If By Chance

"I never thought you had a beautiful sister, Dew” she smiled at Dew from ear to ear and take a sip on her soda while she's watching her best friend's sister getting out her stuff on the car" "That's my sister you're referring to Khun Sam watch your mouth I won't let you hit on her “he just gives her a soft punch on her shoulder and she just smirk. "Can I hit on her?" "You once told me; you’re attracted to me and now you're telling me that it's a lie!" "You're the one that I love, I didn't love anybody else since the day I laid my eyes on you" "It takes a matter of time to be heal from the pain that you've cause me" "The pain that you give just make me numb, so hate me as long as you want, I still going to give you the smile, I still going to put a smile on my face so that you'll realize that your name doesn't hurt me anymore every time I heard it" "I just hate myself for loving an impossible person" "Oh, I hate how much I love you" "It kills me every time I saw you with him" "Why can't a straight pole like you falls in love for a person like me?" "I may be a royalty but I can't have the love that I always wanted to feel" "I just feel safe every time you wrap your arms around me" "Is there really a woman like you?? you're always mad at me even though I didn't do anything to you" "We're just so complicated" "She's mad at me every day and every time she sees my face it feels like she's on fire" "Does that mean you like her?" "Do I have to give up the love I had for her and let my brother win and accept that I'm just a loser" "I love her, and you'll never ever going to understand what is the love we had for each other" "You should stop that, loving a woman is a sin my child and you know that" Why it is so hard for them to understand that love has no limits and no gender? Because the last time I check the ten commandments I didn't even saw the term "loving another woman or the same gender is a mortal sin" why does people was so judgy and they can't keep their own damn businesses!! I just want to be with Khun Sam is that hard to give? I mean I don't know I knew myself that I am a girl, a woman who should fall in love with a guy but why does it is so freaking weird. I admitted that she and I almost fight and argue, there's no time we didn't fight with each other. I just feel like she's so empathetic, antipathic, heartless, careless and inattentive but I don't know I can't explain the shits within me, I always looking for her if she's not around and if she does, I keep arguing with her. I wonder what'll happened if she answers my brother, hmm yes!!guess I just have to admit that I really do like Khun Sam but I have to keep it private since my brother told me that he already like Khun Sam for more than 3 years, they've been best friends since they're on 1st year in college...how can I tell her that I do like her if my brother likes her too??should I just give up and give my brother the spotlight? or I'll fight for it? but what if she doesn't like me?