In love with a bad neighbor

Chapter eighteen - Benefits

Vince's POV:

For the last week, Emma has been different. I am not talking only about the way she is looking at me. No matter what we do, it feels like she wants more of it. It's like she doesn't want to stay away from me. It's not like I mind. I like spending time with her. Otherwise, she will be with Ricky, and I can't let this happen. Maybe something was going on with her, but when I asked her, she didn't tell me. I guess that she doesn't know either. Now, we spend more time together, but we continue hiding. I'm sure that, soon or not, everyone will understand. I only hope that she won't get grounded for this. I don't want to see the jerk every day in her house. Well, I can try to stop him, but I risk Emma getting in bigger trouble. First, I need to understand what is going on with her. It's not like I don't get my benefits. To be honest, they got even more. During the last week, we have spent more time together than in the two weeks before this one. As much as I like this, I don't want to give her high hopes. I might have stuck to her for now, but I am still a user. A girl like her doesn't deserve heartbreak. I won't lie that I was thinking about staying away from her and telling her to find a real boy who would take care of her, but I wasn't sure how she would react to that. I don't want her to think that she has done something bad because it's not true. Emma is the most amazing girl I have ever met, and I would love to spend more time with her, even as her friend. There is a chance that I am falling for her, but I don't think that that's true.

I woke up and looked at my phone. It was too early for school. Moreover, today is Friday, so I can sleep late. I know that Emma will wait for me so I can't be late. If I have to be honest, I would love to sleep for two more hours, but I don't have this time. I got up and looked through the window. Her curtains were down, which meant that she was still sleeping. I would love to go to her room, but I can't. The window is closed. In that case, I can get ready for the day.

I changed myself and went for breakfast. My parents are probably still sleeping. I won't wake them. When I was done, I walked back into my room. I decided to surprise Emma. I saw that her window was open and used the chance. Let's hope that no one will see me. I hid in her wardrobe and waited for her. She was in the bathroom, but soon she would come to get her clothes for the day. After not more than five minutes, she came.

- Hey.

- Aggh! What are you doing here?

- I came to see you.

- And you couldn't tell me. What if someone has come?

- Well, if you don't lock the door, this might happen.

- I hate you. - she said and locked the door

- I love myself too.

- Will you tell me the real reason why you are here?

- I did it. I just came to see you. Can I get a kiss now?

- Seriously? No, you can't.

- Why?

- Because you scared me.

- Please. I won't do that again. I promise.

- Fine, but only one.

- Ok, only one.

I pulled her close and kissed her. Emma was quick to wrap my hands around her. I get so many benefits from her. I know that she will get weak again, so I will use the chance to get something from her. Soon, I carefully lifted her and put her on the bed. I will never get tired of her. This time it felt different. It's like she is trying to put everything in that kiss as if it will be her last one. I don't know what is going on with her, but the difference is visible. At least for me. Maybe something has happened about which she didn't tell me. I don't know. After ten minutes, I pulled away and looked at her. She was looking the same way as yesterday.

- Emma, are you ok?

- What?

- Will you tell me what is going on with you?

- Nothing.

- It's visible that something is going on. I won't tell anyone.

- I need to get ready.

- Ok, I will wait for you at the end of the street as usual.

I walked out of her room and got my backpack. I don't think that she will tell me the real reason. I walked out and waited for her. Soon she came. During the walk to school, no one was talking. I thought that she would tell me something, but no. I guess that I'll never understand. Maybe that is better. If it's something bad, I prefer not to know. No matter that I want to help her. I hope that this is nothing connected with Ricky. I hate this boy, and I want him to stay away from her.

We arrived at school, and Emma walked to her locker. Luckily, mine is close to hers, so I can see her. I would like to continue our conversation from the morning, but I don't think that now is the right time. When she feels ready, she will tell me. Meanwhile, I might occupy myself with something or someone else. I saw a girl and walked to her.

- Hello. Can I know your name, princess?

- My name is taken.

- Are you sure? I can make you single again.

- Do this, and I will break you.

I turned around and saw a boy. Damn it! I hope that I'm not in trouble. I looked up but saw that Emma had walked away. Did she get mad at me? I didn't do anything wrong. We are not dating. I know that we do many things together, but I thought that she wouldn't get upset anymore. Maybe it's better if we stay away from each other. After all, even if we have a relationship, I know that it's impossible. Not with all the things that are happening to Emma. I don't want to hide, but I don't have another option.

