Crossing the bounded waves

#2 Movie

"Do you not dream of love as beautiful as the one you see in the movies?"

MOVIE

I don't know how love really works, can I compare real-life love from the movies I watch? Like this movie I'm currently watching, the boy met the girl, they fell in love, went through various hardships just to stay together but at the end, the girl died due to cancer and the boy, driven by the loneliness and the missing of his fiance, took his own life by overdosing himself with pills.

The movie was depressing, yes. But it's also undeniably the best movie that I've ever watched my entire life, I love how the main characters showed how much they both love each other, there wasn't any s****l scenes that was in the movie, they just kissed, hugged and held each other's hand but it was enough, the love that was shown in this movie signifies love so pure that lust is quite hard to be grasped upon, love occupied every aspect of their affection. Lust, love can never grow from lust, because lust is just a passing feeling, one you'll get tired of as time passes, and before you can realize it, you'll crave for something else again, something different.

after the woman died, he rewatched their old video tapes on when they were still together and happy and then found one video that was entitled "My life for you", he was intrigued and decided to play it, the video was about the documentation of his girl's journey on surviving cancer, every treatment and hospital visits was on there, there were also parts we're she'll sit in front of the camera and talk to it as if she was talking to the boy.

When the video tape ended, the man cried. He sat there, in his bed while crying his heart out, I don't know what for, regret? He then took his girlfriend's photo and hugged it so tightly, that was the night he decided to end himself.

The last shot of the film was with the girl taking the boys hands and held it firmly. The boy smiled as he saw the ring on the girl's finger that was similar to his, it was their engagement ring. He sighed happily and then the movie ended.

I don't know what the ending indicates, did he really die and got the chance to see his lover again or was the last scene just a figment of his imagination that was long kept in his heart? I don't know, but either ways, the both of them loves each other unconditionally. If it was the girl who was left behind, she would do what the boy would do too, I'm sure. They both gambled their lives away for love, they knew where they would be headed but they tried to make it work, it didn't work but their love for each other remained in their hearts, the woman didn't want to give up, she wanted to be with him until the end, but the boy saw how she was suffering so instead of letting her fight for them, he let her go with the words "Wait for me, it won't be long until I'm there by your side again, love"

After the film ended, I stood up and stopped the video from playing further. "Shanna!" Someone yelled, I stumbled back and almost landed butt first on the floor. "What?!" I yelled back. It was Guiden who called me, he stood in front of me with an apologetic expression. And yes, I'm on his condo right now, he told me I could stay for lunch after I was done cleaning his place, I abided to what he asked me to, I can't deny blessings.

"Food's ready" Guiden went behind me and slowly ushered me to the dining table by putting his hands on my shoulder, the little intimacy made me shiver a bit but I quickly regained my composure.

"Wow" I breathed, the food looks good. I looked at him with a questioning smile "you know how to cook?" I asked. "Not actually, some of these dishes was prepared by a friend of mine, I only heated them up. The other dishes, I made them. I know it's that good but I tried.".

I grinned and sat on the chair that he had pulled for me. He took the plate in front of me and put rice in it.

He put the plate back in front of me and let me pick a dish, I picked a dish called Gazpacho, and yes he told me what it's name and what kind of dish it was before I took a portion of it. Gazpacho is the only spanish dish that he cooked, he told me that it's the only dish he knew how to cook. The food taste awesome, I guess he really nailed cooking this.

I smiled at him widely and complimented his dish before eating back.

"Thank you for driving me home Den." I said as I got off Guiden's car, as I was getting off, Guiden also went out of his car from his side. At a matter of seconds, he arrived in front of me. He took my hand and held it in his, I was shocked by the sudden intimacy but brushed it off thinking maybe this is just the normal thing he does during partings.

"You're welcome Shan. And uhmm, thank you for accompanying me today, this day has been one of the best."He said as he softly rubbed the back of my hand. I looked at him oddly, he's welcome, I guess, but does he really need to do this while thanking me? He's acting weird, not the funny kind but the kind that gives you goosebumps, he doesn't look like a creep but he sure acts like one.

"You're welcome. Now, if you don't mind, I really need to go..." I trailed off, he looked like he was suddenly pulled from his daydream and quickly let my hand slip from his grip, Den then scratched the back of his neck and smiled shyly at me as if he did something worth being embarrassed for, he did, by the way.

I was about to get inside the apartment building when a voice stopped me on my ground, how could I not recognize this voice? I swiftly turned my body and faced the person who called my name. Dawin Lopez, my coworker in a bakery I used to work to. Before I could speak he lunged towards me and enveloped me into a warm hug, I miss this, I thought as I was about to hugged him back, if Guiden didn't pull him away from me and pushed him to the ground.

Guiden was about to punch him when I intervened by shouting profanities to him, I normally don't cuss but, what the hell?! Guiden looked at me with an apologetic and confused expression, it was as if he didn't know why he f*****g he did what he did.

I helped Dawin up and saw some scratches from his arms. "Let's go to my place Dawin, you need to have your wounds treated." I said as I ushered him inside the building.

Guiden tried to reached for my arms and when he did, pulled me to stop. "I'm the one who caused these scratches, I should be the one to help him treat it." He said solemnly, I hesitantly agreed, realizing how weird it would be if I invite Dawin inside my unit. People might misunderstand, Sister Anise might know from her sibling, I almost forgot how protective sister Anise was of me.

I never understood sisters Anise's over protectiveness of me, i sometimes thinks that it's just because she thinks of me as her daughter but a part of me doesn't believe that reason, I don't know but I think the reason behind her trait towards me is beyond a love of a mother for her child, its something different and weird.

Maybe I'm just so caught up about this fairytale plot line I'm living in (except without a prince charming) I was once locked up in a tower too, just like Rapunzel. She's not evil, right? Sister Anise just show's her affection differently... She's not bad.

I looked at Dawin and Guiden walking towards the car, Guiden looked at Dawin and made a small bow and said sorry. I don't know why my boss did that but he better not do that to anyone else, God, he's strong.

+End of #2+

A/N

I don't glamorize, the act of taking your own life for "love" and neither does the main character; "Shanna", there was a book that I read that is close to the movie I was talking about, the book shows a lot of darker take on romance and it also has a lot of angst, the main characters died on the end (they were on coma, but their family were already told that if ever it comes to a point where they both are still alive but are not waking up, they would want to die together, due to the promise they're family made, their lifeline was pulled, the end.

I wanted to have a take similar to the book so I wrote this chapter that is dedicated to that novel.

Please be mindful and do not follow that guy, he died because that's what he wanted, but if I must say so myself, do not end your life for the sake of loving.