Begging for survival

Chapter 8 - Eyebrows... again

Alexandria POV

The summoning went as expected, we were prepared but it was not easy, nothing can prepare you for facing your own mother after abandoning you for so many years and to top it all off, she accuses you of trying to kill your own brother.

I’m in the nursery room with Sophia, after she calmed down, I told her what happened and she started to calm me down, I don’t know how the conversation drifted to this but it did.

“But he never said it though” i stick to my point.

“Does he really need to say it? Didn’t he show it enough times? Plus, you never said it too, and you are the one who was pushing him away and still kinda does, if any one should be concerned it’s him” she says with a pointed look.

“You are a bad friend Sof for not taking my side” I say annoyed.

“b***h please; I’m your only friend” she says waving her hand dismissively.

“pufft, you are not, I have Max too”,

“Yeah, right, Max is your friend” she says almost in a sarcastic way, before I ask her what the f**k does she mean, we hear a soft knock on the door, Derek.

“Come in alpha, everything is tucked in” Sophia says chuckling, apparently Derek walked in on her while she was breastfeeding one time, freaked out to the point that he hit his head on the door before he managed to actually get out, we agreed to keep that incident a secret, specially that Derek almost killed Dylan 2 days prior for simply dozing off next to me.

“Hey, sof, can I steal my mate for a minute?” Derek says the word ‘mate’ like he is so sure about it but is he really?, He never said ‘IT’.

We walk out of the room, Derek suggests we go for a walk in the woods but I’m really hungry so we end up in the private kitchen on the fifth floor.

“So after you stop inhaling that sandwich, are we going to talk about what happened at the summoning?” he says with one eyebrow raised.

“No” i say with a full mouth.

“No? that’s it? Why not?” he asks with both eyebrows raised now,

“We knew that this was going to happen and I expected nothing less from the b***h and the asshole, so there is nothing more to talk about” I say and dive back into my sandwich, I guess I’m eating my emotions or whatever it’s called.

“Alexandria, you need to stop closing of, you are not on your own anymore, you have me now” Do I really? Well, I had a dad and a mom too, brothers, a sister, even a mate and we were going to have a daughter, but where are any of them now?

I know that this thoughts aren’t fair to him but meeting the one person who was supposed to love you unconditionally, who left you without even looking back, brings up all kinds of insecurities s**t, and let’s not forget, He. Never. Said. IT.

“So what happened with the attack?” I ask ignoring what he just said, bitchy move, I know, he raises one eyebrow over his mesmerizing perfectly blue eyes, he does communicate a lot with his eyebrows.

“It wasn’t rogues, or at-least not only rogues, there were alphas too, but what really puzzles me is what Natalia did” so there were alphas attacking your f*****g pack and what worries you is your f*****g stalker?

“And why is that? What did she do?” I ask biting down on my second sandwich like his statement didn’t bother me at all, yes I’m eating my emotions.

“She left her post to join the fight by the borders, which is something she is definitely not supposed to do, and when she reached the fight, she just stood there almost frozen, like she saw a ghost according to Dean, I wonder if she is okay?” ,Okay, that was really weird of her, but you should be interested in why she did it, not if she is okay or not, asshole… okay, Alexandria, you need to calm down, maybe eat some chips?

Before I can grab the chips we hear yelling coming all the way from the ground floor, so we head down stairs.

Natalia POV

I can’t believe I finally told someone, I finally said what actually happened to me, sure Derek knew but that was because he was there, I didn’t have to tell him anything … it felt like a little bit of weight was left of my chest, that shame and pain I lived with for so long is somehow eased a little, just a little, but for that I’m grateful,

I walk into the pack house to head to my room, holding onto Max, his arms still wrapped around me almost protectively but mostly comforting and I’m immediately welcomed by a yelling Beta who has every right to be angry.

“Where the f**k were you and who the f**k said you can leave your post?” Dean yells and I jump, yes he is seriously pissed, Max tighten his grip on me and yells right back at Dean, if these two would stop fighting, they could be best friends, they are basically the same.

“Calm the f**k down Dean and don’t yell at her” Max yells

“That’s none of your business it’s a pack matter, hunter” Dean says the word hunter like it’s an insult and I’m sure if the Luna heard him she would give him an ear full.

