I'm an Illuminati

it's getting dark, I'm unable to move. My legs are separated from me. my chest is full of blood. I can feel the pain. tears are coming without break. The sky is full of clouds formed by dust and smoke. The town is destroyed completely. I can hear the bombs exploding. No one is moving, probably dead.I can see her, she's dead. I'm still holding her hand. I don't want to leave her. I never had a chance to tell her how I feel... her eyes are still open,dark and shiny. her cheeks are full of blood. she's been cut into half. I couldn't save her... I couldn't... if only I had the power... to change everything... if only I had the chance to tell her... if only I can go back and tell her... my eyes are closing, I'm fading slowly... *wakes up from bed* hnm? where am I? is this a dream or really I'm home?!.I went to the window and saw everything is normal!