LAILA LUWEIH

Today, Dec 12 my 20th birthday I'm glad that I have become 20 as 20 is the age of maturity as someone told! Today I'm gonna tell you, about my journey till my 20th birthday, as it's little bitter and cold also it's sweet and tender. l was born in India. I'm a Muslim by birth and I do follow it. I don't remember what's the exact situation after I born coz it's so horrible as my birth is a natural disaster, coz mom always tells that, "the reason I am still with your dad is you". First I will feel bad, coz I will think that mom got sad life coz of me but growing older I get that it's mom's luck that she got my dad and I'm not a disaster at all. so let me say I see my dad for first time, when I was 4 , I was not interacting with him coz he is very masculine at that time also I was afraid later on I start interact with him and soon, he turns out to be my world, I love my dad the most ! Even if we fought for a day will forget it with in a sec, I will say that he is my best friend forever. I will introduce my family members, mom, dad, grandma, grandpa, aunty, uncle. This my world. later on when I turned 5,I got a brother, named him Jahan. Our life was going smooth until uncle marries, their was love marriage, but things go well , later on uncle start a greedy nature and start to capture the home and soon the joint family of us split into pieces and turns out be shattered as my mind shattered into pieces. From there I realized that I love uncle so much upto there, but now it's all gone from mind, just an outside greetings at any functions.Its when I'm 10 yrs old, the fight between families goes on but dad tells not to mind it, and focus on studies only and in school, I was a topper since I'm good in studies also I'm in icse so its has its own benefits which I understand later. I had 3 best friends in my school Saisha, Isha and Maryam. These three are my world me and Isha was best friends from 1st grade its self and Saisha join us in 5th grade then joins Maryam at 7th grade. Saisha was so attractive every boys were on her hands, as she is a makeup maestro. Isha was entirely opposite of Saisha, she don't even use a moisturiser also dont even smile towards a boy. The extreme comes about Maryam, she was a pure Orthodox, and Isha and Maryam use to fight for this simple matters of some religious based theories and I and Saisha wong involved in these matters coz we it not gonna work with them. Mutually in 7th grade we are together we 4 are famous in our school coz we are always together for anything even though for certain topics we split up, I and Saisha was neighbors so we use same bus to our home and in school I and Maryam was in same class and Isha and Saisha in same class so comes a barrier between me and Isha but Isha and I had strong bond coz we are together from grade one. Now we are teenagers and comes new one in our life, Isha got a crush on a senior boy, who was tall and curly hair, fit and handsome. She never tell to us she had a crush on, but I and Maryam find it use to troll her with his name. Later comes a twist Naif proposed Saisha, Saisha is really beauty conscious at that time, and she reject him coz his looks, coz he is dark and dusky with slim and curly hair, but doesn't matter at all. soon he start writing letter for her, at first she use to laugh at it but later she feels it's genuine for him so she said yes to him. I and Maryam said don't do it coz, these relationship not gonna work out we know coz we no Saisha well and also Naif was so sincere so can't break his heart, but Isha was so supportive with Saisha finally there are in relationship. This was the first relationship I seen closely from start to end. At first they was in to there own world and days gone, their bond is going deeper and deeper then weeks ,months gone. Finally I and Maryam happy by seeing it coz it's working Saisha was always talking about Naif. Now we are in 9th grade, My first Crush I don't know any thing about him! it's called love at first sight, my IT sir, Rishi. The first day he enter the class my stomach was full of butterflies I don't what to do, my breath rate when see him goes higher and higher day by day, that time I don't know about crush and etc, I was thinking Im in love with rishi sir, I always adore him. I deeply notice him and Java for me become a piece of cake. soon I develop a great intrest I'm programming than rishi sir, but still I like him. l use to write dairy that time, so in every page I will write what color shirt sir wear today, that was a great feeling. Now years gone, we have reached in 10th grade, the turning point of life as everyone tells at that time. I was so focused about studies coz my mom is the backbone of me from the beginning of school and now also she always teach importance of learning.Still I will watch Rishi sir behind him. Like that a day Saisha got a proposal from another boy which is our neighbor, his name is Ayoob. she tells to us, we was like why the hell she even tell to us, coz she already in relationship and she can tell no without even thinking, but she said to us that being practically thinking Naif was a year smaller than her so this not gonna workout in future but Ayoob was 4 yrs above her so its practically the best! I was shocked, how could she even think that, Isha also get sad coz she is the one who stand first for them. We totally confused, without asking our openion Saisha get in relationship with Ayoob and tells naif things not gonna workout for them.Naif shattered and we all was like what to do rest! now Isha stop talking with Saisha, but we try our best to make like before but we couldn't do it coz Isha is that much fed with Saisha. Saisha and Ayoob continue their relation. Now a new chapter enters my life, Jan 2 2019 I see a boy far away from me staring at me when I was plucking mint leaves for mom, my eye get locked for 3 sec there I was curious to know who is that, coz he is my next door. Next time my sister ( I forget to introduce her, as always I forget her!) went for playing with neighbor's. I go to call her and I see him again I got he was in that house but I never see him even though my neighbor. I just said a hi to him and he said me hi, he continues his work, he drawing something and his mom told me that he is a painter. He is Dhas, he is a 12th fail, anyway I start developing deep connection with him. to be continued...........