Addicted to the Worthless Wolf

Episode 4

Kain

Fighting a shift is extremely painful. “Siah, it’s OK. Stop fighting and let it happen. Let her out, please just let her out, the pain will stop." I said as I gently brushed her hair out of her face.

“I can’t stop the monster!” she screamed. I looked at my family confused. What kind of shifter is she?

Finally, I saw beautiful light grey fur sprouting from her arms and legs. I watched as her hands and feet turned into paws. Before I knew it, a beautiful light grey wolf stood before me. She had amazing icy blue eyes that I could get lost in for hours.

She started pacing the room and snarling at us. I stayed still on my knees watching her. She was scared and was acting almost feral. Feral wolves are dangerous and unpredictable.

She has to get control over her, but I have a feeling she’s never been taught how to. “SIAH!” I yelled in a dominant voice. “It’s OK, we’re all here for you.”

Shit, wrong thing to say. Her eyes locked on mine and she started growling. She prowled toward me. “We’re not going to hurt you, we’re her to help you. Your safe, I promise.” I sat there with my eyes locked on hers.

It was a show of dominance. I refused to even blink as she got up to my face. I could see her starting to calm as she breathed in my scent.

She started circling me and sniffing and I knew she recognized her mate. Once she was back in front of me and locked her eyes with mine again, I yelled “SHIFT BACK! We need to talk.” Her wolf finally gave her back control. I gave her my shirt and we all turned around to give her some privacy while she covered herself.

She looked petrified and started crying. Mom ran over to hug her. “Siah, hunny, we didn't know you were a wolf. Why was your scent blocked?” She was so scared she didn’t answer right away, she just looked at us like we were evil.

After she calmed down, she said, “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I turned into this monster once before, when I was sixteen. Since then, my father has given me this liquid medicine every Saturday morning that stopped it. When I left, I forgot all about it, and didn't even look for the medicine. Today is Sunday and I didn't have the liquid yesterday.”

“You’re wolf has been blocked for 3 years.” My father said.

Siah looked around at us and said “You guys don’t look surprised. How did you know how to get the wolf back inside of me, and why do you smell so good? She asked me

Gavin smirked and said “Oh, we have a lot to talk about.”

We went down to the kitchen and allowed Siah a few minutes to get dressed before discussing everything. “Has anyone talked to Damian?” I asked.

My father said, “I talked to him earlier today to let him know you guys made it here safely. He let me know that Roy is going ballistic but believes she’s still in NY. He has his goons out looking everywhere.”

I nodded, “good at least we know we have some time before he catches on.”

Siah finally came down the stairs. I was stunned when I saw that she still had my black tee shirt on with a pair of jeans. She looked embarrassed, but I think my shirt looks better on her. I stood against the counter while everyone else sat around the table.

My mother started the conversation, “Siah, what can you tell us about your parents?"

Siah looked up at me and bit her lower lip before answering.

“There’s not much to tell. My mom died when I was 10, and my dad, well I don't want to talk about him. I don't know anything personal about him.”

“Are they both wolves like you?” My father asked.

“I don’t think so, I didn't know anything about being a wolf until I was 16. One night, I just kept feeling this weird feeling in my head and something kept telling me it was time. Then I had this extreme pain and I turned into a wolf. My father said that I was disgusting and a freak of nature. If I didn’t hide it, people would experiment on me. He started giving me medication every week and that stopped it from happening."

“Where is your mom from?” I asked.

“I think she was from Texas. She used to tell me stories about growing up in a small town. I don’t know the name of it, but she talked about playing in the creek and in the woods. She said she grew up in a close community where kids could play freely and everyone took care of each other. I could tell she missed it. I used to dream that she would leave my dad and take us there. I think she wanted to but he was really mean to her and used to hit her a lot.”

“Did your mother ever go off on her own to get away from people?” Gavin asked.

“Not that I know of. We weren’t allowed to leave often and I was always with her. The only time she left without me that I can think of, is the day she died in a car accident.” Siah said.

I didn't want to press her too much. We can be an intimidating group, and I can tell she’s nervous.

“Has anyone ever talked to you about the life of a werewolf or what it means to be one.” I asked her as I tried to take the conversation away from her family.

She shook her head and said “No, just that I’m a disgrace, and shouldn’t have been born.” I could see the tears starting to form in her eyes and I knew that she'd had enough for today.

“Lucky for you, we are all werewolves and none of us are a disgrace. We have a pack of about 200 wolves in this territory and.”

“And I’m gonna teach you everything I can about being a wolf. Your first shifting lesson will be bright and early in the morning.” I interrupted my mother as I crossed the kitchen to get closer to Siah.

“Let’s get some rest tonight. You’ve got a big day tomorrow.” I said once I got right in front of her.

I knew my scent was just as comforting to her as hers was to me, and I wasn’t gonna let those tears fall if I could help it. Mom gave me a death stare for interrupting her. It was worth it to see the slight smirk Siah gave me as she got up and politely told everyone good night before heading to her room.

Siah

I know I need to get some sleep but I can’t turn my mind off. I knew my life was going to change once I got out of my father’s house, but this is almost too much.

I don’t know what to believe or who’s on my side. I thought the guy I met in NY was going to be there for me and in a way he was. He got me out without anything going wrong. I haven’t heard anything from him since. I’m very grateful for what he did for me and I haven’t been able to even thank him.

The family I’m staying with seems really nice and they haven’t given me a reason not to trust them. Especially Julie, she has been so welcoming to me and almost seemed excited that I was here. When I first got here, she tried to feed me so much I thought I was going to explode.

Joe and Gavin have also been great. Gavin is definitely the comedian and is always making jokes, but then there’s Kain. I would be lying if I said he didn't scare me. He’s been friendly to me, but his body language screams power.

I'm nervous about shifting with him, but he insisted he was the one that was going to teach me how to be a wolf. As intimidating as he is, I can tell people don't argue with him often.

When my wolf forced herself out, he was the one that calmed her. I have to trust him. He doesn’t say much, but he always stares at me so intensely that I feel like he’s staring straight through me to my soul. It gives me chills, and I feel like he’s the predator and I’m his prey.

I don’t know what is more scary about him, the size of him or the way he stares you down with his sole burning green eyes. His eyes are the craziest color. They are a deep green but also have a hint of yellow in them. There’s a danger behind them, but when the light hits them, they have a hypnotizing sparkle to them.

I thought I saw them start to glow back in the hotel room, when Gavin was telling me stories about their childhood and picking on Kain. I’m not sure what that was about. Is it a werewolf thing?

I still can’t believe that there are more people like me. I was always told that I was a disgrace and shouldn’t have even been born. It’s a damn good thing I never listened to my father or believed what he said.

It doesn't matter how many times he knocked me down, I would never let him completely shatter me. This is my chance to be free and start a new life where no one knows me or my past.

When I was little I used to dream about my Prince coming to take me away. Instead of a guy on a white horse, maybe my prince turned out to be a nice bald guy with a ladder, who disappeared.

With my life, it’s totally expected and just proves that I have to stay strong and take care of myself. I’m looking forward to learning how to shift into my wolf tomorrow, by choice. Even if Kain does make me nervous.

This family has been so good to me and seems like they want to help me. I’m going to do everything I can to learn how to truly live and not just exist.

My life is worth saving and I have a purpose for being here. I can feel it. Now that I know there are more people in this world like me, I might actually feel whole and complete some day. For now, I’ll take things one day at a time.

No matter what, I will survive.