Never Ending Lies

CRASH AND BURN

(LISA)

What is going on with me?

What had happened in the mall?

It was like in an instance parade of feelings; there were surges of mixed emotions as I felt envy, angry and inferior when I saw Loren talking to Jennie so causally, who the hell did he think he was to just approach her like that? This feeling inside me; it's like a tidal wave that's building up and up before crash!!

Was I Jealous?

No, No way was I jealous. What was there to be jealous of? Loren had no shot with Jennie and the evident was in her expression if not her words as she kept trying to tell him to leave before I intervened.

Although, what would have happened if I didn't? What if I went with my first instant when I saw the whole thing go down and just left. Would Jennie have given into Loren's badgering bothersome way?

No, Catalina still would have declined. Wouldn't she? Loren isn't even Jennie's type; even though opposites do attract.

There was nothing there though! It was clear she doesn't even like him as a person let alone as a possible 'thing'.

PlusI saw the way she looked at me; how her eyes lit up and the blush on her cheeks as she was checking me out. Granted I feel a bit better for the outfit choice of the day as it did give me a sort of 'daddy' look which clearly turned Jennie on, I would have to make note of it for future encounters.

Also I saw the sadness and jealously in her eyes when the word 'girlfriend' escaped past my lips when I wrapped my arm around Jennie's friend Rosé instead of her. Admittedly it felt wrong to call another girl that as part of me knew who I wanted to give that title too.

Maybe that's the way to win this bet!

Jennie isn't the kind of girl to just voluntarily be another hit it and quit it type, no. If she was then there wouldn't be this cat and mouse game. If so I would have been between her tone thighs the day I walked in on her pleasuring herself or the other night when she clearly wanted something to happened and that would have been the end of it.

So why didn't it?

Why am I taking precautions to this situation and over-thinking everything? What was I being scared of that it was throwing off my game and causing me to cash and burn? Jennie isn't the only virgin's cherry I've had the pleasure of popping. So why am I starting to care now?

"Lisa, where's your head at mama?" Jisoo's voiced asked pulling me from my thoughts.

"Everywhere... nowhere. I don't know anymore." I replied shaking my head trying to come back to reality.

"Hmmm. You got that hot little Korean on your mind. Can't blame you Lisa, she is a smoking little piece of ass." Jisoo spoke adjusting the straps to his helmet.

"Come on Chu. Don't talk like that." I answered wrenching at her words.

"You like her."

"What? No way." I interjected quickly.

"Really? Then why since day one you've seem different. Like you're getting soft." Jisoo asked.

"I'm not going soft! Why does everyone assume that!" I yelled infuriated at the second time the description has come up into conversation.

"Because it's true Lisa. You haven't been the same since your reuniting with Jennie." Jisoo stated speaking the truth. I know I have changed, I can literally feel it and it all started when Jennie came back into life.

Before all of this I was practically Houdini when it came to my feelings, masking them in illusions that they didn't exist; vanishing into thin air and for two years it worked; until Jennie seemed to bring them back.

"Why did you take this bet Lisa?" Jisoo asked.

I shrugged not knowing how to vocally answer his question when honestly; I don't really know why or understand what provoked me. Despite the fact except that I hated being belittled by Bambam and the others.

"I think you did because deep down; after two years you want to feel something and part of you thinks Jennie can be that reason." Jisoo advised.

"When did you get all wise and spiritual?" I scoffed laughing still maintaining my front.

"Poke fun all you want pabo; but I know you and that cold heart of yours Manoban is melting." Jisoo implied before skating off into the hundreds of feet of the park, leaving me standing on half pipe in doubt about everything.

Kicking my board down and getting that tingly euphoric sensation all throughout my body. It just feels liberating, its amazing. Skateboarding always gave me a kind of high, like I'm flying. It feels right, the ramps, the wood and wheels rolling and popping; everything cool and sleek, feels like freedom. It was here that I didn't focus on what was going on in life outside of the park; kick flips and 360 spins, grinding and handstands. The possibility of getting hurt was always an adrenaline rush to do better after each fall.

Finally I caught back up with Jisoo who was sitting down on the edge of the pool, taking a drink from her water bottle.

"Better?" She asked looking at me.

"A little." I shrugged even though I wasn't really sure.

"So what's your plan?" She asked once again probably referring to our previous conversation about the bet and going soft.

"Gotta be abrasive. Make a move and hopefully let it be done with. Just don't know how yet." I answered, my eyes on the horizon skimming over the rest of the park as Jisoo nodded.

"Well here she comes now. Do it." Jisoo spoke.

"No. Can't be here. Has to be more... intimate. Things have to play out and get heavy before-"

"They get naked." Jisoo laughed cutting me off.

"Not the phrase I was going to use but okay." I laughed at my friends bold choice of words as Jennie and Rosé grew closer to where RayRay and I stood.

