Unpredictable

Episode eleven.

Salma I know about Muhammad’s actions lately. It’s my fault,I’m sorry. Kamila apologized after Muhammad has left.

Oh my Allah! Kamila it is not your fault. You can’t help who you fall in love with right? Don’t blame yourself. Actually I’m the one who is supposed to apologize. I married him even though he didn’t love me. I’m sorry Kamila. I was forced to marry him. I couldn’t do anything.

Salma, I know I’m dying. Promise me you will take care of him as if you do love him. Kamila said as a tear rolled down her cheek.

Don’t say that. Salma said reaching for Kamila’s hand. You won’t die insha Allah just pray everything turns out good.

No I’m dying salma. Please promise me. Kamila said. Her voice was caught up in her throat. She could speak loud neither was she supposed to talk much.

Okay,I promise. Salma replied as tears started forming in her eyes. She could now understand how Muhammad felt.

Just then Muhammad entered the room. Sorry for interrupting but Kamila your mother is back.

Okay. You can come in we are done. Kamila replied.

Muhammad gestured mufeedah, her mother to enter and he followed her.

Muhammad was curious as to what they discussed. Most especially after seeing them with tears practically Clouding their Vision.

Kamila nodded at mufeedah who was sitting down next to salma before she called Muhammad.

Yes. He answered.

Promise me you will treat your wife justly. She said.

I promise. He replied with a sigh. She had been bugging him to do so and seeing her mother and salma present there, he gave in.

Salma was so shocked that her mouth dropped open.

What the jahannam is he thinking? She thought to her self.

You see I feel like I won’t last for another day. Kamila blurted.

Stop saying that. Her mother said fear clearly visible in her voice. You’ve been saying that since you were admitted here.

Mama,Muhammad and salma. Please forgive me for everything. I don’t want to die feeling guilty for what i did to anyone. Kamila said ignoring her mother’s response.

You won’t die insha Allah and what exactly did you do to anyone for you to feel guilty? Muhammad replied trying hard to himself. They all knew she was dying. They just couldn’t admit it.

Muhammad do you remember when you told me to imagine if i were on the 31st floor of a storey building and fire broke out what would i do? I said many things but you disapproved. You said if you were the one you would stop imagining. She smiled as she said the last sentence. Well take it as if you were really in that situation. What would you have done. You would have surrendered and die right? Well that is the situation i am right now. There is no way out. I have to die. Stop hoping for something you know will not happen and that is me living for long. She said letting all the imprisoned tears to fall.

A soft sob escaped Salma’s lips. If you were really in that situation then you could have been saved before the fire gets to where you are. That’s also applicable to your current condition. If Allah had planned that you that you won’t die now then you won’t. Don’t loose hope. Cancer is not death. How many cancer patients lived for long? Salma finished as Muhammad stared at her clearly dazzled by her words. He wondered What kind of a person she was.

Suddenly Kamila started coughing and everyone got alerted. The machine beside her started beeping. Muhammad rushed out to get a doctor and when they returned,the doctor dismissed everyone. Mufeedah was already sobbing. Before they left the room kamila called.

Muhammad i just wanted you to know that i really love you. She said as she coughed.

INNALILLAHI WA INNA ILAIHI RAJI’UN. Her mother shouted.

The doctor rushed them out of the room and other doctors came in to attend to Kamila. Muhammad was speechless. They all prayed that nothing happened before the doctor comes out.

Muhammad went directly to the doctor. I hope nothing happened doctor. He asked concern evident in his voice.

The doctor shook his head. I’m sorry to tell you this but we lost her. The doctor replied as he hanged his head low.

WHAT? Muhammad shouted. Mufeedah slumped to the ground as she cried. She lost her daughter. Salma was also sobbing. This couldn’t be happening.

She left me. She is gone. Muhammad thought as he sat on the chair behind him his head in his hands.

Ya Allah bestow upon her your rahma. He prayed as he sobbed quietly. It had finally happened. What he dreaded.

KAMILA JUST DIED.

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Kamila just died.

The only person Muhammad has ever loved was now no more.

The day passed by in a blur. The next day,after kamila’s Janazah. Muhammad retired home. He was in a bad condition. It was as if his heart was shot with a gun. His other half was gone. He was heartbroken, he was… no word would describe how he felt and looked. He looked like a typical zombie. (Just exaggerating though? But he looked terrible.

He was sitting in the living room reciting the Quran. It was the only thing he could do at the moment to cool his crying heart.

It was a Saturday so salma was also at home. She was at the kitchen cooking. She normally doesn’t cook food with Muhammad on weekends but considering the condition he is in, she decided to cook the food with him.

After she finished cooking,she set the food on the dining table and proceeded to call Muhammad.

Muhammad was fine with reciting the holy Quran and was currently lying on the couch probably thinking.

Salma cleared her throat to get his attention. Emmm,the food is done. It’s on the dining table if you wish to eat. She said as he looked up at her.

I thought i told you never to cook for me. I don’t need it. He replied grumbly.

I…i jus…just… salma stammered. She couldn’t find the right words to fit in.

Leave it there and go. Muhammad said as she was trying to figure out what to say to him.

Salma have been wanting to talk to him about kamila since the previous day but she couldn’t muster the courage to do so. She thought it was the right time to do it so she started.

Muhammad you have been bottling things inside of you for so long now. Let it all out. You will feel better. I know how it feels to looose someone so dear to to you but if you keep on holding it in you will be emotionally and physically affected.

Ohh,miss medical student. He said sarcasm dripping from his voice. I didn’t ask for your advice please did i? He asked. So do as i say. Go away please.

If you keep on pushing me away nothing will change. Muhammad you have to face reality. You can’t keep on for long this way. You have to move on. Salma said trying to muster more courage. She had to show him that she isn’t a dog who just follow orders. After all she doesn’t work for him that she would need to do just as he says.