Three years later.
The sunlight filtered through the blinds of my small bedroom, casting golden bars across the skin I had once again surrendered to Ethan. We had just finished having s*x, the air heavy with the familiar, stifling scent of sandalwood and spent passion. I lay there, tracing the scars on his shoulder, listening to him whisper the same promises I had heard for a thousand days. The same words I kept falling for, like a fool who never learned that the sun only burns.
"Even though I love you, I can't just break up with her," Ethan murmured, his voice smooth and rehearsed. "You know how it is, Rachel. The politics, the families... you know that."
I let out a jagged sigh and sat up, pulling the sheet to my chest. The "runt" was gone, replaced by a woman who was tired of being a secret. "It’s been almost three years of this, Ethan. How much longer? You keep saying you love me. You keep saying I’m your mate."
"You are!" he said, his voice tightening with a sudden, sharp intensity. He sat up too, reaching out to rub my shoulders, his fingers digging into the muscle with a possessive grip. He began kissing the curve of my neck, his lips searing. "I can feel it. My wolf is drawn to you in a way I can’t explain. When you turn twenty-one in a few days, you’ll see. The bond will snap into place. You’ll be my mate, and I’ll make everyone—including Lydia—bow to you."
He found the sensitive spot on my neck, the one that always drove me crazy, regardless of how much resentment was boiling in my blood. I let out a low moan, my head falling back, but I fought the fog in my brain.
"Ethan," I whispered, my voice trembling. "If we aren't mates... if that bond doesn't happen on my birthday... I don't know if I can keep doing this. I can't be your shadow anymore."
He didn't pull away. He just whispered into my skin, his breath hot and chilling all at once. "Sure you can, Rachel. Alphas have mistresses all the time. It's an ancient tradition. You’ll always have a place by my side."
The word hit me like a physical blow. Mistress. Something snapped inside me—a spark of that dormant power I didn't yet understand. I lurched away from him, standing up and wrapping a robe around myself, my heart pounding with a new kind of fury.
"No, Ethan! You aren't listening!" I yelled, my voice cracking. "I am not going to be a 'mistress.' I am not going to watch you marry Lydia and have her children while I wait for you in the dark like a dog waiting for scraps!"
Ethan groaned, a sound of pure frustration, and flopped back onto the pillows. He looked up at the ceiling, radiating the arrogance of a man who knew he held all the cards. "I am listening, Rachel. I'm being realistic. I have a pack to lead. My father is stepping down because he’s sick, and the ceremony is in three days. I have to have stability."
"Stability? You mean Lydia," I spat.
"She’s the Beta’s daughter! The pack expects it!" He sat up again, his eyes flashing with Alpha dominance, trying to cow me into silence. "But I'm choosing you for my heart. Isn't that enough?"
"It’s never been enough!"
The silence that followed was suffocating. Ethan watched me for a long moment, his expression softening into that manipulative charm that had kept me trapped for three years. He reached for his jeans on the floor and pulled a small, velvet-covered box from the pocket.
"Look, I didn't come here to fight," he said softly. "I got you something. It’s an early birthday present. Since... well, since your birthday falls on the same day as the Alpha ceremony."
My heart did a painful somersault. My twenty-first birthday—the day my wolf was supposed to find her fated mate—was the same day he would officially take the mantle of Alpha and, likely, announce his permanent union with Lydia.
He held the box out to me, his gaze locked onto mine. "Open it, Rachel. Please."
I couldn't stay angry when he looked at me like that. I let out a soft huff, rolling my eyes as a reluctant smile tugged at the corners of my mouth. I took the small velvet box from his hand and popped the latch.
Inside, resting against the black silk, was a delicate gold bracelet. It featured a perfectly carved gold wolf, its head tilted as if howling at the moon, with two piercing, beautiful blue gems for the eyes. The way the moonlight from the window caught the stones made them look alive.
"It’s gorgeous," I whispered, trailing a finger over the cool metal.
"When I saw it, it reminded me of your wolf," Ethan said, leaning in close, his voice dropping to a husky murmur. "With your beautiful eyes." He paused, a mischievous glint entering his gaze as he let out a mock sigh. "Unfortunately, they didn't have one with beautiful breasts. I checked."
