Following my parents' steps(SQ:The good girl is changing me)

Chapter four - She needs to go away

Blake's POV:

Why she doesn't want to leave me alone? What I have done to her? This girl is impossible. I don't even know her name, but that is better. I don't know from where she understood mine, but I don't care. All I want is to make her go away. I can't stand her. She is so annoying. Why she can't understand that when I say go away, this means that she has to do it? There is something wrong with her. I don't know what, but she is not ok. This girl is creepy. Her brother too. He is asking too many questions. Luckily, he is in the other part of the school. Otherwise, I don't know how I would be able to stand both of them. I need to do something with this girl. I can't let her come to me every day. I don't even know what she wants. Except to know why I am treating her like that. It's not like I will tell her. This is not of her business. What is going on with me has nothing to do with her. She better leave or I will make her and it might hurt. Up to now, I tried to be nice and say it only in words, but if she continues to annoy me, I might do something. I won't let her win. If she doesn't go, then it's game on and I will be the winner. 

I woke up in bad mood. I don't even want to go to school anymore. It has passed only one day, but I am already tired. This girl took all my energy. I have no idea what to do with her. It feels like the more I tell her to go away, the more she comes. Maybe I have to ignore her. I hope that she will lose interest and give up. It's easy said than done. I don't think that she will give up. What did I do to deserve this? Honestly, I have the worst luck in the world. 

I got out of bed and went to get ready. I walked into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I am not in the mood to make myself look good. It's not like someone will care. I finished my job there and went to take some clothes. When I am not in a mood, which lately is almost every day, I wear dark clothes. I put on black jeans with a black t-shirt and a leather jacket. I am all black today. Even my sneakers are in black. Later, I went for breakfast. My parents were in the kitchen as well. I need to wake up before them or after they go to work. I took some food and sat at the table. I know that they will ask me questions, but I am not in the mood for any conversation with whoever it is. 

- How was your first day at school? Yesterday, you didn't tell us anything. - mom asked me

- It was fine. 

- It doesn't look like that. Otherwise, you weren't going to be all black today. If you know what I mean. 

- Won't you leave me alone?

- What happened? - dad asked

- This annoying girl is in the same school. Can't I just study from home? I promise to have good grades. 

- No, you can't. You will go to school like every normal student. - mom said

-Why do you hate me?

- We don't hate you, but only want to help. 

- Yeah, great help. Parents of the year. 

- I will take this as a compliment, no matter that it isn't. 

- Whatever. I don't care. 

After my breakfast, I walked to school. The annoying girl was by her locker. I walked by her without saying anything. Her presence is enough. I guess that she won't give up. The girl came to me, but I ignored her. Let's see what she will do. She can keep talking about how much she wants. I will continue ignoring her. 

- Hey, how are you?

No, I won't talk with you. Not today. Go somewhere else. 

- Hello. I am talking to you. 

I took my things and walked to class. Usually, I don't go early, but if that way I can stay away from her, I will do it. Sadly, she followed me and sat next to me. I got up and sat on another desk, but she came again. The sad part is that we are the only people in the room. There are fifteen minutes until the first class. Most of the students come in the last five minutes. No matter where I was sitting, she continued coming. I got up and went to the window. 

- You can't keep ignoring me. 

No answer. As I said, I won't talk with her. She can do whatever she wants. The winner will be only one and this will be me. She can try how many times she wants. 

- If you think that I will give up, you are wrong. I won't stop bothering you until you talk with me. If this is what you want, ok then, but you have to know that I can be very annoying. 

Like I don't know it already. I didn't say anything and continued watching through the window. Not like something was interesting outside. She kept staying next to me the whole time. No matter how many looks she will give me, this won't change anything. Soon the students started to come and I quickly took my things and sat next to one boy. At least I can have some peace from her. It might be for less than an hour, but it's better than nothing. 

After this class, I went to take my books for the next one and walked to the back of the school. Luckily, there weren't people there. Remind me to not speak so early. The annoying girl came after me. I took out my beer bottle and took a sip. I noticed that she gave me a look, but I ignored it. I was about to take another sip when she came closer and took the bottle from my hand. 

- Why did you do that? Give it back. 

- I will, but only if you talk with me. Otherwise, I will throw it away. 

- You can't do that. I paid for it. 

- I don't care. 

- Do it. I will buy another one. - I said and left

I walked to my next class and saw that there are people inside. I sat at the back next to one girl. She gave me a smirk, which soon faded when I gave her a look. 

