The rejected wolf

chapter 11

Lucas P.O.V 

 I has been 2 days since claire  agreed to go to the blood moon pack. I knew she was gonna do something to get back at me for tricking her...shes a monster. It wasn't tricking. I withheld some important information... That might have changed her mind. About helping the pack she grew up in.

   I know that they were assholes and that they don't deserve our help. But I know that claire would regret not helping them. And she might not say it but she misses maximus. And luna would more than likely  regret not helping her twin brother. Maximus human isn't the loveliest of people. In fact he was one of the people that cause claire the most pain. And I want to kill all them for that but I know that claire even tho she is overit. She would be devastated if maximus died.

   I know all this but I still wonder if it worth not having s*x. Yes you heard me right. She wont have s*x with me. I mean what kind of monster would do something like this. I would never wish this on my worst enemy... No I would definitely would wish this on  my worst enemy.  I mean does the blood moon need our help.  They could survive without our help ... omg im  so funny. They wouldn't survive without our help. 

   I have to wait 2 more days till we leave for their pack. I would like to think that I would be able to last that till then but I don't think I can. I know it would be good for her to go to that pack and truly get over what happened to her but is it worth no s*x? I don't....no it would be good for her. I would do anything to help her and make her happy. You know one good thing did come out of this. 

"yea and what is that. Not being able to be with  mate"

"oh know you decide to talk to me"   

"well you are being an i***t"

"shut up you stupid wolf"

"at lest my mates not mad at me"

you know he is a pain in the  butt sometimes. I swear he only lives to insult me hes such an asshole."

"you know I can still here you right" 

"s**t I dont think you can" im pretty sure I blocked the mindlink 

"ughh why did the moon goddess put me with such a stupid human"   

"hey I can still hear you"

"you were meant to" 

     you know what I don't wanna hear it. And with that I blocked him. Gosh what was I even thinking about. Oh yea I finally am going to ask claire if she'll let me mark her.  Ever since I met her I wanted to make her mine. Even tho we're together I want to make it clear to all the other wolfs that she is mine and only mine.

I have always wanted to mark her I never thought she was ready. And then I wouldn't have the courage to ask her if I could. But there last two days made me realize that I want her to be fully mine. Now I have to figure out when to ask her if I can mark her.

     i'll just do it when shes not as mad at me. I'm scared shes not going to want me and reject me even tho I know she loves me. I know that she would never do that but I still have that fear. Especially now that we are going to her ex-mates pack. I trust claire and I know she would never do something like that to me. Doesn't mean I trust that ace guy. I know he'll try and win claire.he will try to woo her over. Why wouldn't he? shes like a goddess. I am truly the luckiest man alive and i'll be damned if I let him take her away from me.

   I wouldn't let anyone take her away from me. I will fight for her if I have to. But if she decides that she want to be with him then I would let her. As long as I saw that he truly makes her happy. If she's happy then i'm happy. It would hurt a lot but it would be worth seeing her happy.

after what shes been through she deserves to be happy.I don't care if it not with me.it would be hard to let go but I would try for her.I know that it would probably never happen and that it an irrational fear but it scares me. I trust claire and I know that she would never do that to us. I just don't trust that alpha.  Know he'll try to win her over. He  will probably fail to win her. Unless he does succeed then she would go with him and...

" she wouldn't" ughh not him again

"mate would never do that to us, and why would she downgrade i'm like the most handsome out of everyone"

"you don't say"

" i do say and so dose luna and claire"

"wait have you been talking to them?"

"well duh why wouldn't I " 

"shes been talking to you?"

"why wouldn't she?"

"ohh.. yea totally forgot she was mad at you"

"you little s**t you just want to rub it in my face"

"its not my fault shes mad at you and not me"

"you know what I don't want to talk to you anymore"

that little s**t ugh.that's not fair I want to she wont even look at my direction anymore or talk to me. And when she does its pack related well know I know why that little mutt wasn't whining about it.

"if your gonna talk trash on me it would be smart for you to block the mindlink" ughh not again 

"s**t I forgot too"

"stupid human"

ok so i'm definitely gonna ignore him. Why is everyone against me. You know what calm down. What do they say? it get worse before it gets better.. But it will get better. It has too.I don't think I can last any longer with this treatment. 

ughh and know im going to be tired in the morning from all this thinking and I have to wake up early.this has not been my week. Gosh I can't wait till its over.