Love is War

Chapter 37

I can feel that my strength in my knees is slowly depleting because of how depressed I am right now, after reading that message from dad. Anytime now, I will fall and kiss the floor. We just finished with the awarding ceremony and after that I signed some autographs from my fans.

Now just like I expected, it’s like that nothing great happened in this store, I am just walking here inside the mall depressed, while pulling my cart that carries my new rig. I want to find Alexis right now so I can go home and release my frustration in the training grounds.

It’s like I will punch anybody right now, because of frustrated I am. I wished that I didn’t pull out my phone that time and read the messages when we got home. After some time of looking around inside the mall I saw Alexis from afar carrying something, but I didn’t care about that, because I just want to go home now and punch some target dolls.

“Miss Nova!” she called while walking towards me. “How did it go?” she asked. I just looked at her in the eyes because I don’t want to talk about it anymore. I just hope that she can sense the sadness in my eyes right now, but knowing her, she will not care even a little bit about my feelings. So, I stood up straight trying to get my shiz together.

“Not well,” I replied cheaply. “And it will not go as great as we expected it to be,” I added. “Let’s go home,” I turned my back to her and go to the parking lot where we left the car earlier.

“Miss Nova, I wanted to tell you something,” she said in her usual monotone voice.

“I already know,” I said in my depressed tone. “I know that dad wants that card and I just lost it,” I said, that’s what the message is about.

“Ah miss Nova-“

“Please Alexis I don’t want talk about it anymore,” I said cutting her off. I am not in the mood playing with her right now. I just want to go home as soon as possible. She became quiet the whole time of our walking like she usually does and I am thankful for that.

We reached our car and she opened the door for me, in the back of the car we carefully put our fragile stuff inside and managed the space carefully, and I sat on the passenger’s seat and just stare on the window. She closed the door and Alexis went to the driver’s seat and started the engine. Later on, after revving the engine, she started driving towards our home, out of these borderlands. I guess I will be locking myself up for a few days because I don’t want dad seeing me like this, especially after I failed his task.

This is the first time that I experienced a crushing defeat from a stranger that did not give even the slightest care towards me. Here I am, thinking that I am the main protagonist in this world that everyone should know about, but in reality, I am just another person living in this world.

I feel my eyes becoming wet, as my tears are forming up, but I hold it back in because I don’t want anyone seeing me this weak. Crying means weakness, that’s in my code and I will not allow that to happen. The whole trip I just spaced out and Alexis just let me be. With times like this her coldness is a great thing.

We reached the front gates of our house the guards opened the gate for us, and we went in. The next things that happened is just the same. I just quietly went to my room while Alexis and the other guys that carry my stuff follows me. After, putting our stuff inside the room I just closed the door while Alexis is standing beside me. I went straight to my bed, because I really need its softness that feels like a hug, to comfort my sad heart today.

With my face engraved in my pillow, my tears just went out against my command. I really can’t hold it in anymore. I cried letting all this frustration leak outside me. It’s a pain for me losing a competition that you really worked hard for.

I really wanted the card and I did my best, but I still lose. I expected so high and so suddenly I fell and the crash is very painful for me. That’s my fault for expecting on myself that high. The joke is on me this whole time. I just wanted to laugh at myself right now.

“Are you crying?” Alexis asked me with her monotone voice, acting with her usual insensitive self.

“No!” I shouted and my voice cracked.

“You’re crying,” she stated the obvious, then if you knew, stop asking. You’re just hurting my feelings more. No matter how tough my body is built, my heart is still soft and can be easily broken. Damn these feelings if only I could be Alexis at times like this. Not really caring on everything until the feeling of frustration fades away. “You really wanted that card huh,” she said to herself. “Then why are you crying?” she asked again as if I won that card in the competition earlier. I just ignored her. “Or are you crying because you lost and you are being a child with your pride or is that has something to do with your dad?” she babbles words nonstop. What hurts me even more, is that when she said that I am being a child with my feelings right now.

“Yeah right!” I said looking at her angrily. “I am not like you Alexis, I have feelings,” I added and I felt like that it was an insult to her, but she started it. “If you can feel what I feel right now, let’s see if you can still say that in front of me,” I added wanting to let this frustration and sorry for you being the one that I pour my anger onto. “Yes, I wanted that card and dad just worsen the situation, and my pride has nothing to do with it,” I answered all of her question at once so she can finally shut her mouth right now.

“Then again, why are you crying if you wanted that card?” she asked me.

“I obviously lost,” I answered while my tears are continuously pouring through my cheeks.

“That is why you really need to listen to others if they have something to tell you,” she said and went beside towards one of the covered packages. She took her trusted pocket knife out of her pocket and unsheathes it. She sliced the cover with ease and I just watched her without spouting any more words out of my mouth.

After she finished uncovering the package it shows a brown box and she opened it and took something inside it. My eyes widened when I saw the item inside the box and immediately recognized it. My heart immediately jumps out of my chest.

I blinked multiple times and pinched my whole body, to make sure that this moment is not a dream and this is all in reality. I can’t believe it. The GRX9090 is in front of me, the shining box that is worth keeping for display. Woah, I really can’t believe it, that it is in front of me.

The feeling of sadness instantly fades and replaced with joy instantly. I wanted to jump out of my bed and hug her so tightly, but how?

“How did you get that?” I asked her and this time my tears stopped flowing. I did not even expect a bit that she will he holding that card. Not even for a million years. But thinking of possibilities how she got that card, implanted a fear in my heart. Did she commit a crime inside the borderlands? Because if she did then that means everything is over for us right now. The world government will go after us.

“It’s obvious, isn’t it?” she just gave me a question which strengthened my suspicions. My heart dropped on the floor and I don’t want it to end this way.

“Why?” I asked her with regrets of signing her in that competition.

“What do you mean, why?” she asked me back.

“Why will you commit such drastic measures just to get that card?” I asked her in full detail. I appreciate her being the most considering friend that I have even she is oblivious for most of the time. But Alexis, you don’t need to do that just to make me smile.

“Huh?” she asked me again.

“You stole that, right?” I asked her again and she just stares at me confused and my mind went blank. “Right?” I asked her again.

“Why would I break the taboo just for your happiness?” she said the harshest question that she could ever spout in this moment but.

“You did not steal that?” I asked her again feeling embarrassed, about my accusations towards her. “You didn’t?” I asked her again.

“I obviously won,” she said annoyed.

“You what?” I asked her in disbelief and I think that only made her more annoyed to me. Alexis winning the competition? I can’t imagine it happening. How?

“I won,” she repeated her words highlighting her words and it’s like she is slapping it in my face that she won the match.

“It’s really true,” I whispered to myself and another batch of tears poured through my cheeks but this time these are tears of joy and not sadness anymore. I stood up and ran towards her and hugged Alexis but I still feel embarrassed about thinking so low on her when it comes to games. Here I think that she is just one percent of the odds that I will win the card.

And with luck on my side, I hit that one percent.

“But how did you win?” I asked her.

“It was an easy match,” she answered as if all of it is just a child’s play to her.