"Look who made it. Glad you two could come." Jisoo spoke winking with the interruption of a double meaning in his greeting.

"Thanks for making us." Catalina spoke returning the double meaning catching us both off guard. A pleased and surprised grin took over both mine and RayRay's faces.

" You two skate yet?" Rosé asked.

"Just missed the fun. We're taking a quick break." I answered the former Melbourne High School soccer star.

"Then we made it just on time then." Jennie commented a gleam in her eye like she has something planned.

"Actually, I think I'm going to skate a bit more." I spoke knowing that it seems like I am running away; maybe in retrospect I was.

"Mind if I join?" I heard Jennie's soft voice ask.

"Can't skate in heels princess." I spoke coldly.

"Doesn't mean I can't watch." She argued taking a step towards me, not taking no for an answer.

"I have a better idea. No." I replied returning Jennie's glare.

"Why?" She pressed on.

"Why? Because... because you could get hurt or something." I answered not having any other better excuse as my mind was about to rattle to summon one. Even though I was the one who technically invited them; I was allowed to change my mind.

"Bullshit." Jennie scoffed.

"Yep. Bye now." I skated off without another word knowing I was in fora huge amount of s**t when I got back but all of that was just to much. Mostly I'm good improvising in these type of situations; although mostly I prefer to have the ball in court.

"So. Running away is part of your plan to be abrasive?" I heard Jisoo yell as she had caught up, causing me to lose focus and footing. The strapping sound of knee pads skimming across the concert rang in my ears as my body tumbled onto ground.

"What?" I asked, anger laced in my voice as I stood up.

"Did I stutter? We were just talking about making a move towards Jennie not away." Jisoo spoke.

"I know. I know alright." I grumbled annoyed as I flung my helmet off, running my fingers through my long black hair as I tried to rest my disturbed thoughts. I knew that I couldn't keep running away if I wanted her or seeming cold; it would just be a waste of time and get me nowhere.

Or would it?

Jennie has been depicted as the patron saint of Melbourne High and I could tell she as a little bit of a thing for me so maybe playing hard to get was my ticket in.

"That's it." I exclaimed thinking out loud.

"What's it?" Jisoo as with a glazed look of confusion on her face.

"A good girl like Jennie can't resist a good charity."

"Care to explain?" Jisoo asked.

" All goodie goodies love to play with the idea of changing a player." I explained.

"But she is changing you." Jisoo replied.

" Jennie is not changing me!" I spoke annoyed not willing to admit that.

Jisoo rolled his eyes in disbelief well aware that response was full crap, "So then what's your plan?"

"To be myself." I smiled knowing that I was there were so many holes to poke into my plan.

"Like that won't back fire." Jisoo laughed.

"Fingers crossed."

(JENNIE)

Wow.

The single word ran circles around my mind as Lisa literally ran away from me and the others, what was going on within that head her?

First she's playing the white knight; helping me and Rosé get rid of Loren and now she's literally running away from me?

I don't get it! I simply don't understand how to get through to Lisa! She's like a double sided coin and no matter which way you toss it she always shows the same face.

"You good?" Rosé questioned probably noting my tense disposition.

"Honestly, I don't even know." I answered.

" Now I understand what you meant before; how Lisa's hot one second cold the next. You do see what she's doing though right?" Rosé asked clearly seeing something I am not.

"What do you mean?" I answered.

"She's playing hard to get."

"What? Lisa seems more of a chaser than being chased." I disagreed.

"Exactly. She wants you to think she doesn't care and for you to keep pursuing her." Rosé explained clarifying the situation.

"Huh! Clever. But two people can play that game. Right?"

"But for how long? I mean Jen, Lisa is a pro at this sort of thing." Rosé expressed seeming concern.

"True, but Lisa is used to playing this game with girls who are well; easy. Not someone who actually has standards." I expressed.

"Whatever." Rosé laughed rolling her eyes.

"You don't think I can handle myself?" I stated more than asked.

"Nope and you wanna know why?"

"Enlighten me." I spoke.

"Okay, you have such a wet spot when it comes to Lisa, that the second things get heavy you're going to give in." Rosé declared crossing her arms as if her words were an open and end argument.

"I do not." I scoffed.

"Oh please Jen. You don't seriously think I didn't see the way you blushed when you saw Lisa at the mall?" Rosé stated crossing her arms and shifting her weight waiting for me to answer.

I was at a loss for words. Rosé always knew that I felt a certain way towards Lisa, ever since I saw her in our A.P English class beginning of sophomore year.

I can still recall how beautiful she look as she sat by the window. The light highlighting her side profile angelically causing her eyes to be almost clear like glass as they were complimented by the dark t-shirt she wore.

