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"Ewwww... that's gross... why would I be jealous of him?... look at me... I could get any girl I want," he said and Mika scoffed. "Certainly not me or Jasmine... we are way out of your league," Mika said and I smile. Roland is cute though... but I want more than that... I want someone daring... and Jasper is the only one giving me that vibe right now... funny right? "And who told you I can't get you girls if I wanted to?... don't get your hopes up Mika... you are not that pretty," Roland said and Mika eyes widened... she hits him her purse... making him squirm as he ran ahead. These two wouldn't be the end of me... always at each other's throats. We got to the subway and paide our tickets... joining the line as we got in. We all lived separately but Mika and I are closer... about three blocks apart. Looking out the window as we headed home... Avia's stupid words still running through my mind. Trying to keep my thoughts in check as my eyes caught a huge billboard... everyday since my 2nd year of working here I have always seen this billboard... and each time I do I just can't seem to get my eyes off it. It's like it's calling me?... how crazy is that? It's an advertisement billboard of one of the biggest business tycoon in town: Bartle Billions. I immediately scoffed as I shook the thoughts off... my Dad once has some connections with this man but unfortunately things ended when we got into a really huge car accident that claimed the lives of my parents. Six year old me... discovering I'm the only survivor of the accident. I woke up with a brain tumor and most of my childhood memories were gone. The very moment my parents were laid to rest was the very day my struggles began. All of my Dad's businesses were taken over by his wicked brother... I became a shadow instantly as he forced me into the hands of poverty. At age 16 I started par time jobs... I started living on rentage in my father's house... and if I couldn't meet up with the payment on time then... he would... damn. "Get yourself together Jasmine," I said to myself trying not to dive too much into the very past I'm running from. I got to my stop and hoped off the subway... Mika also did same. "You free tomorrow afternoon?" She asked and I crock my neck... it hurts badly. "I actually plan on sleeping my life away tomorrow... you know how stressful Monday's can be," I said and she nods. "Then we'll spend the day at your pl ace... I don't feel like staying all by myself tomorrow." "Then we'll spend the day at your place... I don't feel like staying all by myself tomorrow," she said and I chuckled. "Sure... but I don't have any food so better pack up before coming," I said and she laughed it off. She must think I'm really joking? I walked past the Alley... I got to the gate and opened it... it's past seven and the day was dark already but thanks to the beaming lights i could see everything clearly. Including my wicked uncle who stood right in front of my room... what does he want this time? Haven't I been through enough? "Your rent is due Jasmine... must I remind every month what you ought to do?" He said... his nasal eyes piercing through mine as I stood rigid at the front... looking at him as I felt all human emotions fleeing off me. "I know that... you don't have to remind me," I blurted out and he smiles. "But here I am reminding you that you need to pay up or else!......." He suddenly yells and I flinched a little... looking at him as his chest heaved heavily... he might be really pissed right now but who cares?... I have needs to take care of too and for f***s sakes this is my father's mansion and I'm staying in the courtyard. "I understand and I will pay up once I have the money," I said... maintaining my cool. He suddenly started walking towards me... that's one thing about me... I'm not scared to move back... I stood still... awaiting his next move. "If you are finding it difficult to meet up with the cash... you do know there's other means to pay right," he said... his hand trailing on my shoulder and I got irritated instantly. That cold feeling slipping in as I shook it off. Slapping his hand off as he looks at me... my eyes were red with disgust... how dare he!? "I'm done doing that s**t with you!...... I will pay you once I have the money," I said angrily as I shoved him aside... climbing up the stairs as I got hold of the door nob... my hands were shaking visibly. "I'm afraid you don't have much time... this is your final notice... the next time I will come here then it's byebye," his voice echoed through my ears as I heard his globbing footsteps retreating. I forcefully pulled the door open... as I walked in... I didn't know when a tear slipped down my eyes... flinging my purse as I sobbed uncontrollably. Everything came rushing back to me as I remembered my awful past. My weak limbs struggling to fight his grip over him but I couldn't. I sighed softly as I cleaned my tears... it's enough... I can't keep crying. Raising my head as my family portrait caught my eyes... we looked so happy and full of life but everything changed when they decided to suddenly disappear. "Never... never again," I mutters as I rested on the couch... all my emotions were a mess.