My Second Chance

No! I refuse to believe what's happening. What do they mean he has chosen his Luna, I am his mate!!” I cried internally. I rushed over to the pack house ballroom to confirm with my eyes, what my ears heard. With each step I took closer to the ballroom, I could feel it in my chest, the anxiousness, uneasiness and fear all at once. Standing in front of the packs ballroom door, I take a deep breath, and with shaky hands I push open the door. Opening the door I am greeted with bright lights, and the scene I hoped not to see. Another woman in Zack's arms and him embracing her?? “What in the goddess name is happening?” I ask myself. I rush forward to question Zack, but stop in my tracks because of what I heard him say next. Standing on the stage looking all dashing and handsome, Zack grabs the mic to speak, “ Greetings moon pack, as many of you already know, I am Zack Reynolds, alpha of the moon pack. I stand before you today to share good news” I anxiously pray in my heart the news is not what I think it is. Zack continues, “ I have chosen your Luna, she is one of those who have stood by my side and that of the pack. You already know her, so please everyone, Audrey Mane. My world came to a halt the moment I heard that, stood by your side! and the pack, and of all people Audrey!! I have been the one by your side, I am the reason the pack is what it is today, how could he do this to me. Tears threatening to fall down my face, but I hold them back. I can't look weak in front of all of them, that's what they want. With pain in my heart I walk up to Zack demanding an explanation, “we need to talk”. Zack looks at me for a moment and turns back to attend to the guests. Did he just ignore me? !! At this moment I couldn't care less what anyone think, I need to talk to Zack and I need to talk to him now, without a second thought I pull Zack by the arm and grab his collar “Don't ignore me like I'm not important to you, I said we need to talk, now!!” I look straight into his eyes, mine with tears threatening to fall, and his with bewilderment. “Amanda are you crazy? There are people here, what do you think you are doing?” Zack whispers to me, but I couldn't care less. I could sight Audrey a few steps back, probably wondering what I'm doing here. I could see the look of worry and anger on her face, and oh how I loved it. I look back at Zack, staying silent, not giving him a reply or letting go. After a few seconds he gives in, “ please gentlemen, if you would excuse me something just came up, and I need to attend to it urgently”. With that he pulls me out of the ballroom. As Zack pulls me out of the ballroom , I could feel their stares and hear their whispers, but I couldn't care less. There was one person that I could even smell her deadly stare, and that person was Audrey mane. If looks could kill, hers would. Zack pulls me into his study, and slams my body hard against the door, “what were you thinking putting on a show like that?” he growls, anger evident in his voice. I answered his question with a question, “ And what were you thinking announcing Audrey as your mate, when I am your mate!!” The anger and pain reflecting in my eyes. “You knew for the past 8 years I was your mate but never said anything or acknowledged me, all you did was let me troll after you like a pet seeking for attention”. He smiles at me and lifts my chin up with his fingers saying, “ You have always been my pet, mine alone, and mine not to share”. I look at him with a bewildered expression and reply, “Is that enough reason not to acknowledge me as your mate, I turned 20 yesterday, I found out you were my mate yesterday, and when I came to find you what did you do? You brushed me off like I was a nobody to you”. At this point the tears that I had been holding back, dropped like free falls down my cheek. He knew I was his mate when he came of age, he knew what acknowledging me could have done for me, so why? “Why? Why didn't yo_” , with a trembling voice, I try to ask but he quickly cuts me off. “You know why”, this time he lets me go,looking unhappy. “Don't give me that look, like you care about me”, and with every strength left in me, I shove him away. Looking at him with a tear stained face, evident of pain, I ask again, “ why didn't you acknowledge me, why didn't you say anything? Why let me go through the humiliation of being packless and an orphan ?” Maybe he had an explanation for letting me go through this for 8 years, when he could have done something about it. Looking at his face hoping for as explanation to justify his actions, he sighs and responds, “ you just answered your own questions, Amanda”. “Wha_ what? What do you mean I answered my questions”, I asked confused. He sighs again, giving me tired look, “sometimes you seem bright, but still end up asking the dumbest of questions”. I stay silent trying to understand what he means, but he cuts my thoughts short with answers I always dread to hear, especially from him. “It's because your packless Amanda!! and an orphan at that, what do you think the pack elders would say. If you were just packless sure, but an orphan with no means of tracing their origin is of no use to the pack, muchless being their Luna”. Once he said that, I couldn't help the tears streaming down my face again, “ Does it really matter” I mumble under my breathe. “What was that?” He asks, seeming not to have heard me. “Does it really matter!!” I reply this time rasing my voice. “Of course it does! do you think the pack will accept a woman that is packless and an orphan as their Luna? !!” He raises his voice in return “Then why didn't you let me go when Lucas wanted to take me? Why didn't you allow Lucas to take me as his proposed mate?” I ask with the last mental strength left in me. Zack looks at me with an angry expression, saying, “he was no good for you, he was__” I cut him off, saying, “ he was what? Huh? Not meant for me? Who and what are you to decide what's best for me Zack? Answer me!!” With one foot after the other, I slowly walk up to him, with a different fire in my eyes. My index finger pressed against his chest, with a smile I tell him, “you know, its cute seeing you try so hard” He looks at me with a raised eye brow, and I continue, “ acting like I dont affect you, acting like you don't react to me, how long are you going to ignore the mate bond?” I look him straight in his eyes, not wavering, trying to get a reaction out of him. When it seems like he is about to c***k, he gets his composure back, and takes a deep breath, “trying to get a reaction out of me won't work, no one and not even the mate bond can make me accept you, the sooner you understand that the better”. If there was someone there with us at that moment, they won't be able to describe the expression on my face, I looked at him with a shocked expression wondering how he can say such. “ Does the mate bond mean nothing to you? Does my being packless and an orphan have to matter?” I ask him. “Yes it does, do we need to keep going round the conversation like this?” he replies with a lazy expression. At that moment all I could feel, was disappointment and pain, I thought finding ones mate would be the most wonderful feeling, who would have thought that, there were some who didn't care about the mate bond. If he won't accept me, might as well leave this place, “I'm leaving”, my voice trembling as I speak “There is no need staying in a place that neither the pack nor my mate wants” Zack had a panicked expression on his face, which confused me, “ I thought he didn't care”, the thought going through my head. It does not matter as this point, leaving would be the best thing for my mental health. “Where would you go? you have nobody Amanda”, I stood still not saying a word, not moving. Thinking that was all he had to say, I walk towards the door ready to leave, “walk out that door and it's over”, Zack said. Paying him no mind I walk out the door, not looking back, but what Zack said next struck me.