Let the Light Begin

Chapter 10: The Past's Nightmare

''You don't miss me, babe?'' Someone grabbed my shoulder, and it was Alex. I removed his hands from my shoulders. I don't want Annie to see this; she might have misunderstood all of this. My ex-girlfriend is Alex, but my parents wanted her to be my fiancée. I just don't like her; she is such a brat and manipulative woman I have ever met.

''Stop calling me that! We both know that we broke up. It's been 3 years, Alex.'' After I said that. I grabbed Annie from the stall.

''Gill, here is your wallet. I think I need to go home. Your shop just called, and they're on their way to my apartment. Thank you for this day!'' She smiled and walked away. I look at Zyreel and Jenlyn, and they both look at me with their disappointment.

''Gill, your dad called me, and he wanted us to get back together!'' She hugged me, and I immediately removed her hand from my body.

''Don't you remember why we broke up, Alex?'' The way I look, Alex. I immediately remembered everything she had done to me after the 3 years of our break up. She forgot all about it and wanted me to come back.

‘’I'm sorry, Gill. It is almost 3 years, and it's all in the past. I've changed already.''

''Alex, f*****g 3 years of pain.'' As much as possible, I wanted this pain to stay on my mind, but I could handle it. I moved on, but the pain that she left me. I won't forget.

''Gill, it was an accident. I didn't even know that I was in Landry's room.''

Three years ago, I saw Alex in Landry's room. Even though we are just in a relationship by an arrangement of our parents. The love I gave from her was real, and so is she, as she said to me. Landry and I were childhood best friends. I am with him through the ups and downs, and after that day happened, I was cold for Landry. He said that he did that just for me. To show me that Alex can replace me immediately. I DON'T EVEN GET IT. Why would he do that just to show me everything? I felt betrayed, and the pain was still fresh. He stops apologizing because I don't want to see his face. I am not angry just because he slept with my ex-girlfriend. I am mad because he threw away our years as a friend. The most painful that could be in life.

‘’Alex, I had enough of the explanations. I won't go back to you; we are over!'' I removed her and hugged me. Her tears are nothing to me anymore, and I walked away and ran towards the parking lot. I need to explain this to Anne. She might misunderstand everything.

''Go run, Gill, but you don't have a choice. Do you know why? Your parents are on this. You will even have a girlfriend sooner or later. They will not agree, and I am still the only one you have. So stop wasting your time on her, Gill. I know everything happening to you. You are still mine. You are not getting away with this, you know that.'' That is sick of my family. I don't have my own decision. But not just because of that, I will stop loving Annie. I will fight with this feeling. I don't want any decision I have to make.

‘’I will prove to them that I am not a kid anymore. I will fight for her!’’ I walked out on her and rushed towards my car.

I have feelings for Anne, and I didn't know what to tell her. Maybe because of what happened earlier, the closeness I have to her will be lost. I don't want to expect, but I also wish not to take any action. As I am on my way, driving to that location where it all started. I can't stop thinking about what happened earlier and the past is driving me crazy right now as it flashback all away.

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Flowers? Chocolates? I know she didn't want this, but I want her to know how I appreciate her. It's now our anniversary, and I wanted to surprise her. And it's too early for that. I tried to get some fresh flowers since she loves red. I will pick her some beautiful roses. But first I will bake her chocolate. Since she is not a fan of these kinds of gifts. I wanted to make an effort by doing this. I don't want to buy these for her. While I was busy making chocolates for Alex, my phone suddenly rang.

*Gill's ringtone*

[Good morning, babe!]

''Good morning, babe. How was your day?'' I said. I don't want to greet her about our anniversary. I wanted to surprise her.

[Well, excellent! I am on my way to dad's office. He wanted me to bring some documents. Do you mind dropping by?]

''Sure, babe. I will just finish some things here. But I am not sure if I should go immediately, then I will go there, okay?''

[sure, babe! Take care. I love you]

''I love you too.''

I hung up immediately. Since Alex is not aware of our day, today. It's a good thing for me to have time to do this. I am done with the chocolates. Now I will go to our garden. It's been a long time since I planted some roses for her. All of the things that I will give her are scratches that I made. After all, she deserves everything. We are now in 3 years of a relationship, and I can marry her soon.

I am done with all the things that I prepared for her. I arranged the flowers and the chocolate. Write a letter for her with her name. After that, I choose something nice to wear. I went to my car and drove to her dad's office. I can't wait to see her reaction.

*Gill's ringtone*

''Landry, why?''

[Do you have time? Come here. I have a problem] I was on my way to Alex, but Landry called me

''What happened? I'm on my way to Alex. It's our anniversary,'' I said.

[I need you right now, Gill.] I immediately drove my car into a U-turn. I just sent a message to Alex to wait for me.

I am worried about what Landry's thinking. He is usually attacked by anxiety; that's why I am in a hurry. While I was driving, I called Zach, his cousin, since he is always there. But he could not be reached, and I didn't know why. I drove as fast as I could to Landry's house. I left the flowers and chocolate on the passenger seat. I ran towards his room as quickly as I could, but I didn't expect what I saw.

''Alex...'' Suddenly, my tears drop when I see Landry and Alex are kissing in his bed.

''Gill? What are you doing here?''

''I called him,'' Landry said.

''Damn you, Landry! I can't believe that you would do this to me!'' I ran towards him and punched him.

''GILL STOP!'' Alex hugs me, and she is crying.

''Don't touch me, Alex. Landry is my best friend. Why?!'' I can't bear to see them both. I immediately went out to his room. And they are still both chasing me. I went to my car, and Landry suddenly grabbed my shoulder.

''Gill, I did this for you! I wanted to show you that Alex doesn't deserve you.''

''f**k you, Landry! You did this for yourself!'' I picked up all the flowers and chocolate and threw them in front of them.

''Oh, here's my little surprise for you, Alex. I did that by myself. I even plant a rose and bake those chocolates. And what is your surprise? Happy Anniversary, Alex! Thank you for your love and pain. I hope you are both happy.''

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I open my car and see the beautiful sunset. This is the place where Anne's birthday is celebrated. I want a place to think of as the flashback of those memories. I even pity myself for thinking about Landry. He was my best buddy, and it still hurts when I remember everything. The betrayal of the two important people in my life. A past that I hope was a nightmare. I even wish that I could give them the pain just for a moment, not to hurt them but to feel the pain they gave to me. Then suddenly, I realized what I would get from it. I just need to move on and forget everything, but not forgive. It really takes time to ignore, especially if the pain is still there. I am now in good condition. As my day passes, I am recovering from the pain of the past. Maybe this is just a phase where life shows me the reason for my moving. I decided that I knew who I would show it to if I fell in love again...