unlucky

Chapter 5

David sat alone in his bedroom, staring at the blank wall in front of him. Every night, he found himself lost in his thoughts, unable to shake the overwhelming feelings he had for Ryan. The more he tried to push them away, the stronger they became, until he felt suffocated by them.

He knew he couldn't continue living like this, so he made the difficult decision to distance himself from Ryan. It wasn't easy, but he couldn't bear the thought of being near him, feeling his heart race every time their eyes met, only to be left disappointed and alone.

Days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months. David became increasingly distant, never talking to Ryan or even acknowledging him when they passed each other in the halls. He felt like a coward for running away, but he didn't know what else to do.

As he walked through the empty streets of the town he lived in, David felt more alone than ever before. He had no friends, no family that understood him, and no one to turn to for help. He felt like he was drowning in a sea of his own emotions, with no hope of ever surfacing again.

One day, as David was walking home from school, he saw Ryan talking to one of his friends. His heart ached as he watched them laugh and joke around, wishing he could be a part of their conversation. But he knew he couldn't, not when his heart was still so raw from his feelings for Ryan.

Instead, he hurried home and locked himself in his room, trying to distract himself with music or books. But nothing seemed to help, and he found himself obsessing over Ryan more than ever before.

It wasn't until David met a boy named Peter that things started to change. Peter was also gay, and he understood David in a way that no one else did. They would spend hours talking about their experiences, their hopes and fears, and David felt like he had finally found someone who truly cared about him.

With Peter's support, David started to focus on himself, rather than obsessing over things he couldn't change. He started to explore his own interests, taking up painting and writing, and he found that he had a talent for both.

As he immersed himself in his art, David felt himself starting to heal. He knew that he would always have feelings for Ryan, but he realized that there was so much more to life than just one person.

Eventually, David started to make new friends, and he found himself becoming more confident and outgoing. He was no longer the shy, lonely teenager he once was; he was someone who had overcome a difficult time in his life and come out stronger on the other side.

Looking back on his experience, David realized that he had learned a valuable lesson. He had learned that it was okay to be different, and that it was possible to find happiness and love, even in the darkest of times. And most of all, he had learned that he was capable of so much more than he ever imagined.

David tried his best to forget about Ryan, but his heart ached every time he saw him. Desperate to move on, he started dating other guys, hoping it would help him forget his crush.

At first, it felt exciting to be with someone who showed him attention, but it didn't take long for David to realize that these relationships were not fulfilling. They were just temporary distractions from his pain.

David often felt like an outsider in his small town. He came from a poor family, and people at school looked down on him for it. Being gay only made things worse. He felt like he had no one to turn to, and no way to escape his situation.

One day, David met a guy named Alex on a dating app. They hit it off right away, and their conversations quickly became more than just small talk. David felt like he had finally found someone who understood him.

They met up at a local park, and as they walked around, David realized that he was starting to feel something for Alex. It was a strange sensation, one he hadn't felt before. He wasn't sure if he was ready to commit, but he knew that he wanted to spend more time with him.

But as luck would have it, Ryan appeared out of nowhere. David's heart skipped a beat as he saw him walking with his friends. He wanted to run away, but he didn't want Ryan to see him with another guy. He felt trapped.

"Hey, David," Ryan said, surprised to see him. "What are you doing here?"

David felt his face turning red. He didn't know how to respond. Meanwhile, Alex looked at him with concern.

"Just hanging out," David finally replied.

Ryan looked at Alex, then back at David. David could tell that he was trying to read the situation.

"Who's your friend?" Ryan asked, a hint of jealousy in his voice.

David hesitated, unsure of how to answer. He felt a pang of guilt for leading Alex on.

"This is Alex," David finally said. "We just met online."

Ryan nodded, but David could sense that he was bothered by their interaction. He felt a sense of relief when Ryan finally said goodbye and walked away.

After that encounter, David knew that he couldn't keep using other people to forget about Ryan. He needed to take a break from dating and focus on himself. It wasn't easy, but he slowly started to find ways to improve his situation. He started volunteering at a local l***q center, and made new friends who encouraged him to be himself.

Eventually, David realized that he didn't need Ryan's validation to be happy. He found happiness in loving himself and the life he had created for himself. He never forgot about Ryan, but he also knew that his happiness didn't solely depend on him. Life was full of possibilities, and David was excited to discover what was next for him.