Ahora

New York, US.     “Maybe this is the curse for me” I talking with my self in front of the big mirror, I watch reflection my whole body, I play with my brown long hair, I still wearing my pajama, it is 8 AM, so I need looking for job, I lost my job a month ago and until present I don’t get job yet, so annoying, then I broke up with my ex boyfriend, a lot of problem in my life, I thought.    I take a deep breath, going to bathroom to take a shower, at least I still have saving money in my account bank, I was working at construction company, so good for making money, a lot of people think like that, and I was enjoyed too.   “Want join to the party tonight?” I saw message from Sam, my best friend, he is so kind, half Germany and half Spain, I love him like my brother, we stay together, I think it is a good idea, otherwise no party for me for long time.   “Okay” I replay his message, I click send to him.   “I thought you still sleep” I going to Sam room, and saw him already busy with his macbook, he is work in creative design for some bar.   “Hey, morning beautiful, no I have some work to do”.   “I know, don’t teasing, want coffee?” I say.   “I already making coffee for you, you late” Sam look at me and smile, he close his macbook then come to me, and bring one cup of coffee for me.   “Oh whoa, why so nice today?” I teasing to him, he is so rarely being nice as well like making the coffee or cooking for food, but I thought he have something in his mind for me, it’s rare, LOL.    “Oh my, come on haha, I am a nice guy right, you know me”.   “I know, tired to negotiate with you, tell me what you want cookies” always call him cookies, because he is so great for it haha.   “I need you to write some document, if you don’t mind” .   “I knew it, give me the detail, I will do it FOR YOU” he was laughing when I talked.   he’s going to take everything I need to do, it’s ok for me, because no work for me so better it make me busy for the day, then I do, some contract for a bar I saw.   “You will open the Bar?” I asking after I learning about the document. “Yes, but I’m still thinking, that why tonight I want you going with me going to the party and meet with my friends there” I nodded my head.   “Ahhh okay I get it, so you have meeting this afternoon?”.   “Not today, just working here, and then we go at 9 tonight”.   “Okay then, I will finish this document” I talking then listen the bell door ring,    “Someone’s coming?” I ask Sam.   “I think yes, let me check” he is going to the door and open the door,  I saw him talking with the people who is in front the door, I think that’s friend of him, I just enjoy with my things.    “Blair, it’s for you” he is bring some big box, I don’t know what is it, I was confused I think I never buy online shop or something.   “What is it?” I asked to Sam, shrugged his shoulders, then go to his room, he leave me at living room, I open the box, can’t wait to see what inside.   ---I hope you like it, good luck for your new novel, Love You, Adam--- Adam give me a present Macbook Pro Max the new one, Oh My God, I think it’s too much for me, sometimes I work on publisher also like I writing a novel but it’s just the part time for me, Adam is my ex boyfriend but we had a long distance relationship, but we always still keep talking, after three weeks I was broke up with my boyfriend he is Mexican guy, and he is so cool, I can’t move on from him, I swear.  I smile when I look at the Macbook then I get my Iphone, and I text Adam,    -Hey, thank you for the Macbook, I know I need this but you no need to give me, it’s too much for me, but thank you- I send the message to him.    -Oh Beautiful, no, you need it I love to give you anything you need, please with my pleasure, I love to seeing you happy- he reply my message directly.   -Well, I need work as well, and you know what I need, love you tho babe- yeah, I know, we broke up already but I think he gonna fixed our relationship, but we never meet almost three years ago, he is Pilot of Air Force, but my feel with him is different, I love him but I can’t have a good feeling like we first meet, he give me a good attention, but I really don’t know how to figured the way to love him again, so as long he give me the good attention I will love to do it.    -I will fly soon, we talk again soon-.   -Okay, enjoy the flight- just like that, we never talking to much but he always give me anything, he was so busy of work that why we can’t meet and we get lost each other then broke up. I continue my job from Sam a while I try a new Macbook.    ****   “Ready to go?” Sam come to my room, checking on me, I just finish my make up, wearing the black short dress, put minimal make up on my face, put my feet inside the high heels, squirt the Chanel Perfume, I let my loose hair, wait, I touch up the lip mate on my lips, nude color is good for me tonight.    “Yes, are you?” I saw Sam, he always looking nice and perfect, his fragrance always smell so good.   “As you look, always ready, let’s go” I got my pouch and Iphone, we going to our car, Sam have the black SUV, he is seems so ready to meeting, I hope everything will be good to him.    