Chapter 1: 📖The list that changed everything
The rain had stopped just long enough for the sky to look like it was still deciding whether to cry again.
Cassie sat cross-legged on the floor in her grandmother's old room, surrounded by silence that felt too heavy for a place filled with so many memories✨.
Everything still smelled faintly of lavender and old paper, the scent of her grandmother's old perfume still in the air.
She hadn't come in here since the funeral. She consoled herself with the fact that she was "busy with school" or "not ready yet" but the truth was simpler. No one is ever ready for this sort of thing. She wasn't ready to feel anything.
Not grief 😭.
Not memories.
Not the strange emptiness that followed her everywhere since Grandma Nora had been gone.
But today... something had pulled her here. She didn't even know what she was looking for at first🥺.
Maybe closure.
Maybe distraction.
Maybe nothing at all.
Her fingers brushed against the bottom drawer of the wooden desk- the one her grandmother always warned her never to mess with- when she was alive. She hesitated at first.
A small voice in her head whispered: Don't.
But another voice- quieter, heavier- answered: She's not here to stop you anymore. That brought tears springing out of her eyes.
The drawer creaked open as she turned the knob and pulled it towards herself.
Inside, there were old notebooks, faded photographs, writing paper... and a sealed envelope tucked beneath everything like it had been waiting🙏.
Her breath caught.
The handwriting on the front made her freeze instantly.
FOR CASSIE
Her name.
Written in her grandmother's handwriting.
For a moment, she forgot how to breathe properly and she could feel her tears threatening to spill out.
Her hands shook as she picked it up, like the paper itself carried weight.
Cassie swallowed hard.
"This... can't be real", she whispered.
But it was.
She opened it slowly.
Inside was a folded sheet of paper along with a gold locket.
Opening the locket, her breath seized and her tears started to fall properly. Inside the locket, where two photographs. The first one was that of her whole family at her last birthday and the second one was of both her and her grandmother. In this one, she had chocolate icing all over her mouth and chubby hands while her grandmother was smiling at her lovingly while holding her. She was about 6 years old then.
Dropping the locket, she fingered the sheet of paper.
Titled in a soft, familiar handwriting:
MY BUCKET LIST- IF I EVER GET THE CHANCE AGAIN 💫
Cassie blinked.
Once.
Twice.
Then she sat down fully on the floor because her legs didn't feel stable enough to support her weight anymore.
"This is.... Grandma's?", she asked herself in a soft voice.
Her eyes scanned the first line.
Then the second.
Then she stopped breathing completely.
Because this wasn't just a list.
It was a life.
A life her grandmother never finished living.
A life she never told anyone about not even her family.
A life that now... somehow... belonged to her.
Her throat tightened painfully.
"No...no, no, no", she whispered over and over again as if trying to convince herself while clutching the paper tightly like it might disappear if she didn't.
But the words stayed.
Real.
Permanent.
And then she saw it.
At the bottom of the page, a final handwritten note:
" If you're reading this, Cassie... it means I ran out of time. But I am trusting you with something very important- don't let my wishes die with me. I want you to always remember something, sweetheart: No matter what happens, I will always love you, my favorite granddaughter. I love you, baby girl. Take care. I am watching over you💕💕.
Cassie's eyes burned instantly as hot tears slid down her cheeks. She pressed her hand over her mouth, trying to stop the sound building in her chest.
But it broke anyway.
A quiet broken breath.
Then another.
And suddenly, she wasn't reading anymore, instead she was grieving all over again.
Only this time, it hurts differently.
Because this time, her grandmother was speaking to her.
Still reaching for her.
Still trusting her.
Behind her, the floor creaked.
Cassie quickly wiped her face and turned.
"Jason", she called out in a soft whisper
Jason stood in the doorway. He took one look at her face and immediately walked towards her. As soon as he was close enough to reach out for her, he pulled her into his arms just as she broke down in tears. He held her for a while as she cried her eyes out. He drew circles on her back with his fingers and kept whispering sweet nothings in her ear in a bid to comfort her. After sometime, she calmed down and he let her go. He stepped away from her a little with a concerned look in his eyes. He watched her every move and his eyes soon found the paper she was holding.
"What's that?", he asked softly
Cassie hesitated.
Then, in a voice barely steady enough to hold itself together, she said "It's a bucket list".
Jason frowned slightly, confusion etched on his face. "A what?".
Cassie looked back down at the page.
At all the unfinished dreams. At all the places her grandmother never got to go. At all the life that was suddenly...her's to continue.
And something inside her shifted.
Not loudly.
Not dramatically.
But permanently.
"She left it for me", she whispered.
Jason stepped closer now, his tone gentler. "Cassie..who did?"
Her eyes still wet, but there was something else there now.
Something new.
Something determined.
"My grandmother", she said.
There was a pause before she spoke again.
"And I think...I'm supposed to finish it".
The room went quiet again.
But this time, it didn't feel empty.
It felt like the beginning of something.
Jason stared at her for a long moment before asking "You sure about this?".
It took sometime before she replied.
"I'm sure. I mean this is my grandmother's. Her unfinished dreams, her unfulfilled wishes, a life she never got to live. It's like a legacy she left behind... for me. I mean, I never did something substantial for her when she was here. She loved me and she was always there for me when I needed her. I mean, I love her too but still it's different, she did a whole lot of things for me. If doing this will be the only thing I can do for her in her death, I sure won't hesitate to do it".
He nodded his head and quietly replied "Then I'm doing this with you".
Cassie blinked. "What?"
He shrugged slightly like it was obvious.
"You think I'm letting you run around chasing mystery wishes alone😏? That's definitely not happening".
A small shaky laugh escaped Cassie - the first one in a long time that didn't feel forced.
And for the first time since the funeral...
She didn't feel completely alone🥰.