Fate

Have you ever felt that life has suddenly stopped? It was a moment like this that gave me that feeling, that time had stopped. I could hear my heart beating and my breath voice but nothing else. In that moment where I was standing looking at the graves of my two best friends in this world, the two most important people to me, my sister and her husband's graves. I can hardly remember what happened in the last 24 hours, I was on my way to the airport when I got that call, that dread phone call. It was my father's scared voice "Come quickly to the hospital, it's Nihan and omut they were in a car accident" That's all he said, I can't even remember how I got to the hospital, how I ended up here looking at their graves. I came out of my haze when someone suddenly hand shaked me, did the burring really end, and people are acutely leaving, I can't remember what was said, what even happened, but the hand shaking continued and people consoled me and I answered them like a robot not actually knowing what I was saying but it was the right thing to say it seems. After everyone left, I stood there, my eyes not leaving the ground. Is it really over? did I really just burry my only sister? My rock, my backbone, my partner in life and crime, and everything. It was like I couldn't think and couldn't stop thinking at the same time. Suddenly, I felt a hand touching my elbow it was then that I realised I wasn't alone, "we need to go dear," said yasamin, my only left friend " Yes, Melek, we need to go it's getting late" my father said this time, I didn't know he was still here too. I raised my eyes to meet his, when my eyes caught him, standing between the trees not afar away looking straight at the three of us standing over the graves, I totally forgot that he even came with us, " What was his name?" I said my eyes not leaving his "who?" Said yasamin following my eyes " Oh, Ali you mean.. I forgot he came, we need to get home he must have not eaten at all since yesterday" "Ali.." I said in a low voice, still watching the kid watching us not moving or blinking.. 2 month ago.. I remember the day my sister called me thrilled and screaming " They agreed to the adoption we are going to be a parents... I want you meet him, he is soo cute he is 10 and his name is Ali" she said laughing loudly "stop screaming" I said laughing too " I can't, I am so happy and Omut as well he is so happy he went to buy him a bedroom" " You are both crazy, you just got the approval he will not move in yet" I said laughing loudly " we are so excited we can't stop planning" " Congratulations, you are going to be the best parents ever" " And you going to be the best Aunt ever, when are you coming back? I want you to meet him quickly, " " Not sure yet it might be a while, I will try to make it home before October." Today was the 30th of September. I made it home last week and was leaving again last night, without meeting the kid. When I got that phone call, and yes this time I met him when I went to my sister's house to get their official papers for the burrial application, I opened the door to meet the kids eyes scared and worried, clearly everyone forgot about him when they went to the hospital once they heard the news.. It was later I found My sister and her husband were going to buy a welcome home present to the kid because he has been with them for a month now and they wanted to surprise him when they had that accident. I didn't even acknowledge him, I just went straight to the office room to get all the necessary papers when I was leaving, a small shaking voice stopped me " wh.. what happened? where are they?" I turned to meet his scared eyes with my cold one " They are dead" That's all I could say then and yes I am blaming myself now for acting so coldly to the kid but I wasn't myself back then or even now. I moved towards , eyes not leaving his, I heared my father asking where was I going and yasamin following me, ignoring them both I reached the child and kept observing him for a while. when my stare became to much for him he averted his gaze to the graves behind me.. "Ali was it?" When I asked his eyes returned to me nodding his head.. " let's go home.." That's all I said moving to go to my car knowing everyone is following me now.. " Mrs. Melek, .." once I reached my car, I saw two women standing there waiting for me "Yes?" I answered approaching them " we need to talk importantly" "About what? who are you? " I am Selen form social affairs and this is Mrs. Nermein your sister's lawyer" " Yes I think we met before I remember you now," I said to the lawyer shaking their hands both. "What is it?" I asked looking at my dad and yasamin and Ali now approaching us. " Your sister left a will that I need to make an appointment with you four to read it" she said looking at us "Can't it wait a few days we aren't going anywhere?" Said Yasamin annoyed clearly I can agree though couldn't they wait a few more days " Unfortunately, this can not wait, it has to be done urgently, madam" said the social affairs woman looking weirdly at Ali now " Alright, come tomorrow to the house and do whatever you want, we will not do it here right?" said my dad annoyed now as well " Yes sir of course, sorry for the disturbance, we offer our consoles again" They said, I nodded and moved to the car not glancing at them once we four entered the car, I tuned to look at my dad while starting the engin " You will stay for a few days, right dad?" " I will stay tonight but I have to leave to Muğla tomorrow" " So fast.." I said, looking a head and starting to drive " You know I want you to come back with me.." Said my dad