One more Chance to love me right

Emily's POV “I love him and that's all that matters” I said softly but firmly. I gave a glance at my mother who seemed not to sit well with my decision. Her look was fierce but she tried hard to condone my silly behavior. “ I don't ever want to hear that again from you” said my father who has been standing by the door hearing my silly discussion with my mum. I stood up immediately trying to walk away but before I could take a step, his fingers were already pointing at me as he wore an angry look, “You are not walking away from me, are you?” he screwed up his face. I took two steps back and sat right where I was seated. “It is not my fault I got attracted to an older man” I muttered. My name is Emily Thompson and I don't ever regret getting attracted to an older man. I am the only child of my Father Julian Thompson and my mum Susan Thompson. I have dated younger guys slightly older than I am, and they are a whole lot of s**t. I quietly went into my room after my discussion with mum which almost didn't end so well when Dad interrupted. I had to stay calm for some minutes before quietly heading to my room so it won't be tagged disrespectful. I lay on my bed uncertain about my decision. I wasn't sure if I was doing the right thing. But then, how can I blame myself? I dated these two guys both with a two to three years age gap and my heart got broken twice. At this point, I knew I was done with young dudes and their shits. I don't care what society thinks or says. Lucas, my first boyfriend abused me numerous times then gets me back with gifts and money and of course s*x which I find so difficult to enjoy because he has never made me wet. Although I loved him. It's not my fault, I have tried to enjoy making out with him but I can't seem to find what the problem was exactly: His fault or mine?. This cycle has repeated severally in my relationship with Lucas and I was almost getting used to it. He knew my family wasn't financially buoyant and could get me with money and gifts anytime he wanted because he was a spoiled brat from a rich family who had no home training and respect for women. My relationship with Lucas ended after I confronted him for always flirting with numerous girls and before I could finish my statement, I felt a hit on my neck, I remembered I got myself on the floor and suddenly, everything went blank. *** I managed to get my eyes opened, my eyelids dropped, I had little or no strength only to discover myself in a strange environment and a string being connected to my hands. I was on a drip. I managed to widen my eyes and I sighted Julia who was already fidgeting. “No way! He wouldn't get away with this! I will make sure I get him arrested this time around” I heard my best friend Julia agitate. “ She had some internal injuries and the bruises on her neck would take some time to heal with some medication and proper nutrition” I heard the doctor say. It was brought to my notice that Lucas dumped me at the hospital bed and reached out to my friend Julia to come over and he zoomed off. Lucas was arrested and that was the end of our relationship. My Family didn't know all these while that I was in an abusive relationship because I wasn't close to home. I lived in my school hostel because the distance from my house to school was much. So I kept my relationship hidden. *** “Listen, you need to cheer up, okay, that bastard doesn't deserve you” Julia said furiously, it's three months now and you need to move on. I have a party I was invited for tonight and you are coming with me” she said excitedly giving me a cheering look. I agreed to attend the party with Julia and that was where I met my second boyfriend Alex. I have been with Alex for six months and he wasn't abusive like Lucas, but one thing was common, none of them could make my p***y wet. Alex who has paid attention to this, had complained but always gets lubricants for us during love making unlike Lucas who never did, probably because he f*cks many bitches…a cheat and a monster. It's a week to my birthday and Alex had thrown a better surprise party for me which he planned with my best friend Julia. *** Surprise!!!! The crowd exclaimed as Alex pulled the blindfold from my eye. It was our apartment, beautifully decorated with a nice ambience, I couldn't recognize it was Alex's sitting room. My cake was set at the center of the room with wines and drinks added to it. “Oh my God! How did you manage to put all of these together baby?” I turned to him, already emotional with tears, “well all thanks to Julia, she helped me plan….” He said, I gave him a tight hug before he could complete his statement with tears rolling uncontrollably from my eyes. I proceeded to hug Julia as well. I thought I was about to have the best birthday of my life not knowing it was about to be ruined. “Let the party begin!” Alex exclaimed, after I had cut my cake. Drinks and food were distributed. The party room got crowded as they began to dance and rock. I couldn't locate Julia nor Alex after some minutes from the crowd and it got me worried. I went further in search of Alex in our room only to hear some strange voices. Oh it was moaning, but who could that be? “Your p***y is so wet b***h! I haven't f****d on a wet p***y for months, now c*m for me” I overheard Alex as he moaned. “Who could have had access to the room if not Alex?.” I lost control, clenching my fists, my lips were trembling at this point, my heart was beating so fast as sweat gushed out from my armpits and saturated every part of my body. Who could be this b***h Alex is gushing after! I used my last strength to break the door open…. “Julia!” My eyes widened, seeing Julia naked at my boyfriend's bed, spreading her legs as he thrust inside her while she moaned, the pace seized as they sighted my presence .They panicked and were left dumbfounded at the position in which I saw them. Alex cheated on me with Julia, my best friend on my birthday. How can I explain this?. I ran out with tears in my eyes, which caught everyone’s attention. I could hear them mumbling what I could have seen that made me react this way. I took my things and left. I was done! I knew I was done with younger guys. I saw the signs but I ignored them. How can I explain that my p***y has never dripped for them?. I can't take all of their shits. My friendship with Julia also ended because I can't deal with betrayers as friends. I left the party room and headed to my hostel at 3am. I knew it was lonely, rainy and could be dangerous but I didn't care. The only thing flashing at my head was the dirty scenario I walked into. I walked down the lonely and rainy path leading to my hostel, not bothered about the rain absorbing my dress and pouring down my body wetting me up in a way my two exes could never. Immediately, a stranger offered a ride. I hopped in and didn't care neither did I say anything till he dropped me. He drove one of the expensive cars in town, he looked so rich but I didn't care. He didn't bother to say a word to me as well, and guess what? I still didn't care.