Blue Dream

Greatest bond

REN ;

I sat on the bed, drinking the last drop of vodka in the bottle. I couldn’t control it, “Ren, you’re going to poison us both!” Sam growls at me, and? We ruined everything we worked our asses for in a blink of an eye, Sam! I was angry. At myself, at Ava but mostly at myself. I went overboard thinking she really wasn’t hurt because of the whole Coronation drama.. I ruined her night and she was expecting it to be perfect. I’m such a f*****g i***t, I throw the empty glass bottle against the door and it shatters, “f**k,” I frown, dropping to my knees, “this f*****g hurts…if this is half of what my mom went through when my father died… I was now understanding why she vanished from my life and the pack’s life. It was too much.

Everything reminded me of Ava. Her scent didn’t linger anymore though, it was old and over powered by the smell of vodka. I was disappointed in myself more then. I ruined the last bit of scent, that beautiful woman ever had. The smell of Lavender with a touch of rain and honey. It was more than intoxicating. It was damned better than being drunk off Vodka. That was for sure.

“Ren,” the door opens. Issac comes in, “the pack is worried about you, man. Matthew and I are both worried. It’s been six f*****g days and you haven’t made a single thing but drink,” he argues, “get out, Issac,” I growl and he closes the door, “damnit,” I hear him say and stomp off. I sit back on the bed, sighing, I was letting the pack down.

This pain I felt, was letting me bring the pack down with me. With these rogues around, I was making us vulnerable. Too vulnerable. I had to get it together, quickly. The view of Ava brought me back down, “f**k, f**k,” I rub my face and the tears that have been held back for six days, finally came through and I let them go.

I covered myself, crying, “Ava, please… come back,” I whisper, laying back and pulls the blanket over my face. I wanted quiet and sleep.

Finally deciding to shower, I changed into new clothes. I shaved the damned beard I started to grow and washes my face. My head was pounding due to the vodka drink I was on. It was one in the afternoon, I was having a meeting. I stop, my body freezing.

Lavender with a touch of honey and rain, the scent came to my nose. “Mate! Mate! Mate is here! We can’t ruin it this time!” Sam says.

The door opens and I turn the bathroom light on, “Ren?” That voice that pinged my thoughts and emotions. That angelic voice, “Ava,” our eyes lock. That angelic face. “Can we talk now?” She asks and I nod, “y-yeah,” I clear my throat. “Somewhere that it doesn’t reek of Vodka, please,” she says.

I try to hold her hand but held myself back as I open the door and we walk out, walking down. “Ava,” I hear Matthew, but he stops noticing the aura of the area. I stop. Right in front of it. The door to my old room, before Ava. “How have you been?” She asks me. You know exactly how I have been… why are you asking me? I knew why. She wanted me to be honest so she can trust me, “I’ve been s**t, not going to lie,” I finally say after a few seconds of silence.

“How bad?”

“How bad what?”

“Ren…” I frown, “look around, Ava. Then tell me if that doesn’t answer it for you. I’ve been a f*****g drunk,” I sit on the bed, rubbing my face. “Instead of trying to wait or kept trying to take this mind-link wall down,” I got up, “no Ava, you don’t have a right to say that. That’s what I was doing for four days straight.. Sam had to help me try breaking that f*****g barrier that pisses me off.”

“Really?”

“Yes, Ava. Jesus, it’s like you’re just trying to-“ I stop myself, “Ren… are you drunk?” She asks, “no, Ava. Not right now, I have a throbbing f*****g headache that’s making me want to sleep,” I shrug, “Ren… I had some thinking, actually,” I was hoping she wasn’t going to reject me.. break the bond, that would really drive me over the edge, “I was wrong of hugging another Alpha the way I did in your presence. I shouldn’t have made that joke when you were right, I haven’t been an Alpha like that to understand what you felt when their presence over powered your own on your own territory. I should have just accepted it and not felt the pain I felt because I had no reason to. You did have a reason to be mad, it was like it was suffocating you, wasn’t it?” She walks in front of me and I gulp down, nodding and looks down, “their presence was choking me, Ava. Nobody felt it like I did, their presence wasn’t letting me think straight or even Sam, because it was like.. I don’t know.. just-” she stops me, “like they were challenging you about your pack?” She asks and I nod, “yeah, I felt as if something were wrong. I would fail as an Alpha in their presence. I felt low compared to them, I don’t know why.. I guess it’s just an Alpha thing,” I shrug.

