When love was a language

I started running again, but this time he caught up with me. I screamed, I screamed so hard, I screamed but no one heard me. Not again, not again. I started crying, crying so much than I did before. "Leave me alone, stop" I screamed. But he didn't listen, he pounced on me like a prey. I struggled, fought, bit him, screamed, pushed him away, but he was very strong. I screamed my lungs out but I couldn't even hear my own voice. He tore my clothes with his bare hands. I cried, crying was an option right? I was too little to move, to frail to make any decisions on my own other than to cry. This was someone I took as a father, will a father do this to his child. I screamed again, this time so loud that it came into reality. My mother ran into my room as she heard me scream and i woke up. "Shhh baby its okay, it's just a dream, it's just a dream, it'll never happen again" she whispered near my ear. A wave of sob broke into my body and i began to cry. "Please make it stop mom, I'm tired" I cried into her chest. She didn't say anything , she just held me tight and whispered soothing words in my ears. She couldn't make it stop, no one could make it stop, not even the therapist , not even the numerous spiritualist we've been to. I was the only person that that could stop it, but I didn't know how to, I couldn't make it stop. And if I don't, I'll be trapped with this torture for the rest of my life. She stroked my hair and sang me a lullaby till I fell asleep. ?????????? By the time I woke up, it was already morning and sothing rays of sunlight lit up my room. I rolled out of my bed throwing the covers away and from my body and getting out of bed. I slid off my nightie and got into the bathroom and took a shower and brushed my teeth. I stared at the mirror in front of me, looking at my reflection. I was beautiful on the outside, I had green eyes, brown hair and perfect body type. But in the inside, I was a broken vessel, destroyed and tarnished and afraid to be destroyed further. My fears, my nightmares , my past....those were my insecurities, and those where the things that brought the worse in me. I got out of the bathroom and found something comfortable to wear and headed out of my room. The. aromatic smell of freshly made pancakes hit me. I inhaled deeply already savouring the taste with only my nose. I got into the kitchen and met my mom , I walked to the table and went straight for the pancakes. "Good morning Mom" I said enjoying the taste of her home made delicacy. "Good morning sunshine" she said as I ate my food with joy. It was rare for my mom to cook , because usually she was always working. "Aren't you going to work today?" I asked. "Oh no , I'm on a break, besides, I want to go shopping for you for your birthday", she said. "Oh c'mon mom, you don't have to do that, my birthday isn't till next week, we could save the money for something more useful" I said. "Well currently, you're the only thing useful to me right now, so I insist", she said and I smiled. And just to ruin the happy moment was the school bus honking in the front of my house. I quickly grabbed a paper bag and threw the pancakes into it and ran outside telling my mother that I loved her and goodbye. And lucky for me, I didn't miss the bus, unlike other days, I would have to walk all the way to school and would end up looking like a construction worker. "Baby girlll" I heard my bestfriend Anna scream from the back seat. "I saved you a seat" she added. '' I got you pancakes" I said sitting down beside her. she moaned as she bit into the food. "Your mom is so good at this" she said again enjoying the taste of the food. "So, what's new" I asked her. Apparently, she was a blogger and she knew everyone's dirty secret both inside and outside the school and the best part was, all her news were legit. "Amber hosted a party on Saturday and Stacey got drunk and took off her bikini and started dancing naked in the pool" she announced wiping her hands with a pocket tissue. I gasped. "No fucken way" I said. "I swear to God b***h, I even got the video before it got deleted" she said and started searching through her phone. Then she found the video and showed it to me. I covered my mouth shocked as I watched Stacey twerking without any bra on in a pool. "f**k her parents are going to kill her" I said shocked. "You don't even know b***h, heard her mother wanted to sue Amber's parents for allowing host a party like that" she said. "The hell?? it's not his fault that their daughter can't handle alcohol" I said. "Stacey is so