Vendetta Love

Collided Lies Pt 2

Kara

"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" I shoved the both of them away. I nudge Declan more because I thought he would jump over me and attack Cole who was smaller than him.

Declan was built more than the boys at school. Hell! He was built more then most men I knew in the Mafia. I don't know why or how, but I also never questioned it until now. Because as this day shifted to some odd world. Declan being a butcher's son can't be entirely true. Right?

Declan grabs hold of my elbow. My eyes beg on him once I saw MY Declan again. "Kara, please. Let's step away and talk alone. I'll explain everything."

"How much of everything is needed to be said? Why does everything feel like such a lie?" I brought my voice down as it also begs with him. My heart aches as it swells with the worse idea that Declan was unfaithful. I mean it had to be that of all things? Right?

"There's a lot to be said. And you may not believe it. I don't know if you even know the truth behind the vile. It's not just me."

I felt like I was standing on a ledge. And his words didn't help me level out like they use to. Nothing he said made any type of sense at all. Not one word.

My eyes shot down when Declan grips for my hands. My full reaction cling onto him.

"Did you plan this lie to hurt me? For how long did you lie and who?" I asked and my heart crack a tear when my eyes couldn't.

"Wait, no." He shook his head. "You think I cheated on you?"

I stutter the first time in my life. I mean what else can it be?

I turn to Cole to get some kind of truth. But he shook his head at me. "No, sis. It's way, way worse than that."

"Worse." I take my hands away from Declan. "How can anything be f*****g worse than cheating? What the hell is going on?"

"Well, for starters, sis. You have terrible taste in f*****g men. I mean like out of all f*****g people you had to not only date HIM! But you also allowed yourself to fall in love with him too." Cole laugh as if my relationship was a full joke. "You fell too deep in your pretend life bullshit."

"Don't you start sounding like father. You don't even know the truth behind it!"

"Of course not!" Cole claimed. "Your daddy's little favorite and you were protective from our lifestyle. But I knew enough to know I at least didn't hide." Cole's words hit hard but he didn't know why I got the deal I did.

"Watch your mouth!" Declan shouted and I hold him as he reaches my back side.

I don't need him to try to defend me over my own lies. And I guess in a way this may be a sign that I also have to come out with my own kind of truth. Maybe it was time to stop lying. My deal with father had already expired.

"Oh, don't go acting like you’re her prince anymore. You two played others as much as you played yourselves in this fantasy bullshit."

"Look, I love your sister, okay. Nothing was gonna change that or anything else. Your father would understand that. I was gonna ask his blessing to.."

I turn quick and then everything almost snapped. He didn't just admit something he shouldn't have.

Declan and I talked many times about our future after high school. It was a normal talk for a couple like us. We planned college, living together, jobs, marriage, kids, and everything else. We had a full on plan set. But at one point I knew none of that was never gonna happen. Not with the life I have.

I can't marry Declan and help as a finance advisor for his family's business when none of that was true. I would be betraying my family by never returning back.

I like my life as it is honesty.

If we had gonna married. Father wouldn't just have Declan as some butcher or house husband. Declan would have to get his hands dirty. I mean he didn't have to leave his family shop completely. But he also will marry into the life as mine too. But I also never fully got the ideal thought of how it could work when father's words fill my head that I'm just being silly in my relationship. That Declan may just get himself kill. That keeping me happy wasn't ideal in his eyes.

Yet, somewhere deep inside told me father was wrong. That I knew every time he shot down my feelings about Declan. That he was wrong. That we could make it work. Declan is a good man. He is true to his words. Since day one Declan has always been true to his words. And whether father believed it or not. He knew Declan was good enough. That's why we planned that dinner.

"Oh God, sis. You should of just agreed to one the suitors father offer you."

"Oh f**k you all. Kara isn't gonna be with any of them. She's safer with me anyways."

"Safer!" Cole laughed and he stare fallen in a joyful grin. "Oh, Kara. You have to tell him now. Save the love sick puppy bullshit from him and tell him the truth too."

I shook my head with the tightest lips. "You're an asshole, Cole. You can't force that on someone."

"Ah, for f**k sake." Cole moved the hair over his eyes. "Both of your lies will tell the truth you both so stupidly kept from another when neither had to be done."

"Kara, what lie?" Declan ask as if this was gonna flip on me. His eyes still never lift ahead but I see they shielded something. "Cole, she doesn't know that crap."

My eyes narrow and I don't know who to look at. But I see Cole is dreading this all. "She is just a well asset of ours. But soon others are gonna know the truth and woah the truth of your two relationship is.."

"Cole, shut your mouth before.."

