The Once Rejected Luna

Blackout

Darkness. It consumed me the second I saw Theon laying on his office floor. I felt myself being ripped back and Verena pushing herself forward. After that it’s just darkness.

All I could hear is mumbles just outside, then a force tucking me deeper into my mind. I curled up into a small ball.

I just wanted to stay in this darkness forever and never come out. How could I let this happen? What if I lose Theon? What ifs filled my mind and I felt the darkness getting heavier and heavier. I wasn’t ready to be luna if I couldn’t even protect my mate. How was I suppose to protect my whole pack? Tears streamed down my face as I felt depression and anxiety consuming me whole. The further I slipped into the darkness the further I would be from surfacing.

Memories that Theon and I created flashed before my eyes. I didn’t know if he was okay or even if he was alive.

I remember the first night I laid my eyes on Theon. We danced through the night and I knew that I wanted to always be near this man. Not because of the mate bond but because of something more. He had my whole heart and all my love in just one night as if I was meant to be rejected by my first mate.

The day I ran away with him and escaped to my new pack was the greatest day. His beautiful wolf running besides mine. It was like out of a dream and now I feel like I’ll never have that dream back.

I could hear someone calling my name but it wasn’t Theon and with that I curled up further in my mind. I just wanted my love. I just wanted my Theon. My heart was breaking on the inside. I know I had to pull myself out and be there for my pack but without my mate I could lose myself.

The voice that called out to me, called out again. It sounded like Verena but it was too muffled for me to hear so I curled up and allowed the depression to continue to consume me.

I felt a warmth hit my back but I slid away from it. I didn’t want this warmth. I wanted my mates. I wanted Theon’s warmth. I know I sounded like a small child and I hated myself for it but what was I suppose to do? Images of Theon laying on the ground bruised and beaten flooded my mind in an instant. The warmth became fate.

Then I felt a warm hand gently rub my back as a I curled up more. “Jade, you can’t blame yourself” The voice was soft and I knew in a instant that is was the moon goddess herself. I looked up at her “but my mate..” she hushed me softly and helped me sit up. “I know, but I promise he is fine. He’ll make it through this but I need you to come back.” I nodded “I know moon goddess.” I took a deep breath as I reached out for Verena. With ease she answered. “Jade, are you okay?” I was quiet for a second but then answered. “Yea, thank you for taking over Verena, I just..” she cut me off “Jade please, don’t thank me. I’m always here for you and I always will be.”

I felt myself being pulled back from the darkness and pushed into the light as I looked around at my surroundings. Laying on the medical bed was my love. He was hooked up to a machine go monitor his heart rate but Verena filled me in that he’s going to be okay. He does have a few fractures but he’ll recover.

I felt relief wash over me but I also felt like I was still go blame. I should of been there with him. I slowly reached for his hand and held it in mine. Theon stirred a bit as I saw him open his eyes slowly. He looked at me for a second then around at the room. I looked at him and softly spoke “Theon?” He groaned softly as he tried to sit up. “What happened?”

I knew if I told him two things could happen: one, he gets super angry and storms out or two, he freaks out.

I knew I had to be straight with him and quickly told Knox to be on stand by through the mind link. “Well my love, you got knocked out by Mark. I got worried when you didn’t come back to the room so I went looking for you.” I swallowed hard as I watched him process what I’m telling him. “I freaked out when I saw you laying on the ground and that was all I remember. Verena still hasn’t filled me in on everything because she ended up taking over.” He gently squeezed my hand and I looked up at him. “Do we know.” I cut him off. “No my love, we don’t know how or if someone let him break into our pack lands let alone or home.”

I could see him battling with his wolf to keep control. I didn’t want him to get up yet and I was wanting him to rest. “My love please.. just rest for right now. I was already worried to begin with please don’t make me worry more.” I knew he could hear the destress in my voice and he nodded as he settled back down. He pulled me onto the bed with him and we curled up there together. His hands softly rubbing my back as I nestled my face into his neck. I just wanted to stay like this, I was happy he was okay. I was happy that I didn’t lose love or myself. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I lost him.

We must have been like that for hours, the pack doctor knocked on the door and Theon told him to enter. “Alpha I’m glad you are awake. You are healing very well and I couldn’t be happier with your progress. It helps that your mate is here with you as mates help with healing progresses.” He filled through his chart. “You had a few fractures ribs and it seemed that they just wanted to cause anger not death.” Theon was taking all of this in and I was looking up at him. “Thank you doc.” The pack doctor smiled “you should be good to be released with a few moments, but please rest for the rest of the night.” Theon nodded and I knew he didn’t want to just lay around and wait, but he was going to. I just wanted to lay with my mate and be in peace for the rest of the night.

After being released, we returned to our home. He took me to his office and looked around for something. He seemed to find what he was looking for and came over to me. “My love, this is what I was coming in here for before I was attacked. He held the box out to me as I took it into my hands. Opening it, inside was a beautiful silver necklace with a heart pennant. I looked up at him in shock and he smiled at me. Opening the pennant there was a picture of us. I was smiling at the camera and Theon was smiling at me as if I was the most beautiful thing in front of him. My heart was filled with so much joy. He helped me put the necklace on and we returned to our room to enjoy the rest of our night together. Tomorrow we’ll have to find answers and I’ll have to put some pieces together about what happened after I blacked out.