Unpredictable

Episode ten.

Salma had returned home from her in laws residence. She was exhausted both physically and mentally. All she needs was sleep.

It was already late and from all indications, Muhammad didn’t come back home. The door was locked when she arrived so she had to use her key to open it.

She really wanted to sleep so she decided to do so. She couldn’t just wait for Muhammad to come back. What if he won’t come back. After all he has his problems and that the last person he would want to see is her. Since he also has a key then everything was good. She turned behind her and locked the door then she proceeded to go to her room. Sleeping was the best solution to her problems as long as she lives with Muhammad. She felt bad knowing that Kamila was sick so she made a mental note to visit her the next day.

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Muhammad came back home after midnight. When he saw the door locked,he thought salma was still out because he had dropped at his parent’s house to het her but they told him that she left.

He searched the house and he found her in her room sleeping comfortably. She looked peaceful and he envied her. If only it was Kamila whom he would come back to see every day, it would have been better. Her smile,her beautiful laughter,but all he gets to see everyday after work was Salma’s face.

Yaa Allah. He thought.

He remembered salma being an orphan it made think about how salma could live with nobody to stand for her.he felt bad for her then. If only Kamila’s condition made him feel that way then,what if she dies? Then he would feel worse. As for Salma,hers is worst. She had no parents. He really never imagined his parents death. But then just like his mother said,there are many orphans out there and he can be one also as long as everyone will die. His parents may die before him.

All he wanted to know at the moment was that Kamila was okay and then everything will be back to normal.

Kamila being in the hospital had changed his mood completely he felt the pain curse through him every second. He was afraid to loose her. Her condition was so bad to the extent that chemotherapy was of no use. He looked at salma against why would she be in peace while everything was going on.

Idiot you never told her. Do you even think she’s in peace? She lost her parents mister. A voice in his head spoke.

He felt like taking everything off his Shoulders. But then

Allah is the best of all planners. He thought. Whatever Allah planned for him was the best. He couldn’t change anything.

His stomach growled as he stared at Salma. He decided to go and grab something from the fridge before going to bed. Actually he didn’t eat anything since that morning. Everything was in a mess.

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Salma woke up very early the next morning,took her shower,get her self dressed and ate breakfast. She wanted to visit Kamila after her classes. As she was about to leave she remembered that she remembered that she didn’t know which hospital kamilaaa was admitted so she had to ask Muhammad even though she didn’t want to.

She headed to his room thinking of how he would treat her. She knew that it would definitely not be good but she has to try.

When she got to his room, she knocked on his door.

No answer.

She expected that though.

She pushed the door and it opened revealing Muhammad sitted by the window staring at the blank sky. He looked tired. There were bags under his eyes no doubt he didn’t sleep the previous night.

Assalamuaalaikum. She greeted

No answer.

Back with the cold treatment. She thought. She entered further into the room. It was unexpectedly neat.

As Salamualaikum. She greeted again.

He looked up to glare at her.

What are you doing in my room? He asked looking at her.

I thought that you would tell m…..

Tell you what? He asked his voice starting to rise.

Who gave you the right to enter my room. Oh! I get it. So you could steal my property when I’m not around? He said sending her death glares.

I’m so..sorry. I..I just wanted to know which hospital Kamila was admitted. I didn’t mean to steal anything. Salma replied with her voice shaking.

Ohh! He said still unsure of what to say.

Why do you want to know? He asked.

I had thought of visiting her at the hospital after my lectures. She replied.

Forget it. Muhammad hissed.

What? But why? Salma asked not able to figure out why he said that.

Because i said so. It’s none of your business. Muhammad shot.

What? If the Kamila I know is the Kamila we are talking about then it is of course my business. She is my friend, and islamically it is good to visit the sick. Why are you against me visiting her? Salma asked.

Are you preaching to me? He asked. Don’t you dare call her your friend. If you truly are her friend you wouldn’t have married me. Everything is your fault. He yelled.

Muhammad I had no choice. If I had I wouldn’t have even looked at you. She said.

Just leave. I don’t even want to see you at the moment. He said not looking at her.

But….

No buts Salma. Just leave my room. He shouted.

Muham… Salma started again but he cut her off quickly.

Salma you should know that you are a mistake in my life. You are a pest to me so just get out.

Salma’s shoulders slumped in defeat and tears started rolling down her beautiful face. She quietly left his room and headed outside. She was already late so the best thing for her is to leave immediately so she wouldn’t miss her lectures.

Muhammad had slammed the door behind her after she left. He was angry.

Yaa Allah,rid me off my problems. Salma prayed. There was no improvement in her life. It was just getting worse. It was good she would finish her studies soon so she could start working. At least then, her mind will be occupied.

Baba. She thought.

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Muhammad had been thinking about his heated conversation with salma. How she looked when she left his room. He kind of felt bad for what he did to her. But he couldn’t let her know his weakness. He also had Kamila on his mind at the same time. His brain was so worked up. He didn’t want to bother Abdulmalik Cause he was leaving for Paris that day with his wife. He wished it was him and Kamila. It would have been interesting.

He went out to grab something to eat from the fridge and he found food kept on the dining table. Salma kept his food most of the time on the table before she leaves even after he warned her never to cook for him. He would eat the food occasionally and at that moment he was so hungry. He sat down and dug into the food. He had to admit it was delicious. He has taken a leave from work the other day so he was at home.

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Hours later, salma returned home.

Assllamualaikum. She greeted. She didn’t wait for him to answer her,she headed to her room.

Salma. Muhammad called feeling guilty.

Yes. She answered turning.

He knew she wasn’t happy from the way she answered him.

Uhmmm…about visit Kamila. If you have nothing to do you can come with me. He said in a rush feeling awkward.

Oh! She replied surprised. Give me a sec. She said disappearing to her room. Minutes later, she came out with a bouquet of flowers. To say that Muhammad was shocked is an understatement.

What? Salma asked when she noticed him looking at her as if he has seen a ghost. Let’s go. She added.

Oooookay. Muhammad replied. They left with Muhammad staring at her as if she was a bomb.

Upon their arrival. Muhammad had led them to the room where Kamila was. She was very happy to see salma and of course her bouquet of flowers. Her condition was getting worse but she really appreciated it.

Even if i die now,i don’t have to worry because i have people who love me and will pray for me insha Allah. Kamila said after she has received the beautiful flowers.

Muhammad had noticed Kamila’s change in everything. There was no more Kamila’s smile. That was obvious because she always talks about her death. She was always preaching to him,telling him to be just to his wife.

She told him that she knew she won’t last long as she doesn’t want to. She wants to go to her permanent residence on earth which Is her grave. She had asked him to pray for her when she dies. That made him wince mentally. You won’t die insha Allah. He felt bad for her. If he was depressed about her condition then what about her? How does she feel? It’s definitely not good but that was how it was destined to be. They had to accept qadr.

When they arrived, they had met with Kamila’s mother and sister and they left them in charge of her. They needed to go and take care of something with the doctors. Kamila asked Muhammad to give them some space. She needed to talk to salma and he left without arguing. At least she had the chance to make him do what ever she wanted for the time being.