looking ahead "Dad, not this again, not today please" " You have no family left here, come back home with me.. you are my only daughter left" my dad said agin raising his voice a little " Dad please.." I said sighing loudly " Fine.." He said anagerly but dropped the subject It's true I came to live in Istanbul with my sister years ago.. but I was travelling most of the time anyway, Leaving Muğla behind both of us were mad at my dad back then, As a very seeccussful bussinessman he wanted us to take over his empire and follow in on his footsteps, us having a different dreams in life didn't set well with him leading to alot of fighting and then us leaving home to fulfil our dreams on our own, this had left him mad and heartbroken, Yes over the years we have mended our relationship a bit but it was my sister that was the branch of peace between us.. Now, even I don't know how should we react around each other without her. Reaching My sister's house I parked the car and we all went inside the house, being here and knowing my sister is not her is a very weird feeling. Looking around as if I am seeing the house for the first time I reached the closest chair and collapsed on it, closing my eyes a little. everyone seemed to have found himself a chair to sit silently. "Have a seat, kid" I opened my eye upon hearing my dad's voice to see him looking at Ali indifferely " His name is Ali, dad" I said closing my eyes again " So, what do you plan on doing now?" He said again ignoring my previous comment " About what?" I said now sitting straight and looking at him " In your life ?" "What do you mean?" " You know what I mean, we are the only ones left you should come home with me" " Dad, you are married remember?" I said Sarcastically, Even though I just met his wife once for less than five minutes on their wedding day, I wanted to remember he still have someone home waiting for him..unlike me though " I know that, but I want my only daughter next to me, is that so much to ask for?" he said irritated now " Dad.. we said not today" " Fine, What about the kid then?" he asked the elephant in the room fainaly, seriously what about him I kept myself from thinking about this since I saw him last night.. and I guess the encounter with lawyer today had something to do with that question as well, but as I did yesterday and this morning I didn't want to think right now about anything " I don't know" I said, sighing, looking at the kid who had his full attention on me, waiting for my answer " These women we met today seem to know the answer for this," I said looking at my dad and Ali and fainally Yasamin, who sat there in silence, observing me as well " Let's eat first and rest for a while, Yasamine. Will you help me?" I said, getting up and moving to the kitchen.. After having something to eat and cleaning, I made sure Ali was fed and probably a sleep by now.. I was alone in my room finally, I wasn't alone since I heard the news almost 24 hours ago now.. I thought once I was alone I will finally cry but nothing came and it scared me too much, why was I not grieving as I should, all I could do was replay our memories together over and over again in my head till I had a huge headache and sleep took over Waking up with a startle, it took me a while to relieve it was because of the door bell. I had a horrible sleep It was like I was watching a movie with my past self and sister as the movie stars.. clearly, the sleep did nothing but increase my headache.. Opening my door room to see Yasamin moving to answer the door "Good morning, hoping we didn't wake you up.." The two women from yesterday greeted entering the house looking at my watch. I saw it's past 1 p.m. now.. did I sleep that much.. I saw that my dad and Ali were wide awake having breakfast now... " It seems I am the only one late today. Welcome, please have a seat," I said, greeting both of them " I will be right back. What would you like to drink?" "I will take care of that go change dear," said Yasamin, pushing me back towards my room Half an hour later, we all were seated in the living room, looking at both of the women concentrated on what they wanted to share with us.. The lawyer started talking, not wasting time " First of all, I am sorry for rushing you, but it's with great importance that we do this now, Nihan and Omut reached me a month ago saying we want to write a will, ..Even though I wasn't surprised they did this, it was a new piece of information for me.. ..They said now they have started a family now and wanted to make sure everything was in order in case something happened.. she stopped to take a breath, opening an envelope " Dear family and friends, well friend, actually hope you are ok, Yasamin.. Yasamin and I smilled at my sister's words, God, I miss her already ... If you are reading this, then we must be dead then, hope that will be in 100 or something years but in case it was less than that, we thought that writting a will is a wise thing to do. Since we became parents all we could think about was the future of our son, thus this will; we know we don't own much but we wish for the price of both the car and the house to be deposited as fund for our son, Ali, which he can access at the age of 18 Yrs. ..Ali, our boy, by the time you are reading this we hope you are happy and settled with us, we hope you went to a good school, have a good job and maybe even married, we hope we were parts of all of these happy moments for you but in case we died before you were an adult.. we would like to give our son's guardianship to the one person we are sure will be able to take good care of him, our sister Melek" WHAT!!