It wasn't just her beauty that had me awe, it was her mind too and how she expressed and vocalized her words with such passion when we were asked to read and analyze The Mysterious Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. How Lisa explained the two personas seeming nothing alike; one a well-liked and respectable doctor and the second the hideous, depraved Hyde as almost opposite in type and personality.

The way Lisa depicted the dominance of Hyde as a latent force within Jekyll, then as a tyrannical external force; subverting Jekyll holding various implications for our understanding of human nature was like poetry.

Recalling the memory sent a chill along my spin causing goosebumps as the fiction story seemed to be playing a roll in present life.

"Sorry about that. I should learn to put a leash on this one, tends to runaway." Jisoo announced, her Korean accent engulfed in laughter while Lisa rolled her eyes, her body language closed off letting out a huff of annoyance.

"Its okay. Lot of dogs have a tendency to run away." I fumed looking Lisa dead in the eye as I made my comment causing a not so amused glare from Lisa.

"Well, before playing dog catcher I was about to ask if you two would like to attend a party Saturday night. My place?" Jisoo addressed arching a brow awaiting a response.

"Any particular occasion?" I inquired, my sight shifting back to the girl.

Jisoo shrugged, "Parents are away so the kids can play. So what do you say?"

"Calm down Dr. Seuss their answer is probably-"

"I'm in." I broke in cutting Lisa off knowing that I had probably taking her and the others by surprise.

"Splendid. Rosé?" Jisoo questioned. A spark of excitement in her eyes

.

"Can't. Got a date with a soccer couch at University Sunday morning." Rosé nodded declining the invitation.

"Oh snap. Really? What are you going to study?" Jisoo asked with excitement.

"Neuropsychology." Rosé answered proudly.

"Say what now?" Jisoo battered practically stuttering.

"It's the study of relationship between behavior, emotion, and cognition on the one hand, and brain function on the other." Rosé explained with a humored smile on her face.

"Tight. Maybe you could give Lisa here a, what's it called? A Lobotomy." She laughed placing a hand on Lisa's shoulder who wasn't seeing the light in the humor.

"Think Lisa is a bit far gone for that." Rosé joked.

"HaHa. Now if you two chuckle twins are done can I go? I'm tired." Lisa whined fidgeting in her spot and adjusting her clothes.

"Oh come on LisBear; don't be a spoil sport." I giggled with a smirk on my lips knowing Lisa wasn't to found of the nickname.

Lisa's eyes narrowed; her icy cold stare screaming volumes as I had addressed her by a nickname that only I knew and teased her with.

"Lis what? Lisbear?" Jisoo mumbled under her breath looking back and forth between Lisa and I.

"It's a long story; and one that will be explained indefinitely " Lisa choked out her words as they escaped her lips. Shifting on her heels I could somewhat detect pain in her words.

"Jen. Care to share?" Asked Jisoo. Looking at the expression Lisa sported caused a wrenching twist in my chest, no one but me addressed Lisa by the nickname in a very, very long time. Even the night of my party and our reconciliation I had let the name playfully slip off my tongue since she had called me Kitten.

"Nah. My lips are sealed." I smiled giving Lisa a reassuring look thatI wouldn't bring back any of the past to light unless consented, "But before pleading the fifth, Lisa can you take me home? If it isn't to much trouble." I asked hoping to get a little alone time with her and talk to her 'Jekyll' side.

"Sure. Since it's on the way." Lisa shrugged with a smirk on her face which I'm sure was her silently thanking me while we walked to Lisa's car.

"You shouldn't go to Chus party you know." Lisa stated once we were a few blocks away from the park.

"And you have no say in what I do." I replied a bit offended.

"It won't be your type of thing." Lisa argued.

"And what's my thing Lisa?" I battered wanting to know what was with the objective of me going.

"Not one of Chu's parties I can tell you that." Lisa rebutted.

"Tend to get wild?" I asked now a bit curious.

"In a way." Lisa replied, her grip tightening on the steering wheel with a fixed gaze on the road. It was like she didn't even try to look at me.

"Well, if so I'll have you there to continue being my white knight." I cooed trying to get a playful banter going like last time. There was nothing but silence between us causing for the first time an uncomfortable atmosphere as Lara stared intently at the road. God I would give anything to know she's thinking.

Moments passed with not a word exchanged when Lisa pulled into my drive way; I was a bit hesitant on getting out and leaving but something told me that staying wouldn't be any better.

"Thanks. I'll see you Saturday Lisa? " I questioned feeling a bit unnerved shutting the door, talking from the open window.

"Nine."

"Nine what?" I spoke confused with an expression that gave the same impression.

"Well, unless you magically know where Jisoo lives I'll pick you up at nine o'clock." Lisa rolled her eyes seeming annoyed.

"Oh,  yeah sounds great." I stuttered feeling a blush redden my cheeks causing Lisa to roll her eyes with a playful grin on her face and pulling out and head to her next destination.

"See you Saturday."