Lovers In The Morning

I slept all night in my bed with my husband Robert Luco and, he turned from me in the night and, we lay sleeping opposite ways. He loves me but, wanted his space. I love him and, Jesus my Lord and ,best friend. I love my husband but, Jesus first. In the morning I spend time with Jesus in the morning. Reading my Bible sometimes but also , praying and , listening to praise music. Yes Robert is my husband in this world. We spend time together our relationship grows a lot. I have only been married four years . We got married May 12, 2021 at the court house. We went on our honey moon to a hotel for a few days . Our time together was exiting and, it was precious. It was not like my relationship with my Father in Heaven. Jesus loves me unconditional. I believe on earth love is conditional unless it is love from a dog, or a cat, or some other pet. Sometimes I know my husband has pouting spells . We tend to argue a lot. I am only 24 and, he is 65 . He is set in his way. He likes to stand and ,stare at me when he wants something. I love setting on my bed to write or, use my tablet. My Robert just stands there looking a me by our dresser. I wonder why he's like that but, he has Borderline Personality Disorder. I think it's abuse but, I don't know I am youñg. I have to always pick up after him he drinks whiskey and , bottles are over the living room floor. Our house is always a little on the messy side. You see my husband's not saved. He needs to meet my lover in the morning. Jess really is my lover all the time. But, I spend my time in the morning with Jesus. I love him more then my husband . My husband has philio love for me but, Jesus has agape love for me. My husbànd is a Lawyer and, makes good money. He does not like going to work when he has a hangover but, he has too take Excedrin and , go to work. I work as a freelance writer from my home. I go to the Full Gospel Church and, if I can not wake my husband up to let him know I am leaving to go to church . I will go anyway and, let him sleep . On the weekends he is drunk anyways. I drive an old 1980 cavalier and, I don't want to go in debt for another car. I am trying to get my latest book published so, I have an income . Yes I do work for door dash part time so I can pay my publishing fees for my book to be published. My husband he drives a 2021 Jeep Cherokee to his job. He loves wasting his money all the time on eating out, expensive clothes,and he does buy me the best of everything. His drinking habit is really a waste of money. I do pay my tithes while he doesn't . I love Jesus and, he doesn't love Jesus. I am called to be a Singing Evangelist. I have to write but, I have a ministry also in my local church and, wherever the Lord wants me to go. I thank God my husband can afford this wonderful house we live in. Lawyers do live in nice homes, drive nice expensive cars ,and nice clothes. Money is my husbands God . My God. is Jesus . Sometimes maybe lawyers are like that Lawyer on Liar Liar but, he was funny when I watçhed that movie. I guess in real life there not that funny. If lawyers have to lie that I not funny. If I was a Lawyer I would be truthful always ,especially since I am a Christian. I did not mention yet but, we live in Colorado. We live in Whooton , Colorado.