Love or money

Where do I run to?

Mom what is the good news ? you are really in a happy mood I said to my mom and I must confess I am glad she is happy but why do I feel she is up to something that will change my life forever?

All our problems are gone she said, mom what are you saying, how and what did you do?? This woman, what has she gotten herself into? A Good Samaritan sent by God has made all this beautiful she said. when did this woman start believing in God, she is the same woman that have not been to church for ages because to her God has abandoned her and that is why she is suffering. I got to know from my mom that the Good Samaritan is Mr Avian and you can imagine the look on my face, why will she accept help from him, she knows I do not like that man and yet she is doing this to me, i know men they don’t do things without expectation and I’m sure he is expecting me to come thank him for buying back our home, he has all the money in the world to get any girl he wants and as much as I hate it, girls are on queue to get his attention but what does he want from me, I thought of what to do and I can’t call Vivian because she will be delighted just like my mom and push me towards him and Jake is the last person to call, I don’t want to put him under pressure. How can my mom accept such huge money from him and what for? According to her, the man is an angel, angel my foot, what sorts of angel go where he is not wanted? I can’t stand him, he can go spend his money on those that want his money, mom you better reject the house and tell him we don’t want his help. God forbid that I do such thing she said, what is with this woman with calling God today, she started praising Mr Avian and saying he is the best man for me and not Jake that is wasting my time, he makes me happy and if you don’t know he is the best for me and if you don’t stop this deal with Mr Avian I will run away with Jake, who was I fooling? I dare do no such thing, and I very well know that this woman is not the type to give in to threat but I dared to do that, I could not sleep all through the night I thought of what Jake will think if he ever find out that Mr Avian bought us our house back, I had told him about Mr Avian been after me but this is different and he will think I went to him for help, I thought to myself all night and the only way I could get out of this is to get the money and pay him back but how? So many dirty things I could do came to my mind even prostitution but just like my mom said ‘God forbid’ and no one need to tell me but I know I am helpless at this point and with no one to help me and this stupid ideal of going to talk to Mr Avian came to my mind, I need to tell him to leave me alone because I will never get to like him or even look at him as a man and maybe I can convince him to lend me the money as loan I will pay him back, I will make sure I do everything to pay him back but what will that be, will this man ever agree to that?? Why can’t he go and date one of those whores he sleeps with and leave me the hell alone, my mind was all over the place and frankly I didn’t know how I fell asleep. I woke up to my happy mom and surprisingly she was singing and making breakfast, what has Mr Avian done to my mom, when does she sing ?? Good morning mom? I said to her and she replied and continued making breakfast. Mom are you sure the house is the only thing Mr Avian paid for? She looked at me raising her eyebrows and with that I know not to test her, she is happy now and I won’t want to anger her.

After breakfast I decided to go visit Mr Avian and bargain with him if you can call it that, but I don’t even know where he lives.. I have no option than to call him. I reluctantly dialed his number and with that shameless husky voice of his he answered the phone, I didn’t waste time on the phone with him? I just need your address I need to talk to you and I was surprised he acted like he didn’t give a f**k about me.

I and Jake have a date today and I will have to tell him about this later, I don’t want him finding out from someone else and thinking I betrayed him, he is still my boyfriend and I will do anything for him and I won’t be leaving him for money,

I got ready and wore my black skinny jeans with a wrap top, I didn’t give attention to what I was wearing because I was only going there for a business deal and not to impress him, I packed my hair into ponytail and applied a little lipgloss, I can’t go there looking like my problem and with that I carried my bag, my mom is not aware of this and I hope she doesn’t find out.