The Silver Creek Wolves: The Gamma's Heartache

4. Mandy

I am rooted to my spot. Opal is howling in my head. I can't figure out if I am coming or going. Don't get me wrong, I want my mate. But I also want my career and if where this elite specimen of a man is sitting is any indication of his ranking, I am mated to a Gamma.

I didn't realize I had closed my eyes or was holding my breath until Jackie nudged my shoulder. I opened my eyes to see the most beautiful caramel eyes staring back at me. "Blake, meet Mandy. Mandy, this is our Gamma, Blake. I would say he is who you will be reporting too, but something tells me you will have him eating out of your hands in no time." and she laughs as she walks away.

"Hi, I'm Blake. You have no idea how long I have been waiting for you. Follow me. We can have some dinner and then take a walk to get to know each other a bit."

Blake grabs my hand and electricity shoots up arm and then straight down my spine to my core. How am I going to be able to eat? I just want to sit in his lap and stick my nose in his neck. He smells like the most delicious coffee and the most sinful chocolate.

When we get to the head table, I see that there is no extra chair. Maybe I will get my wish. Alpha Kevin gets everyone's attention and announces that Gamma Blake has found his mate. Cheers erupt throughout the dining hall as Blake pulls me into his lap and nuzzles his nose in my hair. "You smell like peaches and cinnamon. I just want to eat you up." With that my cheeks turn a dark shade of crimson.

We get through dinner and Blake leads me out to the gardens for a walk. This pack is larger than mine back home. 'This is your home now' Opal says to me. Most mates mark each other the first day they find each other, but I am scared. What if he rejects me for wanting a career outside Gamma female? I don't want to be like my mother and hang out with the Luna all day. Though I like Jackie very much. I want to fight and train new warriors. Will Blake accept me for me?

"Penny for your thoughts?" Blake whispers in my ear. He pulls me from my thoughts while making my heart race and my face to flush red.

"I am afraid you won't want me." Wait did I just say that out loud?

He must be able to read my thoughts, "You can trust me, I have waited for you for 4 years, I want to know what you are thinking so we can start living our lives together. Why wouldn't I want you?"

We sit down on one of the many garden benches dotted throughout the beautiful garden. "I want to be a warrior. I want to fight. I want to train warriors. I don't want to sit at home and be a dotting house wife. Not to say I don't want to have pups or take care of you or the house, but I want more than that."

Blake laughs. "Do you have any idea how much that turns me on?" I am now beet red and Opal is panting and howling in my head. "Mandy, I am going to kiss you now." Blake cups one cheek in his hand as his other hand winds around the back of my neck and he pulls me in for the most passionate kiss of my life.

As he pulls away I feel like part of myself is missing and I whimper. Blake smiles. "I have read your file. I know what your goals were. While I can't let you go, I hope I can offer you an opportunity for something just as challenging and rewarding to keep you close to me."

"I would love to hear your offer. I know it is customary for mates to mark and mate within the same day of meeting, but I am feeling very overwhelmed today. Is it ok if we get to know each other a little more and I hear about the opportunity you want to offer me? All I have ever wanted was my mate and my career, but I never dreamed I would be mated to such a prominent Gamma."

"I don't mind, but can I ask a favor in return? If I promise to do nothing more than hold you and maybe kiss you, will you please move into my room. I have waited so long, I don't know if I can be away from you for that long."

"I can give you that." And with that we went up and packed my things to take over to Blake's room.

The next day before we have to get started with the final arrangements before the warriors come in for the Summer Training Session, Blake and I call my parents to give them the good news. My mother is ecstatic, my father not so much. He was hoping I would get to live my dream a little before I found my mate and settled down. They are coming out next weekend to meet everyone here and bring my belongings.

After our morning session was done, we went to have lunch with Blake's parents. They were both thrilled for Blake to have finally met his mate. His father sat down with us while Blake went over his plans for me to run Western Star while he performed his Gamma duties at the pack. He would stay CEO, but I would be President and handle day to day operations. His father was thrilled with the idea, other than I didn't have a college education. We tabled that discussion for later, but I was feeling a little bit better about being mated to the Gamma.

That night after dinner, Blake took me to Western Star and showed me around. The place was a well oiled machine. The training facility was amazing. I could see myself here for sure. But it still felt like there was something missing.

My assignment for the traing was to assist Blake. Since all the other work had been given out before I arrived, that was what Blake was going to give me anyways. However, now that I am his mate and we are not marked or mated, he is not letting me out of his site with so many unmated male wolves around.

He is letting me spar with the trainees, which he doesn't have to let me do. I think he does it because it turns him on to see me kick their asses. The problem is, the more I spar, the more it reminds me of what I really want to do with life. And as drawn as I am to Blake, can I give up my dreams for my mate?

Last sparing of the day and I can tell that Blake is uncomfortable with me in the ring with this guy. His name is Zeek and he is huge. He is 6 foot 7 inches, arms the size of small tree trunks, red hair, green eyes, and a nicely kept beard. He eyes me and then chuckles. "I have been watching you all day sweetheart. I am not here to play games. I think you need to move on and leave this to the men."

Before Blake can open his mouth to defend me, I walk up to Zeek, grab him by the balls and twist, bringing him to his knees. "Call me sweetheart one more time, and I will remove your manhood with my teeth. I am not nor will I ever be your sweetheart. I am the best warrior from my pack and the Gamma's daughter. Now you can fight me or forfeit, you decide. Though, if I were you, I would forfeit because being beat by a sweetheart may be a little embarrassing for you." I chuckle and laugh as I turn and walk away. I wink at Blake who is trying really hard not to laugh.

"Are both fighters ready?" Blake yells as Zeek and I start to circle each other in the ring. I nod, Zeek nods, Blake blows the whistle and we begin. Zeek is waiting for me to make the first move. I know better, I want him to use his bulk while I use my speed to take him down. For these first matches, we cannot use our wolves.

Zeek gets bored and starts for me. While he comes straight for me, he makes the mistake of coming down to me. I go low and take out his knee. He goes down like a tree falling in the woods. Once he is down, I jump on his back, shoving my knee between his shoulder blades. I pull back on his forehead and grab under his chin. He should have been able to easily flip me out of the hold, but instead he taps out.

I look at Blake with questions in my eyes and he shrugs his shoulders, blows his whistle and calls the match. We all head in to shower and head to dinner. I go first and while Blake is in the shower I start looking through all the match sheets. I am so caught up studying them I don't hear Blake come up behind me. Instead I feel his arms snake up from behind me and his warm breath on my neck. "I don't want to let you out of this room for the rest of the night. I want you all to myself. I shared you enough today."

"So why don't you go down and grab us dinner and we can stay here and go through these sheets while we eat. Then when we are done eating we will get under these sheets," I point at the bed linens, "and explore more about each other?"

"That is the best idea you have ever had! I will be right back."

While Blake is gone, I change into my boy short underwear and one of his t-shirts without a bra and get comfy on the bed. These warriors are good but my stats are better. It just frustrates me more. I also see that Zeek wants the same job that I do. What a joke, he is suck a tool. Now I feel my competitiveness creeping in and that is not a good sign.