I burst out laughing, the tension finally breaking as I sat back down on the edge of the bed and slapped his arm playfully. "You’re impossible."
"But I'm right," he chuckled, catching my hand and pressing a kiss to my palm. "Happy birthday, Rachel."
"Thank you," I said softly, looking at the gift again. It was the kind of thing a man bought his mate, not a mistress. "Will I really not see you again before the ceremony?"
Ethan’s expression turned guarded for a split second. "My schedule is really tight with my father’s transition. I don’t know. But hey... who knows? Maybe our bond will hit in front of everyone at the ceremony. Then they’d have no choice but to bow when I accept you as my Luna."
I wanted to believe him so badly it hurt. "Yeah," I whispered, setting the bracelet carefully on the nightstand. My eyes caught the digital clock: 2:30 AM. "Wow, it’s already two-thirty."
"Is it?" Ethan stood up, stretching his well-muscled arms above his head. "You want to go for a run?"
I blinked, surprised. "Now? Aren't you worried someone will see us?"
"No," he said, a confident smirk on his face. "I know a spot nobody goes. Come on... my wolf wants to play with you." He wiggled his eyebrows and gave a low chuckle that sent a shiver down my spine.
I sat there for a second, weighing the risk. "I don't work tomorrow," I mused, looking up at him. "Are you sure?"
"I'm the future Alpha, Rachel. I'm sure." He reached down, pulling me up by my hands. "Come on."
I dressed quickly, my heart racing with the thrill of the secrecy. We snuck through the shadows of the pack house and the surrounding cabins for about ten minutes, moving like ghosts through the trees until we finally crossed the territory line.
"Are you sure we can be on this side?" I whispered, looking back at the invisible boundary.
"Yeah, this is unclaimed territory," he reassured me, interlacing his fingers with mine. "It’s neutral ground at the moment. Nobody patrols out here."
We walked hand in hand through the dense woods until the trees suddenly broke away, revealing a massive, hidden meadow. The grass was chest-high, a sea of silver-green waving in the breeze. It wasn't a full moon—that had passed a few days ago—but the waning light was still bright enough to turn the field into something out of a dream.
I gasped, my breath hitching in my throat. "Ethan, it’s beautiful."
He led me to the center of the tall grass, the blades whispering against our legs. Without a word, we began to shed our clothes. Three years ago, the shift was an agony that felt like my soul was cracking open. Now, it was just a numbing sensation, a familiar pressure I had learned to navigate with practice.
I usually hated shifting in front of others. I was tired of the whispers about the "runt" and the way people looked at my smaller frame with pity. But with Ethan, I didn't feel the need to hide. We shifted side by side.
Ethan’s wolf was magnificent. He was a massive, tan beast with streaks of blonde hair running through his coat like sunlight, towering over me and the grass. Even on all fours, I was completely submerged in the greenery; you couldn't even see me from a distance.
This was the first time our wolves had ever been truly alone together. In pack runs, I was always the one gasping in the back, left in the dust by the stronger hunters. But here, the hierarchy didn't matter. Ethan’s wolf circled mine, letting out a low, vibrating rumble and making playful nips at my ears.
My wolf, usually so shy, felt a surge of pure joy. She wanted to play. Knowing he would catch me anyway, I turned and bolted through the tall grass, the blades stinging my nose. Behind me, I heard a deep, resonant howl as Ethan gave chase.
He was fast—dangerously fast—but I could tell he was holding back, letting me stay ahead just long enough to feel the wind in my fur. It only lasted about five minutes before he pounced. He hit me from the side, his massive weight leveling me to the ground.
We rolled through the grass, a tangle of tan and brown fur, nipping and growling playfully until I finally gave up. I lay flat on my back, tongue lolling out as I panted with exhaustion. Ethan’s wolf didn't pull away. Instead, he walked over and wrapped his large body around mine in a protective, heavy embrace. He rested his large head over my neck, his scent flooding my senses.
In that moment, buried in the tall grass and hidden from the world, I truly believed it. Our humans might be complicated and messy, but our wolves... they were one. I lay there in his warmth, convinced that in a couple days, the universe would finally tell the rest of the pack what I already knew.
We were fated. We had to be.