The rejected wolf

chapter 12

claire's pov

     why is this happening. I never thought that I would  return to that place in my life.  I don't understand why I have to go  back to place that caused me all my pain. I would never in a  hundred years imagine that I would help them. I don't want to go and help them the would die for all I care. No actually i'm not heartless like them. I wanna help them but do I really have to be there. They say i'm the best but  I can't even focus on making this stupid sandwich. 

        I know for a fact i'm not the only one overthinking their decision. I can hear lucas from the kitchen. I feel like  he forgets that one of my stupid powers is telepathy . I can control over when I want to read peoples minds but its still hard to. It especially hard when the person is really emotional or is overthinking on something . Clearly lucas is both. Usually if  I focus enough I can stop listening on but luna wont let me.

"well I need to hear what mate is so stressed out about"

"why don't you just ask him"

"did you forget that your ignoring him...and denying him s*x"

"right I forgot about that" luna growls at me

"really you forgot.You know your not only making him  suffer your also making me suffer"

"calm down you horny wolf"

"that's the problem I cant  calm down"

why did I get stuck with a horny wolf that doesn't know what privacy is. 

"you know what i'm just gonna block you that way I don't have to hear his thoughts"

"your missing-"

gosh finally some peace and quiet. I don't wanna know what hes thinking. luna loves to spy on people. She loves to blackmail people. Sometimes she can be a little b***h sometimes. I only use it when the person is ok with it or when I know they are lying. Sometimes I don't even mean to do it it just happens. Plus lucas is suffering enough and I don't want to invade his privacy.What if he doesn't want me too know what hes thinking. What if he needs help. I could help him or what if...Shit luna has me curious know.  I will not invade his privacy. Plus I need to think of a way to get back at max. 

just wait maxy your next in this revenge plot  he doesn't just get away from me without anything happening. You know what I think im just gonna do the same thing im doing to lucas. He sometimes forgets that his mate ava is my best friend. He should really watch his back. Or more like enjoy his time with his mate. He not going to have that for much longer. I wasn't gonna go so hard on him but he was laughing at lucas's situation and know I have to do the same to him.  Nobody makes fun of my mate and gets away from it. I'm the only one that gets to  makes fun of him.  Wow that sounded a bit possessive. 

i'm a little possessive and sometimes a little controlling but  I love lucas with all my heart. I just don't want anything to happen to him. I know that hes scared that i'll leave him for ace. I don't need to read his mind to know that hes worried about it. I know that he trusts me and he knows that I won't  ever leave him but I understand him. I have the same fear. Im scared that he would go back to maya or whatever her name is. I trust him but that irrational fear is still there. In some way I think we are both worrying about one of us leaving for our intended mate. Maybe that is why we both don't want to go. Omg I just realized that both of our ex mates are there. Know I have more reasons why I don't want to go. Better yet why lucas should not go. 

ugh~ I just hope that everything works out. Whatever happens happens. If hes content with that maya girl then I wont stop him from being with her.  Don't get me wrong I will fight that b***h. I won't let her take him from me without a fight. I will fight for him if I have to. But it is really all up to lucas. This whole lucas leaving really made me think about stufff...I want him to mark me.  I  know he wants to. You can see it in his face. I hope he marks me soon. Gosh how I want too. I would also want to mark him too so everyone knows hes mine.  I know that I could ask and initiate it but a girl can only dream.

he's just the best thing that happened to me. Without him I would be here I am today. He helps me make the right choices. And he know me better than I know myself. I would never in my right mind leave someone that wants me for me and not for my powers and what I can offer the. He is my everything and I will never go for someone that would just use me. Why in my right mind  would I give him up. 

omg I finally finished making this stupid sandwich. I mean how do you mess up a PB&J. I mean I'm a good cook but lucas spoils me too much wont even let me cook. I have become really rusty in the kitchen. I am a danger in the kitchen now.  lucas makes my food but since i've been ignoring him I haven't tasted his delicious food in a week. 

seriesly how have I made it this far. I have deprived my mouth of his delicious food. It not just them suffering. I am also suffering. I dont think im going to go one more day from not tasting his food.

"omg! omg! omg! you wanna know what I found out!!!"

"shit...when did you get back" wait how is she here...I thought I blocked the mind link.

"ughhh you were probably thinking of food or better yet lucas's food" well she has a point 

"food always gets you of guard... but that's not important right now  wanna know what I found out about mate"

"not really"

"welll he wants-"

"nope  keep it to yourself if he wants to tell us he will"

"but-"

"no it an invasion of privacy"

"I can't possibly keep it to myself"

"why are you so excited...it's not like he was thinking of marking us "

"..."

"omg he was. Wasn't he"

"you said not to tell you"

"oh now you decide to listen"

"yup"

"just tell me "

"ok if you say so"

omg! omg!! im freaking out .That little nosy b***h better not be lying to me.