I was angry at Daniel, but had missed him so much it was impossible to make him stay away after the appointment. For him, he hated me. He thought I had cheated, he thought I had gone behind his back to get pregnant by someone else and lied about it being his baby. He was so angry that he didn't mind the space. For me, I was just desperate to have him around. It felt like it did when Sam left. I felt unsettled, out of place, and sad the whole time. I was angry and had so much I wanted to say. I was angry that he hadn't trusted me and that he genuinely believed I would cheat on him. I knew how much having a child meant to him. I knew it would be so much validation for everything that went down in his previous marriage. I knew it would make him incredibly happy and I knew that it would

