POSSESSIVE DADDY

CHAPTER 13: ARGUMENTS

One week I haven't go outside, because I am grounded and now I am free, Michael is not in good mood right now, he is drinking again, I am feeling worried about him but he doesn't want to talk with me. I just give him space, until I cannot handle it anymore and I need to speak up. 

" Daddy? we need to talk?"

" I am busy today Jenna"

His cold tone makes my heart hurt, what is his problem it makes me drives crazy if he wouldn't tell me. I feel like I am just don't have any purpose aside from being submissive, even though he doesn't know my true feelings he needs care and that's from me. As I touch him he move my hands away. 

" Don't. touch me!"

" I-I don't understand Michael what's going on? like even I want to touch you I cant?"

" Its rules Jenna!"

" f**k that Rules Michael, I care about you and now you still think that contract?"

" Go to the playroom now."

I don't have words to say and just makes me feel hopeless, he doesn't let me care for him and doesn't care about me makes me feel so useless, yes this is enough I can fix my mind he doesn't love me, all that he did is just being duty as a dominant to me. I am so desperate even just to appreciate what I did for him, but he never sees it instead he saw it only just for s*x and pleasure, I want to see my value myself and I don't even think of myself in this situation. 

I am here at the playroom as he doing again and again to me whenever I do disobedient and out of rules, I am into pleasure and tears as well as I hate it. There are no words that came out in our mouths just moans and whimpers. I feel so disgusting, all he wants is my body nothing else, isn't it obvious that I love him? 

For how many hours he spent with me in the playroom I cover myself and move right away and clean myself I feel so disgusting, and I feel not important, I am crying in the shower in tears. I don't deserve this but this damn heart still wanting him but he doesn't understand that because all he can see is the contract and being submissive that's all he cares about. 

I am sitting at the couch crying while the night of tone having thunderstorm outside go with my tears flow and Michael go inside of the room and sit beside me, I never look at him I don't want to because it makes me feel masochist again when I am being soft for just little thing moves. 

" You don't understand me, Michael."

" You can't... rules are rules, Jenna, we need to follow that, you signed the contract and you need to do it"

" I don't want the contract Michael, I think I love you with all my heart since before we met but all you see is the contract and being  submissive to you you don't care about me"

" Well, then I guess this is the over with us"

" Just please get out Michael I don't want to see you again"

I see him get out and while me holding my hands and crying so bad, I feel my heart stabbing with a knife, I feel my whole world ruined everything, he is my world mu happiness. All he did to me was true all that I feel when he plays me was all true, but I never heard him be true and honest with me because of contract because of damn rules that I need to follow. 

I so fool for falling in love with the man I don't feel worthy, or he let me feel I am special, he just does these things because it's obligations to do. I am so pissed off because my heart and mind let this do and not thinking in the first place and now who is suffering? that was me! 

* Ring alarm* 

I get up and fix myself and get my things fixed already, I need to meet Michael in the living room, I feel so nervous and I feel my heart drop stop every time I see him, I almost burst into tears but I need to finalize my decision not just because of contracts but I need to think of myself too. 

" I have to go now, Mr. Ledford"

" I will send the money today once you get that it will be better"

" Yes..."

I don't have words anymore and go to the door, and the taxi waiting for me, as I look back Michael move towards me like he wanted me so bad but I am so nervous and I told him to stop.

" Just don't go near to me"

And he stop to move forward, my eyes can't hold back anymore the tears and just staring his eyes for a second and looked away and let the taxi driver put my things proper at the taxi he is just standing in the same place.

" Goodbye Michael..."

I go inside of the taxi and it starts it to go, my heart wants to say go back, hug him tight play with him and kiss him so badly but my mind said I must go and cut this kind of relationship I need to think of myself to move and start over. 

" Ma'am? someone is following us? I think that was a man in the mansion?"

I look at the back it was Micahel and his car! what is he doing? I told the taxi driver to stop and I go out of the taxi and the car stop and he goes out and runs into me, he hugs me tightly and kisses me passionately and I looked into his eyes his sadness and his desperate. 

" Please don't go Jenna please don't please don't leave me"