dead, I don't even think they'll let her come back to this school, because if she does, dayuum, she's dead meat" Anna said. "I know right" I said. " I read some comments, guys were like, I use to pay Stacey to see her titties pics, now I got to see it for free, thanks Amber" Anna said and we both laughed. Finally, the bus reached school and we got out of the bus. Anna went to grab a cup of coffee from this lady that sells coffee in Front of the school while I waited for her to finish up standing near the driveway. Almost immediately, I heard people screaming towards my direction and as soon as I turned around, I saw a car heading towards my direction. I quickly jumped out of the way just before it could hit me. I stared at the car, it was a Black BMW and i immediately knew who owned it. Then, five people came out of the car. It was them, the most popular set of people in school. Carl Lawrence, Jake Rowley, Lucy Armstrong, Kira Newman and Amber Maxwell. It use to be six but..I can't see Stacey anywhere... she must have actually Left the school. "Okay no one should ever let Kira drive, ever!!" Jake said. "f**k you almost killed us all" Lucy said. "And that girl" Amber said walking slowly over to me. This was Amber Maxwell, Gregory Highschool's Greek god. No wait...it was Jake that was the Greek god, he was the Greek prince. "You okay?" he asked me revealing his sexy British accent. "Yeah, just uhh..still shocked that's all" I said. "Sorry about that, she's just in a bad mood" he said. Yeah right, like sorry would have brought me back to life if I had died or something. I nodded. "Bad mood? oh my f**k , you call this bad mood Amber? I'm in a terrible mood, like how the f**k would her parents just take to another country like that? in less than 72 hours, is that fair?? She's been my bestfriend for the past 10 years for f**k sake" she yelled already creating a scene. "Just calm down Kira" Carl said. "Just leave me alone, I'm going to class" she said angrily and sashayed away with her tight leather skirt barely covering anything on her legs. That was Kira Newman, she was the princess of the school...no like literally the princess, her dad owned the school . She was the captain of the cheerleading squad, as expected and was Stacey's bestfriend. She and Stacey did everything together, they were always with each other every day and night,sad that she was gone. The rest of her squad followed her behind. Anna walked up to me. "Did I just see you talking to Greek gods and goddesses?" she asked excited. "Yeah, greek goddess that almost killed me to use me to redeem her life and live longer" I said sarcastically. "Forget Kira, I'm talking about Amber, why didn't you get him to invite you to a party or something??" she asked. I gave her a " are you crazy?" look. "He just asked me if I was okay" I said. "You should have told him no that you weren't and that you need a party invitation, and then you go" she said grinning. I rolled my eyes and started walking inside school. "You're a crazy person Anna" I said. "You love me that way" she said and giggled. ??????? Today, the whole school was talking about Stacey's video, although it had been deleted from social media websites, people still had it on their phones. Kira snapped in the middle of school and said she didn't want to hear anything about Stacey and the video, ever again. Her humble, stupid loyal followers obeyed and even started pleading for mercy,but as for people like Anna and I who didn't give a s**t about her, we didn't even Care. Just to the end of school, Anna ran to me. "I just got us two fucken invites to Amber's party on Saturday" she shrieked happily. I wasn't so excited. "How?" I asked because I knew to get to Amber's invite list, you'll need to be like... extremely socially popular... like i********: famous and all that. Someone like me didn't even stand a chance, I could see the possibility for Anna because she was a blogger and all, but me, never!!. "Someone told Carl I'm a blogger and all, so he said I should come over and take some pictures of him and all that to boost his popularity and all that" she said happily. "So how do I come into this?" I asked very much uninterested. "I told him I had a friend and that her birthday was on Saturday and he said you could tag along too" she said. "What?!" I shrieked. "C'mon, don't you wanna enjoy your last birthday in highschool, we may never get invited again, just go have fun there" she said. I sighed. I am not the party kinda person "I'll think about it" I said She squeaked like a kid . I rolled my eyes.