Dear Crush

Dear Walter, You were the very first guy I had a crush on in university. The first guy. Feel special. First time I saw you was during the first week of September. Frosh week. You were one of the leaders that day. I already knew there was no way you'd notice me. I was first year and you were third year. I found you so cute that day with that snapback on. Of course you never knew that and never will. I didn't know your name then so I gave you the nickname of "leader" It wasn't until my friend, with a great skill in stalking by the way, found you on f*******:. My friends pressured me to add you on f*******: so I gave in. Of course that process was done with my eyes close and the mouse on that 'add friend' button. That same day you accepted me. You have no idea how much I stared at that notification. You little dancer, I didn't know you were such a good dancer! That compliment is based on all the confession posts on the university's page made by girls who have watched you dance. I haven't seen you dance and probably never will. There was an audition for your crew. If I knew you were part of that crew I would have auditioned. I'm kidding. I wouldn't. I might not be able to dance when you're around. Anthropology 01. Remember that class? Well I wished it ran every day and not just once a week. Every Thursday I would be all dressed up having little hopes that you'd notice me somehow. Little hopes. One day I decided to talk to you. Ask you questions that I already knew the answer. I had it all planned in my head you see. I don't know if it was fate saying "it's not meant to be dear" but that day when I was going to talk to you.... you were late. Therefore, we didn't know where you were sitting in the room. My friend saw you. You were at the other side of the room. Far from where you usually sit. Far from where we were sitting at then. I took that as a sign. Sign to move on. So I did. I guess I got tired from all the chasing knowing that I won't be able to catch you anyway. It took time, honestly, but the fact that I barely see you in campus made it easy for me to forget you exist. Do you want to know how I knew I have completely moved on from you? Well it was evening, school was almost empty, I was walking through the halls texting on my phone- as usual. I looked up and the first face I saw was yours. I didn't recognize you after the first look so I looked at you again and we made eye contact. I think I might have stared at you for a long time.... sorry. My heart didn't skip a beat nor did I get any butterflies in my stomach. That was it. I have labelled you as my "ex" and you'll never know that you once had a place in my mind. See you around Walter.