Following my parents' steps(SQ:The good girl is changing me)

Chapter eleven - I trust you

Skyler's POV:

Finally, the things between Blake and me are normal. I hope that now he won't be so cold and actually we can become friends. I see that he needs that. Maybe I won't be what he expects, but I will try my best. I want him to trust me and feel comfortable around me. It will take time, but I can wait. After all, since something bad has happened, it won't be easy for him to forget it and move on. I only hope that he won't change his mind and cut me off. I wouldn't like that. Well, I will do everything possible to keep him close. I don't want to hurt him and I think that he is starting to realize that. Blake still hasn't told me what was that bad thing, but I don't want to pressure him. It's visible that it's hard for him to talk about this. There is time for everything. Moreover, all I wanted was to get closer to him and understand why he was cold with me. I know that it's because of what has happened, but I hope that this won't ruin our possible friendship. I don't know will he want that, but I am hoping for the best. I still want to help him, but he has to let me. I don't want to do something, which might end everything. I can't let this happen. It took me a lot of time until I convince him to trust me or at least a little bit. I know that there are a lot more things to do, but with time, everything will go in its place. 

I woke up with a smile on my face. I don't know is it because of Blake or there is another reason. I won't lie that I am happy for our make-up or whatever you call this. I haven't talked with him since that day. Three days passed from then. He told me that he needs some time for himself. I know that this is a lot for him and that's why I didn't complain. It might take him some time to trust me completely, but I hope that he manages to do it. No matter what happens, I will always be by his side. I still can't understand why I care so much, but I do. Maybe the story, which my parents have, will repeat. I hope not. I don't want to have that many problems. I mean that I don't like fighting. 

I got out of bed and went to get ready. When I walked out of the bathroom, I saw that dad was sitting on my bed. Usually, he knocks, but I guess not today. Maybe I haven't heard him from the noise of the sink. I smiled at him and went to choose my clothes for the day. 

- I see that you are in a good mood. 

- It's true. I really am. 

- Can I know why or maybe because of who?

- What do you mean?

- I think that someone has something to do with your good mood in the last couple of days and that it's a boy. Am I right? - he asked with a smirk

- Don't make me call mom and make her delete this smirk from your face.

- Your dear mother won't help you. Now tell me what happened.

- Well, I decided to listen to what you told me and talk with this person. 

- Skyler, we all know that it's a boy. You don't have to call him this person anymore. 

- Fine. I went to apologize for pressuring him and all the things, which I did to him. He said that the one who should apologize is he and that's it. Nothing interesting. 

- To understand that he is your friend now. 

- I'm not sure. It's kind of hard for him to trust people so we'll see how this will go. 

- I think that it will go in the right direction. 

- Why are you so sure? I mean, I would love to, but there is a chance that everything might end badly. 

- Because you are like your mom and he looks like me. The rest of the story I leave to you. 

- I don't want it to repeat. There were too many problems and fighting. Nothing personal. 

- Don't worry. I am not offended. I'm just saying that you will help him and make him trust you just like what your mom did to me. 

- Maybe. Look, I don't want to get late so if you excuse me. 

- You are not excused until I don't get a hug. 

- Fine, but this is your last one. 

- Why? Because he already reserved the rest.

- Dad! - I said and he laughed

- I love you. 

- But I don't. 

- Keep repeating this until you believe it. 

- Can't you be normal?

- If I was, you weren't going to be outside so often and around boys at all. Do you want that?

- You know what? I like that you are yourself. 

- I'm glad that we are on the same page. 

Both of us walked downstairs for breakfast. Mom and Mike were already there. Later, my brother and I walked to school. Sometimes I miss taking him from school, but I can't do it. I have more classes and he has to wait for me. Moreover, he is old enough to walk by himself. We went in our ways and I saw Blake near his locker. He gave me a look and smiled at him. I won't lie that I want to talk with him, but I don't know how much time he needs. I don't want him to think that I pressuring him again. 

I was putting my things in the locker when I saw a shadow. I turned around and saw that it was Blake. He doesn't need to know that this scared me. I mean it could be anyone and god knows with what intentions. Yes, we are in school, but this won't stop anyone. 

- I thought that you would come to me. 

- Yes, but you said that you need time. 

- I think that I got enough. 

- Are you sure? I don't mind waiting a little bit longer. 

- I think that I made you wait for me enough. 

- If you say so. 

- What will you do this afternoon?

- I don't know. Why? Do you have something in mind?

- I want us to go home. It doesn't matter yours or mine. I need to tell you something. 

- Ok, we can go home if you want. Probably only my parents will be there. 

- They work from home?

- Yes, they do. No schedule. They decide the hours to work. 

- That sounds good. 

- It is, but usually, they work a lot. From when we go to school, until dinnertime. 

- Aren't they tired?

- When you love your job, you'll never feel tired. 

Blake and I walked to our class. This time he sat with me. I have to admit that I like this. We are not a couple or even friends, but I like when he is around. I wonder what he wants to talk about with me. Soon we'll find out. I only hope that he didn't change his mind. 

