Love or money

Why me

This woman won’t stop yelling and she won’t open the door and I got scared and I started banging at her door and she finally opened the door and I must say it hurt to see her in tears. My mom was in tears and it’s an unimaginable pain to see my strong woman the woman that has never cried in front on me crying like a baby. All I could do was hug her, mom what is wrong!!!! I said that like a million times and yet she said nothing and I continued hugging her and to be honest I didn’t know if it made her feel any better and then she said your uncle sold the house, she said it like a whisper that if I wasn’t paying attention I would not have heard her and all that came to my mind was the realization that we have become homeless, I have so many questions to ask her but I couldn’t bring my self to ask her in this situation and all I said was mom don’t worry we will survive and that is the truth we always end up surviving. My mom has been the only one there for me for the past 10 years. She and my dad met and fell in love during their teenage years and she got pregnant, they got married only because of me and their love relationship didn’t last before it turned into hate and after she had me she took up lots of mini jobs to support the family and my dad got lucky and they were able to save to get this house and after that my dad made a lot of money and started misbehaving and cheating and I can still remember them always arguing and it got to a point where my mom could no longer take it and that was when he got another woman pregnant and stopped supporting us and my mom still took all that in but he just have to run away with the woman living us just with the house and his brothers never cared about us and so how can he sell the only thing we have left and leave us on the street?? Where do we go from here and how do we survive, how do I achieve all my dream with no roof over our head, again which means more expenses, I can’t leave my mom to do all that, I have to get a another job that will support us both, I don’t care what I have to do but I will do all I can to help my mom, we stayed like that for like 30 minutes and she seem to have calmed down and so I asked her, mom how did uncle get the papers to the house to have sold it? Your dad sold the house to your uncle before he ran away with that woman, your uncle was just helping us all these years by letting us stay here but he need money now and so he must sell his property and then again another question came up in my head, mom who were you yelling at over the phone and I can see that it took her everything to say his name and she goes ‘ Mr James’ with that I knew that it was my dad because after he left he seized to be my father and even tho I am Heaven James there’s nothing between me and that man, mom how come you still have his contact, what did he say and did he deny it ??? I know this are a lot of questions but I needed answers. ‘NO’ she said but I was not hurt I just felt the last drop of love I had for him as my father just left me and all I have now is my mom and nothing matter at this point, not even Jake but my mom.

Mom got sober and she began making calls to all the people she think will lend us money but no one did and I can’t blame them everyone has issue , don’t strain too much mom we will find a way and what is that going to do for us she said, I know she is right, I can’t keep saying don’t worry when we have no house and no money and what am I going to do to help and with that I ran to my room to check my phone, had not checked my phone since the incident yesterday and I’m sure Jake must have called, I totally forgot I have a boyfriend and I was right I had several missed calls from him and I dialed his line straight and like always he didn’t take time before he picked up,

Baby what happened I have been calling, are you okay, did your mom do anything to you ???? Jake sounded so worried, No Baby ! I said and with that he calmed down, I waited for his to relax and then I said, we lost our home baby! I and mom just have a week to get a new place and he couldn’t believe his ears but that is my reality now, no money no home and he tried to encourage me as much as he could and I know he wish he can actually help out but I assured him we will be fine, I don’t want him worrying over me when he has a lot to worry over, we talked for a long time and he said he will take up extra jobs to help me out and with that I knew I have to start searching for a new job. I have to call Vivian and with that we ended the call, I called Vivian to inform her and the poor thing even offered that she will talk to her parent to let us stay at their place but I can’t be a bother to her so all I could say was that we will be fine but I don’t know how, my mom called her parent but they had refused to help us and that is all thanks to the way she married my dad, I mean after all these years they are still holding this grudge against her. First thing tomorrow is to go in search of a job, I do have a job but it doesn’t pay, I had hope to because a beauty Queen pageant title holder and a model and so I spend my time doing small side modeling but that has to stop, I need to get a real job and that starts tomorrow.

I have been out all day in search of a job but I’m yet to get a good offer? They only thing I got was a stupid call from Avian, Avian is a 31 years old man that won’t stop stooping low just to get me yes he has all the money and I have never been the type to care about age but the problem Is that I do not feel anything for him, I only have eyes for Jake, he called offering to help because he heard what happened to us, how does he always get this informations about me, is he spying on me? He will definitely help me if I ask that man will basically do anything to have me but I’m not willing to betray Jake and sell my soul, Mr Avian is the type of man one would say is a dream come true but for those looking for love but as for me I have found my love (Jake).

I came home to meet my mom in an exciting mood one will say happy mood.