Before I finish spiral over when Cole took his gun out on me. I lost it all then. The fantasy line has falling and I attack Cole. My arm went to hold him from shooting. I aim my leg up as I twist his arm. Once my leg reach his stomach he fallen half down and I kick his knee in. I took his gun and aim it to him leg. One shot and he yelp.

"God damn it, Kara!"

"You i***t! I warn you for ever pointing a gun at me."

I watch as Cole's head slowly pulled up. I expected a heated Cole ready to call me a b***h but no. He just smile and lean back on the dirt road.

"Well, Declan, that's her truth. She knew it this whole time. She's the hidden asset no one knows of." My eyes cut Cole's throat. But what he said next felt like mine was cut. "Now, tell her your's, Barron."

I turn and my eyes match Declan's. It shot to his gun that I completely forgotten about. I didn't even ask why he had it besides demanding their fight this full time. I saw that Declan gun had dropped to his side. His eyes spark when his lips curl down like I'd kick him.

Declan whispers my name and my hands went numb. The gun fell to the ground as the name floats in my head again. And again.

"It doesn't bother me that you know. I wanted you safe. And finding out your family's name recently I assume you were being lied to. But this is good, baby. It can all work-"

"Work! Declan, it doesn't matter the fine line of this lie but our families are-"

"It'll all be okay. We can fix it." He strive for me and all I can do was allow him. I didn't know how to feel. "We draw on each other because of this. I was gonna tell you soon and now."

"Now thing still feel odd." I shot up. And he instantly caress my arms. I felt a burning feeling but it itch.

"Declan, your week is up. Tell Kara your truth. This whole mess is boring me." I ignore my brother's groans in the back. I just watch how Declan's features change before my eyes.

"A lie for a lie, Declan." I declare and yet he still hesitated.

"Kara?"

"Declan, I alway stayed connect to my family. I was marked out for a reason. And you were part of that. But nothing else can matter if you don't tell me now. Barron or not. You are hiding something."

I try my hardest to use our connection to edge him to talk. But some how it made it worse. Why was it so hard for him to just tell me the truth.

My eyes water in anger. I pounded on his chest to speak. "f**k, Declan. Be a man and just say it. I'll still love you if you just say it!" I plead my last plead. But even the crack in my voice didn't get him to speak.

"Would you still love me? After what I have to say, would you still love me? You won't see me as something else? Tell me there'll still be a us if-"

"I need the truth. I can't make a deal without information. That's something you know growing up in such a lifestyle."

"Kar.. I.. I didn't."

Ugh, why couldn't he just say it.

"Wow, you two are more pathetic than I thought. I really thought this will go by quick. Maybe kick him and be done, Kara."

"You said enough, Cole!" I snapped.

I heard Cole curse annoyingly under his breath. And I hear words leave his lips. Admitting he'll just say it. And even though I didn't ordered him to not. I kept my hold on my Declan. Hoping he would say it himself.

As much as thing has fallen from our fantasy. The reality didn't seem to crash over it. And we both held on to that. It may just be the reason why he couldn't say what he had to say. Because if he says the words he had to say to me. If they make it to the surface. Our fantasy may be gone. And in his eyes I see he didn't want to lose that. He didn't want to lose me.

And no matter what I feel or say. I can't make a reliable promise right now. I can't even tell if this is all happening. That we both held the same lie for the same reason. That at some moment things wouldn't feel so strange when it come out. That the second we both admit that our families are both Mafia families who spoke well on killing the other since both Barron family and the Monroe family were known enemies more than any other family. But truth be said at one time it wasn't like that. And a flash of maybe Declan and I can restore that. But that small glimpse hardly hit my brain when Cole spoke.

Cole groan less and less as he got to his feet. I hear his lips tsk. And I wasn't sure if it was before I stayed in the comforted of a Barron. Or if it was cause I didn't demand harder for Declan Barron to tell me this so call lie. But we had draw all of Cole's patients now.

So I held on to Declan's hand that rested on cheek. I held tight with both hands. Our eyes never looked away. Knowing that if either of us looked away or broke our silence. The question of our fantasy will floating away.

Am I still betraying my family for still wanting my fantasy with him. With a Barron?

Cole sighed deeply. "You wanted father's killer, well you have him." My eyes widen and I froze. "Isn't that right, Declan Barron. Heir of the Barron Mafia."

"That's not how it went." Declan said straight to my face.

"Oh, yeah, sorry." Cole laughed. "Your boy here shot him multiple times then the kill.. oh, just pow, right."

I looked away from Declan and show how Cole demonstrated on how the gun was placed at the chin and up to shoot out his head.