“Ren,” she got on her knees and I lock my eyes with hers, “you’re the Alpha of one of the most powerful and strongest packs in these whole seven states, everyone drops at the sight of you, because of your power. You’re powerful enough, strong enough to bring anyone down. They aren’t even human wolves, Ren. It is obvious they will be more powerful, because they’re from hell…not from earth? If we break the laws of physics because we can shift into an animal, imagine them? They shatter those laws in Mili-seconds. But you’re powerful, strong and the best Alpha I have met,” her words etched themselves.

“You would surpass them if they were from here,” she was reassuring me my Alpha was more powerful. I needed to hear that, “I’m sorry. For ruining your coronation, for being so mad instead of waiting and talking to you. I wasn’t thinking right and I think it was because of their presence. My mind was scattering everywhere, they were like draining me,” I whisper to her.

“To me and everyone else, you’re powerful enough to take these rogues on, you’re the Alpha everyone knows, respects and loves,” she reassured me.

“Ava, I messed up. I know badly, I won’t push it past you if you want to reject me,” I whisper to her, looking into her eyes for her reaction, “I’m sorry that you would think that low of me to do,” she gets up and starts walking away, Ren, you dumbass! Sam growls in my head and it makes my head throb more. I get up and close the door again before she can open it all the way, “I’m sorry. Ava, please. I’m sorry, I just-I feel and felt so f*****g hopeless throughout these days, I’ve been nothing but thinking of negative f*****g thoughts, I’ve diminished my own f*****g wall of strength,” I fall to my knees in front of her, the tears were coming out my own eyes.

“I’m sorry, I don’t know what else to do, but I love you, Ava,” I look up at her. “These past ten months have been the best ever. I’ve never thought I would find my happiness and you showed up and f*****g switched my whole train around it’s track with curves and turns, instead of a straight path. You’ve brought adventure into my life. You’ve made me the happiest man in my whole twenty-eight years of living,” I whisper to her. “I love you, Ava. I’m in love with you,” I admit truthfully. “I’m in love with you too,” she sniffles and cups my face kissing me. I wrap my arms around her instantly and kiss her back, picking her up.

That kiss finally gave me the reassurance I needed. I lay on the bed with her straddling me as I deepen the kiss, cupping her face as she leans down to grip my hair, sucking on my tongue. I’m getting turned on right now, f**k, I tried to suppress that moan as I slide my tongue into her mouth, hitting it with her own tongue. Quickly she starts undressing me and I stop her, “Ava,” I catch my breath, looking at her, “what?” She asks and I hold her hand, “trust me, it’s not that I don’t want to have s*x with you. I want to hold too, though. I want to keep taking in your scent and just stare at you, my other half. The love of my life,” I whisper, shaking my head. She smiles and kisses my lips again, lying on my and pulls the blankets over us, “deal, see.. you’re the strongest Alpha I know,” she pecks my lips, giggling. I held her to me as she slept, her head on my chest. Her arm next to it as I felt her breathing slow and steady. She nuzzles more against me as I smile, running my hand up and down her arm slowly, kissing the top of her head.

“Next time, I won’t let you leave. I’m not going to push you away.”

I woke up and she was still sleeping next to me, her arms over my chest and her face on my neck. I smile, getting us more comfortable and stare at her. The sun on her skin was magnificent. No flaws on this perfect skin, no imperfections on this perfect she-wolf. My life was complete and she literally filled that other half my parents left me empty with. That’s all I know I needed.

Ava, my mate and future mother of my kids and my pack. Nobody or nothing else.