If I Loved Him

  If i loved him, you bet I did. I loved him because not talking to him or seeing him hurt. Their was a point were I didn't even need to cry anymore my eyes would just look puffy like if I have been crying for hours. The days were we wouldn't keep in contact felt years, and the hours felt days. I couldn't wait for it to be Friday or Saturday just for him to pass by my job. I just wanted to hold him and kiss him.   Just thinking about it makes me smile and sad at the same time. Sad because its been 4 years I haven't seen him, its been 4 years since we last spoke. I'm in a new relationship. A relationship were im not happy my mind is invaded with so many memories of the past, maybe I keep thinking about the past because the person I'm with doesn't pay attention to me. We have a beautiful baby, shes the only reason why I'm still in this relationship or maybe thats just an excuse for me to stay and think maybe the person I'm with will finally put some effort into this so called relationship.                        Let's begin this love story..