We go inside the car, he drive the car, I check on my Iphone, sometimes Adam text me but I think he is busy that time, so I turn off my Iphone, I text Adam.    -I going with Sam for meeting- I click send, he didn’t answer, so I put my Iphone inside my LV pouch.    ---     We arrive to the bar where we want meet Sam’s friends, the bar so crowded with people who love with party, I was thought why Sam want meeting in this place, is so f****d up, so loud.    “Mr. Sam? Mr. Steven already waiting you all at the room” oh they have room meeting at this bar, I was talking with my self, I looking around, and I follow Sam and the waitress, Sam looking perfect with his black shirt, short hair, and his body so perfect, I think some girl looking at him, he is handsome guy.    “Thank you” I talk with the waitress when they open the room for us, someone inside already waiting for us, ah the room looking so big, and there is doesn’t look like a bar, totally look like a normal office, so I sit down beside Sam, and Sam introduce me for Steven,    “Steven, she’s Blair, She’s my friend, she was helping me for making the contract” I smile to  him and I extend my hand to Steven.   “Ah Blair, nice to meet you, I hope you enjoy to here” I smile again,   “Yes Steven, nice to meet you too, thank you” so I let them talking, and I just silent because I don’t know what they talking about exactly.    “Sam, might I can go outside and sitting on there, a while I waiting you talking with Steven?” I whisper to Sam, because I already feel bored in that room.    “Okay, sure, sorry I will join with you soon” so I leave them, and the bell boy open the door,    I looking around, some waitress bring me to the table, I think they already know me, and they’re so nice with me, they give me like a big table probably that’s a for VIP guess, I smile to him,    “Thank you, could you give me one negroni please?” I order some cocktail then, a while I enjoy the music from the bar,    “Okay miss” the waitress left, and 5 minutes he come back with one glass of negroni cocktail, I drink it and enjoyed the music.    “Hey, sorry for waiting” Sam come back to me, he bring a drink on his hand, and he sit beside me.   “You like this place?”    “Not bad, you will have job with the owner of this bar?”    “Yes, I just try, if this job is good so I will be rich haha” he laughing, I laughing too, I suddenly surprise, some girl come, oh yeah she is Sam ex girlfriend lol, I reflect slap his leg,    “Look at that, who is coming” I teas him,    “f**k off, Blair, better you don’t tell me, I don’t want to see her”   “Why, she is your ex doo, why you do that, hahha go say hallo to her” I teasing again, and he seems like doesn’t like, and some guy come again.    Oh my, I look at guy, he is so gorgeous, sudden my heart is like jumping, his face so f*****g hot, he’s not to tall, his hair is black, so black, his face so cute, he wearing the white shirt, he let the button is open and he show his chest, omg it’s so cute, I look at him, he look at me too, and oh my no, no.   “Hey bro, how are you?” his come to Sam, he is friend of sam!!!! No way, I just smile to him and keep silent, try to control my self, don’t want looking so crazy, because he is so f*****g perfect for me, I never feel like this for entire my life.    “I’m good bro” I looking at them, but he going, but I just keep silent and don’t ask Sam who is him, I just enjoy my drink, but my eyes always focus on him, Sam looking so busy with his iphone, I know he have girlfriend.    I can’t keep my wondering about him then,    “Is he your friend?” which one, he still busy with that Iphone a while he talking to me,    “The guy with white shirt” i whisper, I pointed  at the guy.   “Why, you like him?” I nodded my head, and I was shy after I nodded.    “OMG Blair, finally haha, wait”   “No, no, please”    “Hey bro” What the f*****g hell is going on here, I saw Sam talking with him, and,    “Hey” OMG, that guy come to me, he smell so good, f**k, he beside me right now, and my blood inside me flow so fast, my heart beat also, but I still looking so cool, I tried.    Don’t act like a foolish Blair, he is so gorgeous for you, stop it. My mind talking to me, and I still need o control my self, I feel my cheek so insensitive.    “Hey, how are you” Oh no, I don’t know what I should say, I so fool for it,    ‘I’m good thanks, what’s your name?”   “Oh I’m Blair, nice to meet you, what’s your name?” I know I act like a fool girl then, I’m so shy, f**k Sam, I cursed in my heart to Sam, Sam looking smile and teasing to me, but I’m happy too.    “I’m Nick, nice to meet you too”    “You want drink?” because I don’t know what I want to talk, and yeah I just asking for drink,    “Ah yeah, I want a beer” the reflex I call the waiters to ask for a beer,  then he come with the beer, we not talking too much,    “This my card” I pay for the drink then.    “Hey, I will give you the money for a beer” Nick tell me,   “No it’s okay, I already pay for it”   “Thank you”    “Your welcome” then Sam call me,    “We have to go, someone wait me at house”  Oh my Sam!, can’t you let me be happy just that night, I just meet the nice guy and you want me to go home.    “Come on, we have to go” he ask.   “Bro, we need to go” and Nick look at me,  ohhh his smile so incredible, I feeling different when I meet him,    he hug me then, oh my, I love to hug him, I feeling so hungry of him.    “See you around” he yelling to me.    I just walking away follow Sam go to his car, “OMG Sam, I like him so much, I swear, I never feel like this, I so craving to him”   “You like him? Since when? You don’t know him?”    “NOOOO, I don’t know, I see him when he come inside and you talking with him, and I feel my heart want jump outside, you know his face so cute” then Sam is laughing so loud in the car,    “Then you can found him on my i********:, you know his name, and you can text him” oh no, I never text a guy for chase a guy, not me.    “I know you will not do that, but I only that what I know, you can follow him on i********: and you can text him there” I thinking.    “Thank you for your information” I just silent, and still thinking of him, Sam focus to driving,    “Who is want to meet you actually”    “Well, nothing” the I punch him,   “Soooo, why you want we go, too soon b***h!!!”    “I don’t want look at her face”   “You mean Christina? Come on, you guys already broke up, why you still hate her?”   “She is so crazy girl, I don’t want”    “Okay, I know, but she loved you”    “That why, I don’t want, she is so over protective, and it will be not good for me or for us, otherwise I have girlfriend now, so better I avoiding”    “Yeah, I understand, but you know, I still thinking about Nick” I’m so shy, after three weeks I feel broken and no have passion of other guys, now I feel I have different feel with Nick, he is so cute and so manly for me, I don’t know.    “Don’t over please, I know you, let’s found him at i********: b***h”    “I do” but I still not ready yet,    “He is the owner from the Santorini Restaurant here” WHAT????! No why.   “Really????”    “Yeah, open his i********: then you can see there” I turn on my Iphone, I try to find his name there, oh God, his photo make me so crazy, he is so hot, but now I feel so bad, I don’t know, I don’t want chase him because he is the owner of the famous restaurant in New York.    “But Sam”    “Just say hello, I know you don’t want and hesitate because who is he, he just broke up too with his girlfriend”   “Really? Same as me then” I focus on the street, looking around, but suddenly I thinking about Liam, my ex.  Yes he is, I broke up with Liam, well, he is a nice guy, and I was so love with him, he treat me like a lady not a girl, but he was cheating on me, he sleep with other girl and I saw it with my eyes, we finish with all negotiation, so we’ve done, I can’t move on really soon, but I think I feel something different tonight, when I saw Nick at the bar.    “You think he will interest with me?” I ask Sam again, Sam look at me, and he smile almost laughing, I saw his teeth, I love to seeing him smile, like a cookies.   “Just text him then” okay then, I text him on direct message,    ---Hey--- I send a message to Nick, takes time, and I waiting.    “I think he is so cute”    “I know, just try to found him” I was imagine, my dirty things, how feel if I sleep with that guy, oh may, my head so dirty then, I laughing with my self.    “You think I can sleep with him? Hahhaa” we both laughing, so loud in the car, he slap me on my leg,   “Don’t be stupid b***h, don’t act you like a w***e then, I hope”    “Oh no,no, I swear no Sam hahahaa, but OMG look at this, he is so cute, sexy, I can’t keep this feeling”   “Don’t have more feeling with him please”    “Why? No I mean, I know, I will not put my feeling on him, otherwise he just broke up tho, but oh my God, I feeling something to him” I so exited talking about him, and I don’t know.    ---Hey,  thank you for a beer--- oh he is reply my text, and yeah, I buy him a beer, and I don’t know who is he, I think, maybe better I don’t know who is him, because I don’t want he think I just want take advantage from him,    “Sam, his reply my text, oh, what should I do then?” I’m so shy, i swear, this is first time I feel so exited and want to be with a cute guy, yeah it is, he is so cute, for me he is so perfect, and oh, no, my dirty think always playing on mind.    “Reply what you want say to him” Sam talk, we arrived, Sam take a position for park the car, I go out a while  I saw his text.    ---Anytime, you back home after?--- oh , look, might this a fool asking to him, because I don’t know what I want talking. He just read my text and no reply then.   I go to my room, take a quick shower and ready for my lovely bed, i thinking about him, i act like a child, like a crazy stalker, i don't care about his ex girlfriend, i think it is what it is, and i just want him, stay for me on my bed, oh yeah, i swear to my entire life, i never craving to guy like this, my feeling so crazy and Nick's make me so crazy on mind, is not about everything he have, not about his money, his empire, and his life, i onlu want him to be with me on my bed.  i feeling exhausted then, i was drink negroni cocktail, feel my body broke, my eyes feels so sleepy, i fall sleep after.