I walked to class and sat next to her. She refused to look at me, but I saw the pain in her eyes. I feel bad now. I still don't understand why she is getting upset. I am not her boyfriend. Maybe she wishes that I was. Why am I always hurting her? I feel like I need to spend time only with her. If it's with someone else, she will get upset again.

After this class, Emma and I walked to our lockers. I tried to talk with her, but she didn't let me. I think that she is mad at me. I messed up again.

- Emma, why are you mad at me? We are not dating and you know it.

- I'm not mad at you. I just want to know what is going on with me.

- Then why did you go away when I was with that girl?

- I didn't. I went to the bathroom and later to class.

- Let's say that I believe you.

Until the end of the classes, we kept talking. I still think that Emma didn't tell me the truth, but I won't keep asking her. I walked home and went into my room. My neighbor walked into hers and laid on the bed. It's visible that she is confused, but I don't know how to help her. I kept looking at her until she noticed me. Emma came to her window and opened it.

- Hey, are you ok?

- Not really. I am worried about you.

- Why?

- Because lately, you are different. I want to help you, but I don't know how to do it.

- I will be fine. You don't have to worry about me.

- How I am not supposed to when you look upset.

- I am fine. By the way, can I come in? My parents are not at home, so there is no chance that someone will come to search for me.

- Sure. You are always welcome.

- Thanks. I will lock the door. Just in case.

Emma did it and came into my room. She got used to the window, and now she is doing it without any problem. My neighbor looked happy. I wonder what is going on inside her head. She sat on my lap and kissed me. Now I know why she is here. It's not like I mind. I haven't kissed another girl since I came here, so she is still my favorite. Well, except for one girl whose name I don't know. I didn't like it, so I put it in the bag with no important memories. Emma pulled away and looked at me.

- Do you feel better now?

- No.

- Why?

- Because it wasn't enough.

- Well, in that case...

She didn't say anything else and kissed me again. I know that it looks like I am playing with her, but I can't stop. I don't want to do it. For the first time, I feel good when a girl is around. I carefully lifted her and put her on my bed. To be honest, I thought that she might pull away, but no. I decided to do something different. I pulled off my shirt and looked at her. She didn't say anything and only licked her lips. This was enough for me. We made out for a while. Soon I decided to pull away. Otherwise, I might go further and I don't want this to happen. I laid next to her, and she looked at me.

- What?

- Nothing. - she said and smiled

- What is the smile for?

- For you.

- Oh, thank you.

- You're welcome.

If she keeps looking at me like that, I might start round two. I have to control myself, but with her, it's impossible. Why do I have the feeling that she is doing this on purpose? I didn't do anything and only pulled her for a hug. She rested her head on my chest and closed her eyes. As I see, Emma might fall asleep soon. I looked at her and saw how a tear just rolled down her cheek. What happened? She was in a good mood a minute ago. I kissed the top of her head and saw a small smile. This time, a sad one.

- Emma, are you ok? What happened?

- Nothing. I just thought of something.

- Hey, come here. - I said, and she moved her head on the other pillow

- What?

- Everything will be ok. I promise you.

- I know. Not many people know how to make someone's day better.

- That's why I am here. You can share with me everything.

- Vince?

- Yes.

- Thank you. For everything.

- For you always.

- Can I know why you are so nice to me?

- Because you are nice to me.

- For real? I think that it's because you are getting benefits.

- What? No... I just...

- Don't worry. I'm not mad.

- Thank you, and I'm sorry.

- It's ok. I can't expect something else from a bad boy.

- At least you admit it.

- What?

- That I am a bad boy.

- Well, you are not a real one, but I know that you like people to call you like that.

- I do.

Emma and I talked for a while. Later, she had to go back to her room. Her parents will come home from work and she must be there. Otherwise, they will start searching for her. Like she is a kid. From time to time, she came to her window to check on me. I have to say that going against her mom is making her a bad girl, but I don't want to change her. What we have to do is to make sure that she won't catch us. I don't want to stop seeing Emma. It's not only because of the benefits. I just like spending time with her and I feel good when she is around. Let's hope that nothing bad will happen and we can continue seeing each other.