The race that i could never win

I never wanted to stop myself with things I was doing feels good for me because it take me to anew level my imagination, my creation, my feeling I am saying this because we not use to meet daily we used to meet three to four times in a year not more than that because nobody knows about my love it was only my love I don"t know that the girls loves me or not but it"s a crush yeah except my sister because she was the one who can help me out so coming back to the story when I met her she was my mothers friends daughter and I used to meet 3 to 4 times in a year because of some special occasions like my birthday, my mother birthday, my father birthday and my mother father anniversary not more than that. Earlier we used to not talk so much I was busy with my brother a nd sister and she was busy with her stuff but this year was something new to me or something different for me it"s my birthday when is saw her. I was going towards room and said hi yes this is how gentleman meet and I moved on I went in the room and got busy in my work. So after the cake cutting was done I was holding a plate with some foodstuff and came and sit on my couch she was sitting there with her mum and my mum and her mum said happy birthday and she also said bso like this conversation started then we talked about our school, classes and much more and the whole night we spend like this it was near by 11:00 clock when she left the home and proceed to her home and it was not like that how I used to feel at every year we will meet but this time it was special whole night I was thinking about her and you know the next morning I finally fall in love so i just call my sister and told everything and she was ok I"m going to help you but I don"t know that she loves me or not because loving someone who doesn"t love is like waiting for a ship in airport so all the everything about her and in wait for the next event to come like this 2 month past and a mother birthday come so we had same procedure she reached my home and I was thinking that she going to come and talk to me but what is see she didn"t looked at me so as being a friendly boy I just gone there and said hi she also said hi and moved on what the hell I told this to my sister and she gone to her and started conversation and tried to include me but every plan was going fail that day I was too sad don"t think anything my mum used tell me that when I was in nursery she use to study with me in my class at courage International School but I don"t remember anything I went to my room I"m gone for sleep next day I wake up I was too sad and gone to school everyone was asking me that what happened to me but except my sister nobody knows I was so deep in love with music also that it made my thinking change because believe me I was a day dreamer I used to be in my world that world where everything goes according to me but this one not the reality I used to be a gentleman in front of her but in reality I was an i***t. Whenever I try to talk her on my mum birthday she just speak the point words and move on I thought that she doesn"t want to talk to me or something else I don"t know but yes next time I"m going to make up probably a good time for me and for her it is the first chapter of the story and I will be coming back with the second chapter soon