I hold dear mommies hand?" I displace my hands at my back. I did not flinch or react to anything towards my father. He laughable chuckles. "Do what you pleased, as you always do, dear daughter." I ignore his snicking as he takes his seat. I step forward and met his cold eyes. They hold so much pain and anger. It's hard to tell whether he's putting on a mask or has he gone mad. "Kara, I need you in top tier. I want you out there soon. The Barron's are being very chipper and I need my best." "I still have time." Little time but still. He practically growled at me. "If you say so. Just don't fall back and disappoint your family, or me." "When do I ever disappoint, father?" "Lately? Your love impulse. It's lust and you speak of it as a desire. What do you truly believe this act is? A performance." He claps loudly to amuse himself only. "Very doll like of you. Your mother has even start to talked about your nonsense. But we both know you'll drop the boy, right?" Now he switches it. His dad act drops to face his Boss judgement. "Daddy, I'm not putting an act when it comes to him. It's not like that." His eyes laughed at me. "Oh, Kara, please don't tell me you spread your legs and gotten-" "No! What the hell!" "Mmm, good." Asshole. Father grabs his drink of liquor and sip it. I take a step as I try to convince him of Declan. "Look, I need you to behave. One night. He's a good man. He treats me better than well. It's been years now and you are the last to mee-" "I get it! You are all lovey dovey with this boy." He waves his hand up. Still believing he has a say. I step closer as my belly touches the desk. "You'll see, daddy. Declan is a noble man. He is well put than most of our men. The talk of me you spoke years of marrying. That's him. Every order you wanted he upholds to that and more." His eyes snaps to me. "So, I’m guessing you told him the truth then?" My throat dries up. And of course daddy grins. "Does he really uphold my demands. Not just your heart. But do you think he will make it in our world. Can you say he can make it as one of our men? Is this Declan boy you bring home trusting enough?" I nod. "And this dinner?" "Behave, daddy." His arms flare up and cross over his body. "Couldn't you just get with one of your men? Or even.." "No. This is not like you and mother." "Hm, clearly." Of course they meet at a gathering. Fallen in a deal and soon in love. That's the story he wanted me and my brothers to have. But I have Declan. And he is a non-Mafia son. "Declan is ten times better than any man you meet. You'll like him. He's not scared easily either." "You're his girlfriend, of course not." He snickers. "Daddy, please." I plead. Which is something I try my hardest not to do with him. Pleading was for the weak. But I'm desperate for him to give Declan a chance. He reads my face as we glare in silence. As soon as he slams his hand down he's back to daddy role. "Oh, fine, princess. Bring the boy and daddy will be nice. I'll even disarm myself for the time." I nod and as I say my dismissal he speaks. "But one deal." I glare hard. Of course he will add on. "If he is as you say. Tell him that night. And I'll welcome him. No more of my talk this and that about your other worldly dream. And then you both take my deal as promised. You're my best man. I will not lose you over some puppy love. You need a beast at your side. So train him or let him go, Kara." There was a hidden demand in his words. And I understood it. "Yes, father." He nods in a pleasing grunt. "Good. Now, wash up. Dinner is ready in 10 minutes." The day went by faster than normal. Yet, as the time kept going like it should be. I had this heavy weight over me I couldn't budge. It floated my mind like I needed to remember something but couldn't quite grasp what it was. Dinner was different for once. It wasn't quiet. But it also wasn't loud with my brothers fighting and father's constant judgement on everyones lives. Instead. It was like we were a normal family for dinner. We smiled, we laughed. We shared and praise each other over old achievements. Cole and Wally didn't fight across the table. Marco was the well most respective out of us all. The well known family member. And mom and father actually held hands. I watch in awes at how they spoke for once about their times and father praise his wife in a way that had his kids wishing for the same love one day. I stayed quiet as I enjoy everyones gather. I spoked when spoken to and that's all. This weight was too much to involve myself in the joy they all had. Mom noticed and I shrug her off nicely. Made some excuse as I watch my family. Once that moment pass. Everyone got ready to descend for the night. Our men geared up and dress all black. My brother did the same and I couldn't help but fight this feeling again. But now as I watch them all this one time. I had this urge to gear up too. But it wasn't my time yet. If I spoke. If I zip up my weapons. If I wrap my knuckle in blood I won't be able to leave. Father wouldn't let me live the life I asked for. I would be ending our deal. And I'm not ready to end my fantasy yet. I can't just leave it all for the harsh reality I know I am meant to be in. I know at some point I have to man up and take father's offer. I'm his eldest daughter with a repetition to uphold. So I had to. Cole and Wally walked through the front door where mom and I stood across and watch the people pile in. Cole gave us both a cheek on the cheek while Wally bump my shoulder hard. "You guys keep your eyes open. Be safe. Wally don't be an ass and try to be cool and take 3 down at once!" I scolded. He was young and cocky. "I'm just that good, sis." Said the cocky boy. "That scar on your arm says otherwise!" Wally flashes his scar and mom yells for him to stop. "Just be smart not stupid." Cole says as he wraps himself over Wally. They wrestle a bit until mom scolded them both. And Marco comes up to order them around. "You too, Marco! Be safe, son." Mom yells in such a gentle way. "Always." He says as his gaze met mine. We said nothing but the look we gave another said the same. I wanted to see every family of mine come back safe. Every true family. Dad, Marco, Cole, and Wally. They're out there in the violence. The once I should be in. Especially when it's up against our rival. A few minutes later father waltz up to kiss his wife a goodbye. He cups my face very hard his nails pull my loose stands. His eyes loosen for once. "You are my daughter, Kara. My only daughter. My first heart and I want what's best for you. Even a man at your side. Your fairytale can continue after you step back in with me. Your main goal in life was to lead these men. I trust you, princess. You're our strongest and if you won't my blood. I'll be handing you a gun right now as I drive us both to this mass. That's my love for you. That's is love, princess." I nod as I grip both his hands. "Soon, daddy. I'll be at all your sides again." He brought our faces forward as he stares down my eyes. A dominant way that had a hidden mark as the mafia leader he is. "That's my Kara." He kisses my head before sending a prayer up to the sky. And by then, the clouds washes over and each car one by one left through the gate. "Don't worry, dear. They're good men. They always make it back." Mom said as she saw me itch for that leave again. But that wasn't just it. I watch my men leave many times. And even now I wanted to join. I thought of Declan. I thought of how things would be if only he knew what he was getting into as my world. Because this is my world. And soon he will be stepping in a fraction of my world. And the idea of it shutting down and leaving would be hard. Yet, I've never seen him quit something without trying. I mean what's the worst that could happen at dinner? My father killing my boyfriend? Either way, Time was running out and I needed to fulfill my promise to not only my father, my men, or my family. It was for myself. I can't lie and say I didn't want the life my father offer to me. Cause I do. The thing was I had to rearrange some things to fix myself into it once again. I wasn't going to college like Declan thinks. I wasn't gonna be this financial like my father. I was meant to lead the Monroe Mafia just like my father. It's family after all.