On the lunch break, I walked to the gym. There are no classes or practice so no one is here. I took another beer bottle and opened it up. I always have two. Sometimes one is not enough. Soon I heard how the door opened. You have to be kidding me. How the hell did she find me? She came closer and sat next to me. I grabbed my things and was about to walk away, but she didn't let me. She grabbed my hand and made me look at her. 

- I won't talk with you. Can't we just sit here? Even if it's in silence. 

- Will you keep annoying me?

- No, I won't do it. 

- Ok, then. 

I sat back next to her and continued drinking my beer. I noticed that from time to time, she was giving me looks, but I ignored them. In the moment I was about to look at her, she turned her head and we made eye contact. I don't know why, but she looked worried. Did something happen? It's not like I care. She is just a girl. Maybe it's time to ask her why she is walking after me. 

- Who are you and why you are always walking after me?

- My name is Skyler and I just want to know why you are so cold with people. I understand if something has happened to you, but how other people are guilty of that?

- I just don't like to be around people and I hope that you will understand that and for once to leave me alone. 

- But I don't want to do it. 

- Why?

- Because I want to help you. 

- I already told you. I don't need help. 

- Your eyes tell me other. 

- Don't tell me that you believe in this.

- In what?

- That you can say if one person is ok by looking in their eyes. This is bullsh*t. 

- Actually, it's not.

- Yeah, keep fooling yourself. 

- I know that you are not bad, only hurt. 

- Why don't you go help someone else? I see that you really want it. 

- Because you need help the most. 

- I told you that I don't!

- Tell me whatever you want. I won't believe it. 

- Whatever. It's not like I care. 

Until the rest of the lunch break, we didn't talk to each other. Finally, I had some peace. Her presence was annoying, but this time it wasn't that much. I guess that she has learned her lesson. Later, both of us walked for our last couple of classes. I don't have plans for the day so I probably will spend it at home or at some quiet place. 

After my last class, I took what I need and walked out. I saw Skyler. She gave me a sad look. Soon one man appeared and walked to her. I guess that this is her dad. They look very close. I wish that I could be like that with my parents. The thing is that they don't want to accept who I am or at least this is what it looks like. I walked home, straight to my room. I plan to spend there the whole day. I don't have the energy to go outside again. Soon I heard a knock and saw that it was my mom. 

- Hey, I came to check how you are. 

- I am fine. You can go now. 

- Will you tell me what is going on?

- Nothing. I'm just not in the mood. 

- Don't you think that this happens too often?

- Why do you care?

- Because I am your mother. 

- Then why don't you like me?

- I have never said that. 

- If you liked me, you were never going to tell me to go find friends or to socialize. Are you embarrassed by me?

- Of course not. I just think that you will be happier with friends and that your mood will be better. 

- My mood is fine. I am too. 

- If you say so. I only want you to be happy. Nothing else. 

- And I am. I don't need fake friends. 

- Why do you still keep thinking about this? Honey, you have to let this go. You can't keep pushing people away just because one person hurt you. 

- It's not only that but it was the main problem. 

- I think that for some reason you don't want to forget it. Am I right?

- I just want to keep reminding myself how bad people can be. 

- Not all of them will be like him. What about this girl for you who you were talking about? Does she look like him?

- I don't know. All she wants is to know everything or mostly why I am so cold with her and everyone else. 

- See. She won't hurt you. This girl only wants to know why you are hurting her. 

- I am not hurting her. 

- Are you sure? Pushing someone away from you might hurt this person. Moreover, if you tell her what she wants to know, she might leave you alone. 

- I haven't thought of that. I can tell her something and she might leave. 

- Blake, you need to tell her the truth. Otherwise, she will understand that you have lied to her and she will get hurt.

- I thought that you are on my side. 

- And I am. 

- Then, you need to stop defending her. 

- I will do it when you stop hurting her. 

- Why do you care so much about her? You two have never met. 

- Because no one deserves to be treated so badly. Especially a girl. 

- I shouldn't be surprised. 

Mom and I talked for a while. I have to say that this time she wasn't that annoying. I don't know why she is defending Skyler so much, but I guess that she won't tell me the real reason. 

The rest of the day, I spent at home. Maybe I should tell Skyler the truth, but how can I be sure that she will leave me alone. Moreover, I don't want her to feel sorry for me. This is the last thing that I want. The other idea, which I got is somehow to find her parents and tell them to talk with her. I'm not sure that she will listen to them, but it's worth a try. The only problem is that I don't know has she told them about me. It's not like we are dating or something like that, but I know that fathers go in protective mode when there is a boy around their daughter and I don't want to be in trouble. Well, I will think about this tomorrow. Now, I am too tired for that.