I was release from Declan's hold. I took a step back. My brain floated with it all. Every second of our fantasy. And every reality that was kept for reason but shouldn't. My brain clouded and nothing felt right. Nothing from no one felt okay at all.

I couldn't think when all I heard was Declan and Cole argue back and forth.

But then it all click. Everything else beside this lie shut down completely.

"Cole, leave." I ordered.

Surprisedly he didn't have a cocky remark. Neither did Declan. They stopped their arguing right away. And I waited until Cole was at the car so I can look up at Declan. My father's killer. And see what he has to say.

Declan also waited for Cole to give us privacy before he can defend his reason. "Baby.."

"Talk. Did you knew this whole time. What was a lie?"

"Kara, I swear. I thought you were being played when I found out."

"When did you find out? Before us? Before I fell for you and everything? From creating a future and before seconds I thought it can be. When, Declan?"

"That night." My eyes question him. He was being vague. "The night he died."

"Were you ever gonna tell me if I didn't find out?" I asked as my eyes turn cold. I couldn't see his grin anymore.

"If Cole hadn't force-"

"I have sent men after men to look for you. To just ID you. And all along you were just laughing behind my back. Was this you or your family?"

I know it seem harsh to ask but the Kara my father raised came out. Questioning his killer and not my boyfriend who happens to be the heir son.

"It wasn't like that. You know how things goes. If I didn't, he would of killed me. And you were all I had to welcome back. Kara, please understand-"

"Stop!" I fought off the wanting tears. I could't get lost on the emotions that wanted to lose because of what he means or meant to me. f**k, I don't know yet.

Declan kept trying to step closer but I step back each time. I slap his hand away. I couldn't let him try to manipulate me when I can't even function right. I couldn't tell how to react at this moment. I didn't know if I can fall into and know it'll be okay. I can't see pass him when I see my father's blood on his hands. No plead or any kind of excuse can lessen the play of what this all means now.

"You know what this means now. What you set in order."

He shook his head. "Baby, no. We don't have to come to that." He begged and just that sound from a Barron seems so, so. ODD.

My head snapped and I couldn't be more upset at how he takes all this. Like did he think I'll over see this and just end the decades of fuse just for love. Love wasn't the answer to everything. It can't solve everything. It can't save everyone.

It can't save us. And it won't solve my father's death.

"You took a mother's son, a wife's husband, a little girl's father. He was loved..You knew what my father meant to me and you just.."

"Kar.."

I shut everything down once more. I let it all go black. Even the sky dim from my emotions inside.

So as I stand before the man I love more than my truth. I had to ask the ultimate question. "If you knew would you'd still have done it. Giving the same state?"

I waited as long as I could for him to answer. So a minute pass and he said nothing. And that was the answer I needed to fully get myself back into the life I hesitated to want.

It's not that I didn't accept it. Because I did. But having Declan made me wonder for things. And now I know that all along. I was always meant to always be in one place and not the other. I knew I had to be the Monroe daughter my father has hidden from the world. I was their secret asset that still played a part when needed. For my deal with father wasn't a full shut off. It was only pause.

I nodded on acceptation to his answer. He continue to plead with his eyes as if they work any thing now. "Call your men and father. The vendetta is set because of you."

"Kara.."

I held every once of pure guilt rage. Even though I wanted so badly to strike him. To get a real answer out of him. And I guess that's his Kara thinking. Wanting him to beg and never stop trying to convince me that it wasn't an hit on my father. That there could of been more to us than the fantasy we thought had an end to it. That the ache will blow away. The love, that our love can beat the hate.

But no.

Kara Monroe. The true Kara. Couldn't see pass anything at all. I can't stay in that hopeless love mess we falsely created. I can only stay where I was meant to be.

A Monroe.

And a Monroe I will be. I have one goal to set me to my future in the Monroe Mafia. And I have to focus on that more.

So I walked off. I walked away from Declan Barron. I walked away from the love of my life. I walked away from my father's killer. I just walked away.

Cole had an all too happy of a grin on. "Want my gun to kill him n-"

I punch Cole in the throat as hard as I can. Since I restrain myself from even touching Declan at all. And it would be a hell of a battle to even restrain myself from all the feeling that builds up over years for him.

My eyes almost fell in my skull. Thankfully the nudge of my head brought it down. "Do something right and set a meeting."

"We did one already ab-" He coughed.

"Set another!"

I slap the back of his head and got into the car. Cole drove us home. Any time he tries to talk to me about anything at all. I slapped him again and again. Thankfully by the time we parked up. He learn to shut his mouth and obey my f*****g orders.