“It is my business when it comes to her” Max says stepping in-front of me, almost shielding me,

“Well, I’m her beta” Dean says through gritted teeth

“And I don’t give a f**k” Max says inching closer to Dean and they look like they are about to get physical .

“ENOUGH” Derek stops them, saving the day, like he always does, except now he has his Luna following his every step, like right now.

“What the hell are you doing Dean, I know you are pissed, specially with the recent information but this is not where and how you handle this, you have an office for that” Derek tells his brother calmly but firmly and then turns to me totally ignoring Max’s presence and the Luna almost rolls her eyes at this.

“And you Natalia, shoul-” Derek stops mid sentence after he takes a good look at me, I’m sure I look like a mess, I’m wearing clothes that are too big, my hair is everywhere and my eyes must be Puffy and swollen with all the crying,

“Are you okay?” he asks genuinely concerned, like he always is, I have no energy to even respond so I just nod which seems to concern him even more, he finally acknowledges Max and shares a look with him.

“Natalia, you should go to your room now, I’ll come to check on you in a minute” Derek says and the Luna’s one eyebrow shoots up so fast, I’m afraid it’s going to be stuck up there forever but she doesn’t say anything … Max leads me back to my room...I know I’m pitiful for feeling a little happy that the Luna is jealous over me.

After we reach my room, I tell Max that I’m going to take a shower then sleep, so he reluctantly leave, I take a shower and do what I always do when I remember what happened, I scrub myself clean until my skin starts bleeding… well, remember is the wrong word here, because I never forgot, it’s always there… lingering.

As I head to my bed to bury myself under the covers, I hear a knock on the door … Derek.

I open the door and it is him with Max behind him looking like he robbed a candy store,

“Hey, I know you said you are going to sleep but I thought it would be better if we watch a movie together or something before you do” Max says with a smile while Derek looks annoyed as hell.

“Thanks Max, but I think I’m too tired for that” i return the smile.

“Okay, I’ll just leave this here then” Max says as he go past me and to my bed to unload all the stuff he brought, but instead of leaving he sits on the bed.

“Can we have a minute” Derek asks Max, more like command.

“It depends, are you going to yell at her like your brother” Max says crossing his arms.

“Does it look like I’m here to yell?” Derek says irritated.

“I don’t know, you wolves always look pissed for some reason” Max says shrugging, okay, a little insulting but he has a point.

“That reason is you; we are pissed because we have to deal with you” Derek says with a sneer, now I understand why the Luna is always rolling her eyes around these two, with there never ending Pickering.

“Alpha, I know I was wrong and I accept any punish-” i try to apologies.

“I’m not here as your alpha, Natalia” he says and I look at him confused, we don’t have much to talk about other than pack related stuff, even that day we don’t talk about anymore, we drifted apart as the years went by, or to be more realistic, he kept his distance when he noticed how I felt about him, he didn’t want to lead me on I guess, always the considerate person.

“Then what is it? You can say anything in-front of Max, it looks like he is not going to leave anyway” I say and Max smirks, yes, he can be a d**k.

“Natalia, I don’t think this is something we can discuss in-front of other people” he says and it clicks, it must be the messed up look.

“It’s okay Derek, Max knows everything, and I mean everything”, Derek looks at me surprised then looks at Max who gives a slight nod.

“In that case...was he there? Did you see him? Was he one of the attackers?” he asks worriedly.

“No, he wasn’t there, don’t worry” I reassure him.

“Then why did you leave your post? And why did you runaway?” he asks with one eyebrow raised, he tends to do that a lot, eyebrow questions.

“I know it was stupid, even dangerous and I was wrong, I’ll accept any punishment, even go back to the dungeons, but I really can’t tell you” I say looking to the ground, I can’t look him in the eyes, I can’t tell him that I found my mate and it’s the enemy, I feel like a traitor just by association.

“Natalia, you know I-”,

“Please Derek, please, don’t push it, I really can’t tell you, maybe someday but not now” I plead, he clenches his jaws but doesn’t press it any longer.

“Just know I’m here for you, Natalia” he says putting a hand on my shoulder and leaves shutting the door behind him.

“You know you have to tell them soon right? I doubt this will be the last attack” Max says still sitting on my bed.

“I know” what a f****d up life I have.

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