On the lunch break, we walked together. I saw how people looked at me, but I ignored them. I guess that Blake has seen them too. He gave me a confused look, but I gave him my don't worry one. I learned to not care what people talk about me or at least to not show it. It's not a lie that this still hurts me, but now, not that much. After all, this is not the first time something like this happens to me. 

- Hey, are you ok?

- Yes, I'm fine. 

- For what were the looks?

- I always receive them. I think that now they are because we are together. I mean I don't have many friends or to say at all, but now I am with someone. If you hear some rumors, don't trust them. 

- Don't worry. I will trust only you. 

- What?

- Nothing. 

Did he just say that he trust me? I won't lie that this made me smile. Both of us sat down and started eating our lunch. I think that we are getting close. Well, I hope so, because I don't want to stay away from him. 

After school, both of us walked home. Mike was there too. Well, he said that after half an hour, he is going to play video games in one of his friend's houses. Nothing new if you ask me. I told Blake to wait for me in the living room while I leave my things in my room. I came back and saw my parents. Luckily, they were going into the kitchen. I don't want an interrogation. Moreover, I think that this only will make Blake feel uncomfortable. 

- Won't you present us with your new friend? - dad asked

- Later. He said that he has to tell me something, which means that we are making progress. 

- Give him some time. In the end, everything will be ok. 

- I know. I will go now. See you later. 

I walked into the living room and saw that he was worried. Did something happen, while I was gone? I sat next to him and made him look at me. I smiled at him and he returned it. 

- Are you ok?

- Yes, I am. You don't have to worry about me. 

- If you say so. 

- How I said, I want to talk with you. 

- Ok, I am listening to you. 

- So... eight years ago I met my best friend. He was the only person with who I was able to share everything. From playing video games to girls and much more. We spent five good years together. That ended when one girl came. 

He took a deep breath, wondering should he continue. I didn't say anything and left him to decide. It's visible that this is hard for him. I don't know what happened, but it wasn't something nice. I noticed that my parents were here as well, but I only gave them a quick look. Luckily, they understood what I meant. 

- Before you think it, she was nice. Well, that's what she made us think. It was visible that she didn't like me. I told my best friend this, but he didn't believe me. I know that he liked her and there was no point to argue about that. Everything was fine until she made him choose. I think that she was jealous that we spent so much time together. I never understood the real reason, but what she did was cruel. At least for me. She made my best friend choose between her and me. I don't know why she had to do this, but after all, he did it. He chose her instead of me. I tried to talk with him, but nothing. She was more important than me, no matter that they knew each other only for two months. I guess that the five years, which we spent together, meant nothing to him. Anyways, I didn't argue with him, but I knew that this was the end of our friendship. After that, I started pushing people away from me. I lost trust in them and started hating girls. They had nothing to do with my problem, but for me they were evil. I'm sorry that I was so cold with you, but I hope that now you understand why I did it. I don't want you to forgive me, but at least try to see things from my point of view. As you can see, I trusted you enough to tell you this. Well, you are the first person to who I tell this. I was scared that if I trust you, the same thing will repeat and you will leave. I'm sorry. 

I already had tears in my eyes but tried to make them go away. I can't believe that someone can do something so cruel and it was no one else than your best friend. This explains everything. Why he is so heartless and why he was always alone. He gave me a look, but I couldn't say anything. I was feeling awful. I know that it's not my fault, but I felt bad for him. This shouldn't happen to anyone. Blake pulled me for a hug and I felt how I broke down in his arms. This is the third time when it's happening. I don't like to cry in front of people, but this time I couldn't help myself. We pulled apart and he wiped my tears. 

- It's not your fault. Back then, you didn't even know that I exist. 

- I know, but I feel bad. You didn't deserve this. 

- Neither you. Not after the way, I treated you. 

- That's not true. You deserve to have friends and people around you. 

- Well, I still have my parents. - he chuckled

- That's not what I meant. 

- I know, I know. Now, I think that I finally can answer your question. 

- Which question?

- Do I trust you and the answer is yes. I do. 

With that, I looked at him and saw a smile on his face. I quickly wrapped my hands around his neck and pulled him for a hug. He has no idea how happy I am now. I felt another smile on his face and the fact that I caused it made me smile even more. When we pulled away, I called my parents, and finally, they had their chance to meet my new friend.

The rest of the day, I spent with Blake. My parents invited him for dinner and luckily, he accepted. My brother liked him as well. Both of them played a couple of video games together. I didn't know that Blake was that good. Even Mike was surprised. Then I remembered that he used to play with his best friend. I didn't like his story at all, but I am happy that he let me help him. I know that it will take time for him to heal completely, but I will be with him. The fact that this has happened made me realize how cruel people can be. I don't know what this girl did, but I am sure that it wasn't good. No person will throw five years away just like that. I won't leave Blake alone. He doesn't deserve this. No matter what has happened, this is in the past. Now, he should focus on his future and I hope that I will be part of it.