My ink

beep... beep... The alarm broke the soothing music that nature was playing, I turned it off and looked at the bench that was exactly opposite to my bench. The alarm was a reminder for me, it was her time to visit the park and feed the ducks. The ducks were not the only ones who were waiting for her, I was also the eager one to have a glimpse of that beauty. I saw her when I first visited this park, I just moved into this neighbourhood 6 weeks back and this park was the first place I visited. I was just here for a walk but my footsteps lead me to this pond which was in the middle of the park. The pond was surrounded by trees and benches. The pond was round in shape and was home to ducks and fish. I saw her and my world was filled with flowers of love that bloomed with her eye contact. Since then I became a regular here, my phone had a reminder of her arrival, exactly at six in the evening she would come here, feed the ducks, talks with them and I would be the admirer from far. Her eyes were like a book that I wanted to read and a wish that I am a part of that book. I was facing major writer's block when I moved here, it's like the pen I was using went dry and the ink of that pen was lost, I couldn't find the pen's ink anywhere but everything changed. As soon as I saw her I found my ink and the words filled the book. Her smile will encourage me to give my characters a happy day. Sometimes she would sit there and complain to the ducks, getting angry while scratching her nose with her delicate fingers, those were the days when my characters were also complaining and the chapter would finish with a bad cliffhanger. Sometimes she would cry while feeding the ducks and so will my characters. I wanted to go sit near her but I could never build the courage to do so, what will I say. I am like an awkward goofball and she is a pretty butterfly. I always wanted to wipe her tears but I am a person who has many words to write but when it comes to speaking them I run like a scared squirrel. Today also she came exactly at six, but something was different, she looks devastated, her hair was dishevelled, her eyes were puffy and I felt like she was shaking with fear and pain. I couldn't stop myself, I just went on her side of the pond and with every step closer, my heart was beating faster, I wanted to take her pain away. Her face should be smiling and glowing, not dull like a withering flower, no I won't let that happen. I reached near her and after taking a deep breath I asked her "May I sit here?" She looked at me, I was pinching my thigh while biting my lips, it was my nervous tik. I hope she says yes. She nodded and there was a spark of surprise in her dull eyes. I sat near her and asked the question that was more important than any other question. "What happened, why are you sad?" Well, sad was not the right word, devastated is the right word, she looks like she is on the verge of giving up. "No introduction, straight to the point, I like it," she said while giving me her dull smile. "Introduction can wait, you smiling with your eyes is more important to me," I said without thinking, she blushed and that was the cutest thing I have ever seen, I just want to hug her and hide her from this crazy world. "It took you six weeks just to cross this small pond, if I didn't look like this would you have ever crossed the pond?" I got tongue-tied, I didn't know what to say, I looked at the floating ducks and said "I might have, you are so beautiful, all my courage flies away making me a statue when I look at you. Maybe I would have when I felt more confident." She giggled at my words and even her ears turn red. "Now will you please answer me, what happened?" I said while looking at her, her eyes filled with tears, she was not looking at me but the floating ducks. I just wanted to hug her. "If I tell you, will you be able to help me?" she asked and her lips quivered, I couldn't help myself, even though we never talked, we even don't know each other's names, but still I couldn't stop myself. I just engulfed her in my arms and caressed her back. I was right she was trembling, she clutched my shirt from the front and sobbed hard. My eyes also started to flow with tears. "Everything will be ok, I am here."